-/-\- Madison "The Diva of the Future" Divera -/-\-

I reached my arm up around the next person that passed me by. The look on my face of pure horrid. The marks I had taken in from a brutal beating, from a night in a cell. Music of sadness brought tears to those cheeks of whom felt grief.

I turned from the doorway unable to stand the attemp comforts of others who only made my pain grew more. I looked around at the mothers and daughters holding arms and hands pulling kleenex's to their noses.

I dreadfully walk down the isle of the church and take a seat in the front row with the rest of my children, my siblings, my fiance. My daughter Roxxie pulls my hand from my lap and grips it tight in hers. I looked over to the tears in her eyes, and I understand her pain.

The Minister taking his stand by the coffin. My heart at this point is being ripped from my chest looking on to the coffin, knowinb my dead daughter, Audrey, ly's in there lifeless and unable to enjoy life.

The Minister looks on to the people on the bench's. The people at the door swing the doors shut, and nod they head towards the minister to begin the ceremony. He pulls the bible up to the stand and he looks on to those around him again before clearing his throat.

Minister: "We are all gathered here today in mourn of a tragic loss."

I couldn't help but let out a whimper. The Minister's eyes shift towards me.. Sean pulls me in to his arms, attempts to comfort me, him, himself a mess.

Minister: "A loss that was not needed. We are here today to peacefully say goodbye to a lovely young lady, that of only seventeen, a friend, a sister, a daughter.."

I choke on tears..

Minister: "A neice, a possible girlfriend, an aunt, a grand daughter, a great grand daughter, a cousin, a wonderful person."

My mom's hands reach up behind me, she grips gently on to my shoulders, showing her own sign of comfort. But the pain is still too overwhelming, I fe;lt a knot in my throat grow larger, pressure on my lungs as I gasped for air.

My head felt like it was about to exploid from the pain, and the tears were flowing uncontrollably. Teddy and Stacey climb off of their seats beside Sean, Teddy taking a seat on my lap and Stacey taking a seat beside me. Both of them holding on to me for dear life.

The Minister opens the bible and flips a few pages.."Like Mother and Daughter" by Usagi and ChibiUsa begins to play softly in the background. I would do anything to hold her in my arms once again.

Minister: "He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust."

I wasn't listening to the minister, all I could hear in my head was the cry of my daughter calling out my name.. the tears soaking that of my childrens heads, Teddy and Stacey.

Minister: "The LORD is nigh unto all them that call upon him, to all that call upon him in truth. He will fulfil the desire of them that fear him: he also will hear their cry, and will save them."

The knot in my throat grew larger, my heart cried out to me, begging me to stop the pain. Begging me to stop hurting or it would stop beating.

Minister: "God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Therefore will not we fear… Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness. . . . For I the LORD thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee."

I began to choke on my tears again, unable to control myself.. I felt myself breaking a part by the lyrics of the song and the words of the minister.. I looked over to Sean... and I gripped two of my seven children in my arms tightly.

Minister: "The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever."

Stacey turned to me.. gripping in to my chest for more comfort. The pain she felt surged through me and added to mine..! I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs. They folded in to my arms and I burried my face in between the two. People around us looked upon us sadly, and very sympathetically.

Minister: "Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.Now we know that if the earthly tent we live in is destroyed, we have a building from God, an eternal house in heaven, not built by human hands. Meanwhile we groan, longing to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling, because when we are clothed, we will not be found naked. For while we are in this tent, we groan and are burdened, because we do not wish to be unclothed but to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling, so that what is mortal may be swallowed up by life. Now it is God who has made us for this very purpose and has given us the Spirit as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come.Therefore we are always confident and know that as long as we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord. We live by faith, not by sight. We are confident, I say, and would prefer to be away from the body and at home with the Lord."

The Minister takes a moment before contiuing.. he goes over to the coffin and the small table in front of it.. he takes a lighter and lights the candles before him.

Minister: "After that, we who are still alive and are left will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. And so we will be with the Lord forever. A good name is better than precious ointment; and the day of death than the day of one’s birth."

