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"Do
not
love me, envy me, hold me, kiss me, touch me, promise me, challenge me,
mock me, loath me, trust me, dishonor me, tarnish me, ravish me, tempt
me, approach me, like me, miss me, hate me, pray for me, despise me,
honor me... FEAR ME!"
__________________________________________________ ~*~ Two Weeks Ago ~*~ Wrapping my fingers over the banister, my eyes point in the direction of the stairs...! I watched myself with the basket of laundry in my arms.. and the toy tonka truck sitting just above the top stair. I watched on as I turned my head to yell towards the bedroom and with one step.. I crashed down the stairs with a tumble, head over heals I land on the floor in the entrance with a hard blow to head against the edge of the wall. Blood began to soak the front entrance.. and I layed there... I looked back up the stairs standing before my body and watched as Micheal "Silkk" Carrington darting down the stairs to my body's aid.. I continued to watch as both my youngest daughter and son approach me... but the view quickly fades.... -------------------------------------------- My hair layed curled against the pillow... in a deep sleep.. I turned over under the sheets, holding on to the pillow that had been placed between my arms.. my cheek lightly brushes the pillow as a drak figure hovers above me.. leaning down.. He plants a kiss to my cheeks and carefully turns my head to touch my lips with a soft and passionate kiss. My heart pounding... I take a gulp and I watch as a tear falls from his chin and to mine and a few on the envolope he places beside me on the pillow. He quickly walked around the bed and breathed a few words before taking the gun out of the top drawer of the nighstand at the oppsite end of which I was lying..! He exited the room with the gun clenched in his right hand.. I shake my head and run after him... Screaming at the top of my lungs for him to stop... he pauses turns around and looks directly in my direction..! I move my hand from my side and reach for his... but it vanishes right through his warm flesh as he continues his way to exit the Pit Bull Mansion...! I ran through the door and followed him down the street as he drops to his knees, and places the long hard circular gun to his temple and pulls the trigger... his lifeless body falls to the ground and the tears begin to roll down my cheek like the Niagra Falls.. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - I thrash my head back and forth on the pillow with a squinted face. Madison: SEAAANNNNNNN! - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - I find myself standing still like a stoned statue.. and I watch myself run out of the doorway to the mansion and out to the road with an eerie look in my face. The despair was only too obvious as I spot Sean's body and run to him.. Cupping his head in my hands... I bring him to my lap and cry into his lifeless face the blood seeping in to the creases of my hands. ------------------------------------------- There I stood on the veranda..... I wear white torn pajama's that are spotted and blotted with Sean's blood. The tears completely washed away my face.... the look in my eyes is distant... I stand there... my hair blowing in the wind. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - My hair blows against the back of my hair... there is a creaking on the stairs....! I lift my feet on to the bottom railing of the veranda fence... my eyes closed... - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - I raise my feet up a bit... my whole body ready to plunge in to the beyond of the ground below me... the wind pushing my body back to the veranda floor.. holding me in a standing position.. my arms spread wide open to dive.. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Hearing that I had screamed his name.. he comes dashing in to my bedroom.. to see the bed empty and the doors to the veranda open and the wind blowing in.. he looks on in confusion and approaches the doors and see's me standing on the railing of the veranda ready to jump... Sean: Madison...give me your hand...please. My arms begin to shake.. and my eyes begind to flutter open... to see the ground many many feet below me.. and I fall backwards with a faint into Sean's arms. Sean catches me and carries me over to the bed and gently lays me down being sure to keep my head elevated a bit and cradles me in his arms beginning to speak more to himself than to me... Sean: Oh Madison...what were you thinking? My breathing becomes heavy and quick pants and I open my eyes with shock again.. tears streaming my cheeks and I turn in to Sean whimpering. Sean holds me close and caresses the back of my head trying his best to comfort me... Sean: Madison...what happened? My arms wrap around him tightly as I hold him close. The tears now soaking his wife-beater. Madison: Nightmares.. That was the only word that was able to escape from my quivering lips.. my eyes closed again.. scared. Sean continues to caress the back of my head and begins slowly rocking back and forth. Sean gently brushes the hair out of my face and wipes away my tears with his thumb... Sean: They're just dreams