The Minister silences as the music plays a little more loudly throughout the church. He bows out to the back of the church as the music comes to an end. People get up from their seats and move on down the center isle of the church towards the exit.

I stood but I didn't more from there. I looked on to the coffin, my eyes unable to seperate. My heart couldn't sink any lower than it already had.

Sean: "Madison?"

I ignored him, my thoughts in a total different place, and I walk over to her coffin. Placing my hands gently on the lid the tears that stroke my cheek fell and hit the coffin's cherry oak wood.

Roxxie: "Mom come on, don't do this to yourself."

Everything else around me was a blur, it felt like I had went def, even if I saw lips move, no words no sound came from them.

Madison: "Audrey, my sweet baby girl. You were only seventeen, too young to be seperated from this earth, from the ones you love. I know I am not your biological mother. In my heart you will always be my daughter. Your mother, your real mother loved you more than anything in this world, and now you get to be by her side. Like you haven't been in twelve years."

I paused, the rest of my family standing behind me, wanting to hold me back, knowing that what I am doing is going to help me move on. I stroked the coffin, as if it was her cheek.

Madison: "Audrey.. I miss you... I can do this without you..."

My heart had stopped, or so it felt. I gripped the coffin's edges and began to pry it open. Sean and Roxxie coming to my side, in hopes to stop me. The coffin door swung open and I looked down in to the cold dead face of my daughter, the last vision I saw.

Sean: "Baby... hey... Madison.. wake up!"

I fluttered my eyes, everything was a blur and I got an instant migrane soon as the light hit my eyes.

Madison: "What... what's going on!?!"

Sean: "You collapsed baby, come on, we need to get down to the cemetary."

My heart fell again, I was hoping it was just a horrible and very painful nightmare, but it was much more of a reality than anything else around me.

Both Roxxie and Sean helped me to my feet. We didn't say much else of anything after that, until we reached the yard of the church where a collection of our family and friends were standing.

It was only a traditionaly routine to talk about the ceremony to try and cheer people up after this and give the immediate family their condolences before the body is barried.

I stood on the cement walkway not wanting to go further as people approached me, gave me a hug and whispered. "I'm so sorry Maddie," in my ear.

It was until I saw my mother, she was standing by the wall of the church and crying in to the shoulder of my new found biological father, Tyson Lewis. His shirt where her tears had fallen had been soaked through.

I turned to Sean, he knew what I was going to do and just nodded his head. I walked away from them and walked over to my mother and biological father.

Madison: "Mom, come here."

She turned to me, barely opening her eyes and she dove in to my shoulder. Her tears intimadated me. I couldn't hold it back, I burst in to tears once again as well, and we exchanged shoulders to cry on.

I looked over to Tyson, he felt my pain as his daughter, and felt pain for his grand daughter who he just recently met as well. He came over to us and wrapped his arm around the both of us.

Tyson: "I love you baby girl, if you need some time away, ever, I am here for you."

I cracked a weak smile to him. I felt a tap on my shoulder... I turned and looked to see who it was, and I couldn't believe me eyes. A camera crew was standing behind me. I trried to keep my cool, I turned to my mother and my biological father and told them I would be a minute and told the crew to follow me.

Sean watched me lead off the crew and noticed the unpleasant look on my face and he shook his head at the sight. I turned around to the camera's.

Madison Divera: "I am guessing you are here to film my sorrows, to film that of a funeral of my daughter?"

The camera man nods the camera. I reach over the camer and wack him hard upside the head.

Madison Divera: "DO YOU HAVE ANY FUCKIN' RESPECT FOR THE DEAD OR ARE YOU THAT MUCH OF A FREAKIN' PRICK? HUH.. HUH? YOU REALLY THINK ON THE DAY OF MY DAUGHTERS FUNERAL I WANT TO SEE A FREAKIN' CAMERA CREW HERE? WOULD YOU LIKE IT IF YOUR DAUGHTER OR SON DIED AND I CAME TO THEIR FUNERAL AND ASKED YOU FOR A FUCKING INTRVIEW? WOULD YOU LIKE THAT? I THOUGHT NOT. SO YOU BETTER GET OUT OF MY GOD DARN FACE BEFORE I THREATEN TO FILE CHARGES!"

The camera men didn't take what I had to said lightly and they bolted from the property. I turned around and everybody was cocked eyed, they couldn't believe what had just happened.

I ignored their faces and their gaped looked, and I walked over to Sean. Seeing the camera crew made me feel worse. He pulled me in to him and held me tight as I watched everybody in the church yard pile out and get in to their vehicles.

Sean: "Come on Maddie.."

I felt a small pull on my left arm. I turned to Sean, and saw the children piling in the van. I have to admit was a bit embarassed driving that thing around.. that's probably why Sean wore his sunglasses in there, even in the dark.

Madison: "Can you take the kids..? I'm going to walk there if you don't mind.."

He didn't argue with me, he understood how I felt. He kissed my lips lightly and pulled Aiden and Maelynn in to his arms and walked tot he vehicle. I sighed before turning my seperate way. I pulled my coat on further over my neck and I stepped on to the side walk.

Madison: "Sassy Micheals, you made a huge mistake at the PPV."

I ran my hand over my scared and stitched face. I almost looked like the female twenty five year old version of Chucky.

Madison: "Sassy, you messed with the wrong woman. You have a lot of nerve getting mad at me, when you were the one who tried to steal MY company away from ME. Creating a fake contract in hopes to fool my lawyers. Well guess what you old hag, it didn't last long. Go figure."

I reached in to my jacket and pulled out a pack of cigarettes, and a lighter.

Madison: "You're lucky I sold out UWF to Chelsea Morgan. You picked the right time to pull a low blow move on me. Making sure I face plant in to the glass of a vending machine. You're lucky that I haven't filed charges against you."

I sparked up a cigarette and returned the cigarettes to my pocket.

Madison: "Good for Sassy, you must be proud. Looks like your cowardly move cost you. Seeing as Chelsea fufilled my request with facing you in a match, however the stipulations disgust me. That I do not care, because I get to get my hands around your neck and strangle whatever brains you have left in that dented skull of yours."

I turned down the street, and avoided a puddle.

Madison: "I have to say for the first time in a while, I am looking forward to a match. Might as well give yourself a pat on the back while your at it, because after Friday Night Vendetta you won't be able to move your arms. I will make sure you are in a head to toe body cast. Hell while we are at it we might as well at weapons on th list of stipulations, hell why not make this a Street Fight or a Anywhere's Falls match as well, what do you think?"

I shook my head, took a puff of my cigarette and looked on at the cementary not far from me now.

Madison: "You know what I am going to be thinking of when I am in that ring with you on Friday Sassy? I will be thinking of the person who murdered my daughter Audrey. I will be imagining that you are the one who had comitted the crime. And you know as well as I do, that if I picture that in my head, you are in deep trouble."

I smirked. She honestly didn't know what was coming to her.

Madison: "Keep an eye open Sassy Micheals, be ready, alert, be prepared for your demise. Because you know I will not let you get away with murder.."

Sean turned to me, he grabbed my hand and pulled me in with the kids. This was the part I was didn't want to see above all the rest.

Her coffin is not being lowered to the ground. My older sister, Zoey Divera approaches the grave and clears her throat.

Zoey: "You can shed tears that she is gone
or you can smile because she has lived

You can close your eyes and pray that she’ll come back
Or you can open your eyes and see all she’s left

Your heart can be empty because you can’t see her
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.

You can remember her and only that she’s gone
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on

You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back
or you can do what she’d want:
smile,
open your eyes,
love
and go on."

Her poem touched me. She was right, but for right now, I had to grieve. I missed her, I wanted her here, now today to touch to hold to talk to, to tell her that I love her one last time.