Boo, they ain't real. Plus with me here with you, you will never have anything to fear...I promise. I dart my eyes up to him feeling the warmth, the safe protection of his touch. Madison: I haven't been able to stop re-living the day you "died" in my dreams.. The pain comes almost too unbearable as I begin to struggle for air...was I having a breakdown, a panic attack? Tears well up in Sean's eyes as he looks down at me... Sean: It's ok baby...I didn't die...I'm right here...I'm back. It was your love that saved me. I produced a small smile as a little pitter-patter of feet make their way to the doorway of the bedroom.. my son stood there with a teddy bear in his year old arms... he is sobing. Sean and I both dart our eyes over at him and Sean's eyes seem to widen when he looks at Aiden... a striking resemblence. Aiden: Momma... Sean lets go of me as I make my way off of the bed and gets up to go to my son and Sean stares at the boys face before looking at me and then back at the boy. Sean: Madison...is he?...Is it possible?... Sean seemed lost for words and frozen where he sat...I look back at him... I never thought of it before..! I looked down at Aiden and then back at Sean as I scooch my way back on the bed and look back at Sean.. Madison: He's Micheal's.. Sean's eyes still glued to the boy... Sean: Micheal's?...Are you sure? I nod my head at him... I was pretty sure he belonged to Micheal. Madison: If you want, next week the twins are getting their DNA tested because I am figuring out their blood type for medical purposes... you can come with me. He looked shell-shocked.. I forgot to mention to him that there was two of them... Sean: Twins?...Are you telling me I have three midgets I can play with now? He tries to make the scene a happy one but interjecting that little joke... The smile on my face comes back but wider and much more filled with content and happiness than with fear and sadness. Madison: Midgets.. Brooke is nearly three and a half years old now! Sean: Ok...wee people? Dwarves? Sean laughs a bit at his own joke, and he watches as I kiss my son on the forehead.. he smiles up at me and Sean just capture's the sweet moment as Aiden hops down from the bed and runs out of the room bad to his bedroom.. I look back at Sean ... I knew he was in a joking mood but I don't think I could hold it in any longer it was going to drive me crazy. I stared in to his eyes as he chuckled.. and I smiled warmly.. and without any sign of warning the words slipped from my lips without thinking.. Madison: I love you Sean.. Sean gaped at me for a moment before he leans in towards me kisses me softly on the lips and whispers into my ear... Sean: I love you too! As Sean went to pull away after whispering the words I have been longing to hear for months since his aparant death.. I was craving for this.. I needed this.. I was not the same woman without him.. I could not love and long for another like I did for him.. I moved in closer to him.. sliding my body against his.. Not resisting.. I couldn't believe this was happening.. after him leaving me to go off in to the beyond.. in to the white light.. or so they say.. he is laying here underneath me as I caress his chest with my hands...I slowly cover his body with mine as he leans back against the headboard... I move in to his lips and brush mine against his with more passion than I could possibly imagine...! I reached over with my left hand to the nightstand and grabbed the alarm clock that broke god knows how long ago and threw it as the door.. it clunked to the ground with a small thump after achieving it's purpose in closing the door. Sean uses his Jui Jitsu skills and quickly goes from being on his back to having me on mine. Sean takes hold of my hands and holds them down as he kisses my lips softly, then to my jaw, then neck, and finally my collar bone... I slide my hand over his cheek and on the back of his head..! My hands slowly make their way down his back as they curve around the bottom of his wife-beater with a grasp and I pull it over his head kissing his shoulder.. Sean looks down into my eyes as if he can see through to my heart and gives hme a loving smile before kissing me with a fiery passion. He rolls over again so that I am strattling him, but holds me close and continues to kiss me. I brush my lips across his neck and kiss in a different spot as I may my way down to his collar bone...! I rub my hands up his arms and to both sides of his face as our lips meet with more passion. I pull myself up to the seating position.. curling my fingers around the edges of my tank top and pulls it up over my head.. Sean sits up pressing his body against mine, he tilts his head and bites down on my neck, not hard but in an intimate way. He sucks on the spot for a moment before sliding his tongue up my neck and nibbling on my earlobe...Rubbing my hands on his back... I moan slightly with pleasure and dig my nails gently but surely with pressure in his back with a tilt in my head and an arch in my back. Sean pulls away and lays back down smiling up at me before gesturing to come get him... I smirk before unbuckling his pants.. he looked at me with yearning and a smirk.. with his arms folded behind his head... I pull off his pants and let them fly to the floor... before standing and letting mine fall to the floor as well.. rolling back on to the bed... to Sean's side... I softly plant my lips to his ribs and kiss my way up his chest.. rolling myself up top of him again. Sean kisses me pulling my body into his as he passionately grabs a handfull of my hair and pulls my head back a bit before biting my neck again...I let out a slight moan once again before sliding my finger nails up his ribs lightly to only sexually tickle him. Goosebumps form on his skin as I push him back down to the bed and unbuckle my bra with a smile. Sean lays in wait of what's in store knowing I tend to enjoy driving him crazy...but the ecstacy bursts forth from within him and he sits up, licking and sucking on my supple breasts as I begin to breath deeply and more noticeably.. I lift myself from him slightly pulling off his boxer briefs with a smirk.. I gesture for him to pull off my lace panites with his teeth. Sean leans in and with his teeth he removes my lace panties with a smile before laying me on her back and using his tongue to tease me with pleasure... I bite down on my bottom lip and clap my hands to my knees with a grip...after a minute.. I grab Sean by the arms and pull him up to me.. Sean slowly kisses his way up my body first my hip, then up my belly, up between my breasts, to my collar bone,my neck, and finally finding his way to my lips.. as we share an intimate and very romanticly passionate kiss. I push myself up to him.. letting him insert inside of me slowly with an arch of the neck... I close my eyes and place my hand on the back of his neck pulling him down for another extremely passionate and romantic kiss our bodies becoming one with one another. Sean thrusts his hips into mine, his back arching with every thrust as he kisses me and feeling alive for the first time in months.. I moan with pleasure as he pulls out and pushes back in... I roll him over on to his back .. still inserted within me.. and I stralling him once again.. this time.. I move in close to him.. our lips meeting once again for share a very passionate kiss as I pick up the pace with my movements.. Sean body tenses up with pleasure as I takes complete control of him and he returns my kiss in full as he reaches up and begins to fondle my breasts for added pleasure... making the moment their sharing even more sensational.. my movements become more rapid and smooth... I roll my hips up top of him as I can hear a little hiss of pleasure escape his lips followed by a moan... as I know he is reaching his peak. Sean begins using counter-movements to thrust deeper into me as he places his hands on my hips for added leverage... I let out a more vocal moan... and words escape my lips... Madison: Oooh Sean.. I couldn't resist it any longer and I could feel that he could not either..! His body stiffened and mine became to quiver.. Just as we begin to climax Sean moans louder feeling me tighten up as I climaxed... Sean: Aye, mamacita! Te amo! I fall down to him like a sack of potato's.. hair soaked with sweat.. I smile at Sean.. could this really be real? I roll off of him panting and gasping for air...! I grab my cigarettes from the nightstand and signal for him to follow as I grab my house coat from the headboard and drench it around my body.. slipping my feet in to my slippers and heading out on to the veranda. Sean pulls on his pants and follows me out onto the veranda before taking my pack from hme and grabbing a cigarette with his teeth before grabbing one for me and lighting it before placing it to my lips and giving me a kiss on the cheek, I smile. He lights his own cigarette and instantly feels the nicotine high...I smile again looking in to his eyes.. missing the moments we shared like this.. missing the passion.. the connection..I inhale from my cigarette and look in to the bedroom at the blankets in a mess. Madison: It's great to have you back my love. Sean smiles back and puts an arm around my lower back... Sean: It's great to be back...Even when I had amnesia I had dreams of you... Madison: So.. Dr. Penelope...? Sean: She helped me escape from the hospital after I was brought out of my coma...I understand she paid you a visit... Madison: Yeah she did to find out things about you about a patient she had.. Then it all fit in to place... he was her patient. Madison: It fits now... you were alive when she showed up at my door. Sean: Yeah, but at that time I didn't know who I was or any of my past... Sean breaks off as something glints out of the corner of his eye. He flicks his cigarette and walks back into their room before coming back out holding a picture in his hands...a picture of him, Brooke and me... I inahle the last puff of my cigarette before as well flicking it over the edge and follows him inside closing the door behind me. Madison: What's wro.. I stop and see he is holding the picture of the three of us.. the one that has never been moved.. A tear rolls down Sean's cheek as he stares at the picture before looking up at me and smiling. Sean places the picture back and approaches me, wrapping me up in a big hug... Madison: Sean...! I didn't