Kayla: "I see your smile of the past
You would always make us laugh
Life was forever free
And you were all you could be

Then came time
There were burdens to share
Sadly those you could not bear
Deep within your mind you went
You became not who you truly were

Life became dark
The substance took over
Your eyes filled with tears
The pain was forever

The memories of the past are clear
And when we see tomorrow
You will be nowhere near
When we look for your smile
All we see is the sorrow

But what has happened has brought us close
The memories of your life will always live on
With the sparkle in your eyes
And a smile on your face
In our hearts you have filled a special place
So when we think of you
We will forever reflect back
To who you once were."

My youngest sister, Kayla, walked over to me with open arms, the paper soaked with salty tears, and she hugged me tight, sharing the pain, we looked on at her bitter grave.

I let go of her arms and I took a step forward with Teddy and Stacey. They both took the red rose from their hands and tossed them in to her grave.

Madison: "The memories of the past are vague
The hurts are forever and forgiven
What I have today is what there is forever
And those are the memories of all I have to hold on to.

In my mind I remember a face-one of beauty
One with rarely a frown
And almost always a smile

Never a harsh word-just a kind gentle smile
I hear her voice as she says kind words to all who she knew
The words were always soft
And they were who she was
I will forever hear her say “Hi Honey” soft and gentle was her voice

In the air I breathe
I know she is there
To guide and protect all who she loved
I will forever be grateful
I was born through her to love
I am now who she was."

I pulled a golden locket from the my pocket, one side of it was a picture of her, Sean and I, the other with Teddy and Stacey..! I kissed the locket, one of my tears falling on to its shiny surface and I dropped it in to her grave.

I took a step back with Teddy and Stacey, and watched as the two men began to scoop piles of soil on to her coffin. It was at that first scoop that I felt my life had truly ended. The pain was more than unbearable.

I gripped on to Sean's shoulder for strength, he pulled me in towards him as we listened to the Ministers last words.


	RP #: 04 Opponent(s): Sassy Micheals Stips: Mud Wrestling Revenge Match UWF Record: 2/0/0 Total Record: 46/2/13 Accomplishments: OWF, IWA, EGW, GWL, UWF, SCW Contracts. 1x IWA Heavy Weight Champion 1x EGW Extreme World Champion 1x EWA Iron Man Champion 1x EWA Tag Team Champion UWF Match Records: Madison Divera V.S Sassy Micheals () Name: Madison Divera Age: 25 DOB: October 1st, 1982. Birth Place: Damanhur, Egypt. Current Residence: Oakley, California. Alignment: Cocky Heel Female Siblings: 12 Male Siblings: 9 Female Children: 5 (One Dead) Male Children: 2 Female Grandchildren: 0 Male Grandchildren: 1