know what else to say.. as I wrapped my arms around him back and held him close... I looked back at the picture and placed my head against his..! Madison: Are you okay? Sean lets go but keeps his hands on my waist and looks into my face with a smile... Sean: I'm the happiest man alive! I still looked at him in shock and confusion.. I quirked my eyebrow. Madison: About what? Sean gives me a look like he's deep in thought... Sean: Well, let's see...I'm back with the woman of my dreams...back in my own house...and now I got three beautiful children to take care of and keep happy...! Madison: You do remember.. none of them are yours right? Sean: And your point is? The way I look at it is that I'm stepping up and being the man that their fathers couldn't be...and I couldn't be any happier to be a part of their lives...watch them smile...hear them laugh...be there for them when they're scared..cheer them up when they're sad...being a father is a man's greatest achievment! I smile at him...! I couldn't believe this was the same Sean that I fell head over heels madly in love with.. but like as if on cue... the beautiful and bright three and a half year old Brooke Divera comes walking in to the room rubbing her sleepy eyes. Brooke: Mommy.. I thought I heard Daddy... Brooke slurred her last word and looked at Sean with bright eyes.... tears began to soak her cheeks with happiness as she ran towards him with arms wide open.. The smile Sean gave said it all as he catches Brooke in his arms, wrapping her up in a hug and doing a 360 on the spot before giving Brooke a kiss on the cheek... Sean: That's right baby girl...Daddy's here to stay! I couldn't help myself.. I was shell shocked.. I clapped my hands to my mouth as I couldn't hold back the tears any longer.. they began to pour down my cheeks as I looked at them. Sean turns to me with Brooke still in his arms and wraps an arm around me pulling me into a hug and hugging both me and Brooke and then kisses my forehead. Sean looks over at Brooke and kisses her on the forehead as well as a few tears roll down his face in happiness. I take Brooke in to my arms.... and smiles back at Sean as I gesture my head to the bed... Sean nods his head removing the sheet at the bottom and replacing it with another.. Brooke watches him.. eager to get close to him again ... I scoot on to the bed with Brooke as the twins come in to the room as well... Sean can't help but notice the splitting image of me in my youngest daughter as she jumps up on the bed with the rest of us. Sean cuddles with them...his loved ones...his family. He leans over the children careful not to squish any of them and kisses me before whispering into my ear... Sean: I love you Madison Divera...and I love our children.... Madison: I love you too Sean Homes. Things seemed so perfect. Things seemed to be back where they were in their rightful place.. but what was really stuck on my mind was.. were Maelynn and Aiden Sean's or Micheal's.. that never came in to mind before as I looked from my children to the love of my life... things seemed too good to be true. It was not long ago that I ditched Micheal because of his incapability.... and my lack of love for him. A relationship with meaningless terms is not a relationship.. I tried for the sake of the children but soon enough came to terms that I simply could not be happy.. I found myself in my own federation.. or what was my federation as of last week trying to get some paper work done when a creepy midget came rolling his was in on a trike with a tape ... showing that Micheal and his friend Shyne had their brain's blown to bits.. I hesitated at the video and went to pursue the man who was behind it.. and surely enough it was the man who I thought had died 6 months ago. That man being Sean Homes.. Hours had passed.. Sean had left the Pit Bull mansion on personal errands and the children were playing with Kayla in the living room. I looked distant.. this is the first time since the blow to my head in which I feel like a real human being. Adena: You're becoming weak again.. Madison: No! Adena: He's making you soft.. Madison: Never! Adena: He's taking over your soul.. you will soon be wrapped around his pinky finger..with no where to go.. Madison: That's a lie... Adena: He doesn't love you.. he's playing you. Madison: Can't be.. Adena: He is.. Madison: No... I dug the nails in to my temples trying to drive the voices from within out.. but they were not from within.. and they surely weren't voices.. I slipped my naked body in to the bubble bath and stared off at the mirror directly in front of me on the wall.. the woman.. the reflection was not I.. it couldn't be.. ~*~ Present ~*~ My hand flinched against the bed sheets, and I twinkled my fingers. it felt as if my eyes had been glued shut and I gasped for air, my heart monitor beeping dramatically... I felt my chest pound like an electrical hammer. The door to the hospital room swing open with a bang and in rushed two nurses, Sean, and the Doctor..! The Doctor wasn't reluctant in getting to me as he immediatly pulled my eye lids up with his fingers and flashed a light..! I felt Sean's hand brush up in to my.. as they intertwined with fingers. I