	I reached my arm up around the next person that passed me by. The look on my face of pure horrid. The marks I had taken in from a brutal beating, from a night in a cell. Music of sadness brought tears to those cheeks of whom felt grief. I turned from the doorway unable to stand the attemp comforts of others who only made my pain grew more. I looked around at the mothers and daughters holding arms and hands pulling kleenex's to their noses. I dreadfully walk down the isle of the church and take a seat in the front row with the rest of my children, my siblings, my fiance. My daughter Roxxie pulls my hand from my lap and grips it tight in hers. I looked over to the tears in her eyes, and I understand her pain. The Minister taking his stand by the coffin. My heart at this point is being ripped from my chest looking on to the coffin, knowinb my dead daughter, Audrey, ly's in there lifeless and unable to enjoy life. The Minister looks on to the people on the bench's. The people at the door swing the doors shut, and nod they head towards the minister to begin the ceremony. He pulls the bible up to the stand and he looks on to those around him again before clearing his throat. Minister: "We are all gathered here today in mourn of a tragic loss." I couldn't help but let out a whimper. The Minister's eyes shift towards me.. Sean pulls me in to his arms, attempts to comfort me, him, himself a mess. Minister: "A loss that was not needed. We are here today to peacefully say goodbye to a lovely young lady, that of only seventeen, a friend, a sister, a daughter.." I choke on tears.. Minister: "A neice, a possible girlfriend, an aunt, a grand daughter, a great grand daughter, a cousin, a wonderful person." My mom's hands reach up behind me, she grips gently on to my shoulders, showing her own sign of comfort. But the pain is still too overwhelming, I fe;lt a knot in my throat grow larger, pressure on my lungs as I gasped for air. My head felt like it was about to exploid from the pain, and the tears were flowing uncontrollably. Teddy and Stacey climb off of their seats beside Sean, Teddy taking a seat on my lap and Stacey taking a seat beside me. Both of them holding on to me for dear life. The Minister opens the bible and flips a few pages.."Like Mother and Daughter" by Usagi and ChibiUsa begins to play softly in the background. I would do anything to hold her in my arms once again. Minister: "He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust." I wasn't listening to the minister, all I could hear in my head was the cry of my daughter calling out my name.. the tears soaking that of my childrens heads, Teddy and Stacey. Minister: "The LORD is nigh unto all them that call upon him, to all that call upon him in truth. He will fulfil the desire of them that fear him: he also will hear their cry, and will save them." The knot in my throat grew larger, my heart cried out to me, begging me to stop the pain. Begging me to stop hurting or it would stop beating. Minister: "God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Therefore will not we fear… Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness. . . . For I the LORD thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee." I began to choke on my tears again, unable to control myself.. I felt myself breaking a part by the lyrics of the song and the words of the minister.. I looked over to Sean... and I gripped two of my seven children in my arms tightly. Minister: "The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever." Stacey turned to me.. gripping in to my chest for more comfort. The pain she felt surged through me and added to mine..! I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs. They folded in to my arms and I burried my face in between the two. People around us looked upon us sadly, and very sympathetically. Minister: "Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.Now we know that if the earthly tent we live in is destroyed, we have a building from God, an eternal house in heaven, not built by human hands. Meanwhile we groan, longing to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling, because when we are clothed, we will not be found naked. For while we are in this tent, we groan and are burdened, because we do not wish to be unclothed but to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling, so that what is mortal may be swallowed up by life. Now it is God who has made us for this very purpose and has given us the Spirit as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come.Therefore we are always confident and know that as long as we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord. We live by faith, not by sight. We are confident, I say, and would prefer to be away from the body and at home with the Lord." The Minister takes a moment before contiuing.. he goes over to the coffin and the small table in front of it.. he takes a lighter and lights the candles before him. Minister: "After that, we who are still alive and are left will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. And so we will be with the Lord forever. A good name is better than precious ointment; and the day of death than the day of one’s birth." The Minister silences as the music plays a little more loudly throughout the church. He bows out to the back of the church as the music comes to an end. People get up from their seats and move on down the center isle of the church towards the exit. I stood but I didn't more from there. I looked on to the coffin, my eyes unable to seperate. My heart couldn't sink any lower than it already had. Sean: "Madison?" I ignored him, my thoughts in a total different place, and I walk over to her coffin. Placing my hands gently on the lid the tears that stroke my cheek fell and hit the coffin's cherry oak wood. Roxxie: "Mom come on, don't do this to yourself." Everything else around me was a blur, it felt like I had went def, even if I saw lips move, no words no sound came from them. Madison: "Audrey, my sweet baby girl. You were only seventeen, too young to be seperated from this earth, from the ones you love. I know I am not your biological mother. In my heart you will always be my daughter. Your mother, your real mother loved you more than anything in this world, and now you get to be by her side. Like you haven't been in twelve years." I paused, the rest of my family standing behind me, wanting to hold me back, knowing that what I am doing is going to help me move on. I stroked the coffin, as if it was her cheek. Madison: "Audrey.. I miss you... I can do this without you..." My heart had stopped, or so it felt. I gripped the coffin's edges and began to pry it open. Sean and Roxxie coming to my side, in hopes to stop me. The coffin door swung open and I looked down in to the cold dead face of my daughter, the last vision I saw. Sean: "Baby... hey... Madison.. wake up!" I fluttered my eyes, everything was a blur and I got an instant migrane soon as the light hit my eyes. Madison: "What... what's going on!?!" Sean: "You collapsed baby, come on, we need to get down to the cemetary." My heart fell again, I was hoping it was just a horrible and very painful nightmare, but it was much more of a reality than anything else around me. Both Roxxie and Sean helped me to my feet. We didn't say much else of anything after that, until we reached the yard of the church where a collection of our family and friends were standing. It was only a traditionaly routine to talk about the ceremony to try and cheer people up after this and give the immediate family their condolences before the body is barried. I stood on the cement walkway not wanting to go further as people approached me, gave me a hug and whispered. "I'm so sorry Maddie," in my ear. It was until I saw my mother, she was standing by the wall of the church and crying in to the shoulder of my new found biological father, Tyson Lewis. His shirt where her tears had fallen had been soaked through. I turned to Sean, he knew what I was going to do and just nodded his head. I walked away from them and walked over to my mother and biological father. Madison: "Mom, come here." She turned to me, barely opening her eyes and she dove in to my shoulder. Her tears intimadated me. I couldn't hold it back, I burst in to tears once again as well, and we exchanged shoulders to cry on. I looked over to Tyson, he felt my pain as his daughter, and felt pain for his grand daughter who he just recently met as well. He came over to us and wrapped his arm around the both of us. Tyson: "I love you baby girl, if you need some time away, ever, I am here for you." I cracked a weak smile to him. I felt a tap on my shoulder... I turned and looked to see who it was, and I couldn't believe me eyes. A camera crew was standing behind me. I trried to keep my cool, I turned to my mother and my biological father and told them I would be a minute and told the crew to follow me. Sean watched me lead off the crew and noticed the unpleasant look on my face and he shook his head at the sight. I turned around to the camera's. Madison Divera: "I am guessing you are here to film my sorrows, to film that of a funeral of my daughter?" The camera man nods the camera. I reach over the camer and wack him hard upside the head. Madison Divera: "DO YOU HAVE ANY FUCKIN' RESPECT FOR THE DEAD OR ARE YOU THAT MUCH OF A FREAKIN' PRICK? HUH.. HUH? YOU REALLY THINK ON THE DAY OF MY DAUGHTERS FUNERAL I WANT TO SEE A FREAKIN' CAMERA CREW HERE? WOULD YOU LIKE IT IF YOUR DAUGHTER OR SON DIED AND I CAME TO THEIR FUNERAL AND ASKED YOU FOR A FUCKING INTRVIEW? WOULD YOU LIKE THAT? I THOUGHT NOT. SO YOU BETTER GET OUT OF MY GOD DARN FACE BEFORE I THREATEN TO FILE CHARGES!" The camera men didn't take what I had to said lightly and they bolted from the property. I turned around and everybody was cocked eyed, they couldn't believe what had just happened. I ignored their faces and their gaped looked, and I walked over to Sean. Seeing the camera crew made me feel worse. He pulled me in to him and held me tight as I watched everybody in the church yard pile out and get in to their vehicles. Sean: "Come on Maddie.." I felt a small pull on my left arm. I turned to Sean, and saw the children piling in the van. I have to admit was a bit embarassed driving that thing around.. that's probably why Sean wore his sunglasses in there, even in the dark. Madison: "Can you take the kids..? I'm going to walk there if you don't mind.." He didn't argue with me, he understood how I felt. He kissed my lips lightly and pulled Aiden and Maelynn in to his arms and walked tot he vehicle. I sighed before turning my seperate way. I pulled my coat on further over my neck and I stepped on to the side walk. Madison: "Sassy Micheals, you made a huge mistake at the PPV." I ran my hand over my scared and stitched face. I almost looked like the female twenty five year old version of Chucky. Madison: "Sassy, you messed with the wrong woman. You have a lot of nerve getting mad at me, when you were the one who tried to steal MY company away from ME. Creating a fake contract in hopes to fool my lawyers. Well guess what you old hag, it didn't last long. Go figure." I reached in to my jacket and pulled out a pack of cigarettes, and a lighter. Madison: "You're lucky I sold out UWF to Chelsea Morgan. You picked the right time to pull a low blow move on me. Making sure I face plant in to the glass of a vending machine. You're lucky that I haven't filed charges against you." I sparked up a cigarette and returned the cigarettes to my pocket. Madison: "Good for Sassy, you must be proud. Looks like your cowardly move cost you. Seeing as Chelsea fufilled my request with facing you in a match, however the stipulations disgust me. That I do not care, because I get to get my hands around your neck and strangle whatever brains you have left in that dented skull of yours." I turned down the street, and avoided a puddle. Madison: "I have to say for the first time in a while, I am looking forward to a match. Might as well give yourself a pat on the back while your at it, because after Friday Night Vendetta you won't be able to move your arms. I will make sure you are in a head to toe body cast. Hell while we are at it we might as well at weapons on th list of stipulations, hell why not make this a Street Fight or a Anywhere's Falls match as well, what do you think?" I shook my head, took a puff of my cigarette and looked on at the cementary not far from me now. Madison: "You know what I am going to be thinking of when I am in that ring with you on Friday Sassy? I will be thinking of the person who murdered my daughter Audrey. I will be imagining that you are the one who had comitted the crime. And you know as well as I do, that if I picture that in my head, you are in deep trouble." I smirked. She honestly didn't know what was coming to her. Madison: "Keep an eye open Sassy Micheals, be ready, alert, be prepared for your demise. Because you know I will not let you get away with murder.." Sean turned to me, he grabbed my hand and pulled me in with the kids. This was the part I was didn't want to see above all the rest. Her coffin is not being lowered to the ground. My older sister, Zoey Divera approaches the grave and clears her throat. Zoey: "You can shed tears that she is gone or you can smile because she has lived You can close your eyes and pray that she’ll come back Or you can open your eyes and see all she’s left Your heart can be empty because you can’t see her or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday. You can remember her and only that she’s gone or you can cherish her memory and let it live on You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back or you can do what she’d want: smile, open your eyes, love and go on." Her poem touched me. She was right, but for right now, I had to grieve. I missed her, I wanted her here, now today to touch to hold to talk to, to tell her that I love her one last time. Kayla: "I see your smile of the past You would always make us laugh Life was forever free And you were all you could be Then came time There were burdens to share Sadly those you could not bear Deep within your mind you went You became not who you truly were Life became dark The substance took over Your eyes filled with tears The pain was forever The memories of the past are clear And when we see tomorrow You will be nowhere near When we look for your smile All we see is the sorrow But what has happened has brought us close The memories of your life will always live on With the sparkle in your eyes And a smile on your face In our hearts you have filled a special place So when we think of you We will forever reflect back To who you once were." My youngest sister, Kayla, walked over to me with open arms, the paper soaked with salty tears, and she hugged me tight, sharing the pain, we looked on at her bitter grave. I let go of her arms and I took a step forward with Teddy and Stacey. They both took the red rose from their hands and tossed them in to her grave. Madison: "The memories of the past are vague The hurts are forever and forgiven What I have today is what there is forever And those are the memories of all I have to hold on to. In my mind I remember a face-one of beauty One with rarely a frown And almost always a smile Never a harsh word-just a kind gentle smile I hear her voice as she says kind words to all who she knew The words were always soft And they were who she was I will forever hear her say “Hi Honey” soft and gentle was her voice In the air I breathe I know she is there To guide and protect all who she loved I will forever be grateful I was born through her to love I am now who she was." I pulled a golden locket from the my pocket, one side of it was a picture of her, Sean and I, the other with Teddy and Stacey..! I kissed the locket, one of my tears falling on to its shiny surface and I dropped it in to her grave. I took a step back with Teddy and Stacey, and watched as the two men began to scoop piles of soil on to her coffin. It was at that first scoop that I felt my life had truly ended. The pain was more than unbearable. I gripped on to Sean's shoulder for strength, he pulled me in towards him as we listened to the Ministers last words.