looked up at him.. and it was like an instant cure, I could breath once again. My heart rate begin to lower back to a regular pace and the Doctor hesitated, looking from Sean to me to the heart monitor. The more curious look came across his face. Doctor: Ms. Divera, can you hear me? I nodded my head and looked over at him. Doctor: Say something please.. Madison: I'm fine.. The doctor nodded his head and looked back at the nurses.. another doctor signaled him out of my hospital room and in to the hallway and Sean continued to stare in to my eyes, the worry overwhelming his facial features.. his grip on my head almost acted like the end of the world was near. Sean: Maddy.... His soft left hand brushed my cheek with a tremendous amount of love and passion. Madison: What happened...? He hushes me and curls my hand to his face like a sad puppy and kisses each finger softly and precisely. Sean: You just broke down at Madness, the doctors took some tests, they won't know any further action to take until they get the results.. I nodded my head, and the reception nurse came to the room she knocked on the door. Nurse: Mr. Homes... your daughter is on the phone. Both Sean and I looked at the nurse with quisitical looks and he nodded his head.. he leant over and kissed my lips ever so passionatly but also concerningly and as much as shocked as I was that Brooke called the hospital, he left the room and closed the door behind him. Adena: He did this to you.. Madison: No.. he didn't.. Adena: He's using you, getting close to you... so he can hurt you.. Madison: No.. Adena: Crush you... Madison: Shut up! Adena: There is only one way you can do that my dear. Madison: How...? Adena: DIE! It felt cold, I shivered, my breath in the air turned to a white mist and my lips felt like they were getting frost bitten.. My cell phone began to vibrate on the end table.. I couldn't believe It was still on.. and I reached over, my hand shaking..and grabbed it. I had just got a text message from my manager Jessie Dermont, that I have a match at Christmas Carnage.. the UWF PPV! I felt my heart sink... UWF was my federation not Sassy's... and now I am sitting in the back row like some kind of want-to-be. Hard Rocker... a Section 8 member. Madison: Hard Rocker is it.. a worthy opponent, also a fellow Section 8 member. You think because we are in the same stable that we are buddies? Sean is the sole reason why I am in this Stable and like him I will stand to make that stable proud.. Rocker you remember I used to be the owner of this federation...! I used to run this place, and man did I do a hell of a job... do you realize that once I got my ownership taken from me, no not fairly won, but taken, your matches have led you on a path that has no true meaning? Rocker you are a great competitor I can't take that away from you.. and nor would I. But there is something that I will take from you and that is a victory on January 4th, at Christmas Carnage, a PPV that will be my debut appearance and luck you get to be my first victim in this sharade. You will be the first to step in the ring with the woman who made this place what it is today. You will get to face the woman who made this federation the bed in the industry. For a female I have made great accomplishments but when it comes down to you and me, accomplishments don't matter. What we did in our pasts do not matter, nor does the titles that we once held around our waist and who we struck fear in. But Hard Rocker, I do know you have quite the few accomplishment, you have quite the record and quite the name out there. I would hate to be the one to stomp on your parade now that you have got yourself on some what established grouns here, and I would hate to be the one to knock you out of this so-called tournament that Sassy has set up... and especialy in round one. But you see, I don't stand to lose, and although you may be alongside me in Section 8, I still plan on ruining this PPV for you, make you bed for mercy. I pause for a moment.. I look down at my cell phone at the match, and I flip the phone shut. Madison: I have came to far in this federation to let you ruin things for me. I smirk. Madison: People may doubt me, boo me to the ring, tell me that I don't have what it takes to take you out for the three count, but oh are they ever wrong. Are they going to be sadly mistaken when I show you who the boss is. I don't care if you weigh 100lbs more than me or you have been wrestling for a total of an extra three months than me. I do not care if you have taken out everybody in our little stable before.. including Sean..! May I add I knocked him on his ass as well. Rocker, you think Untouchable is really Untouchable.. wait until you get in the ring with me, wait until you come face to face with a beast... and no.. not your worst nightmare..! Wait for the moment that the ref calls for the three count and slap the matt with frustration as he raises my arm with the victory.. taste your own blood and crumble to the matt like a home made cookie who just can't hold it together. You will ly on that matt thinking that everything you had is now gone, and everything that you have worked for is lost.. you will think to yourself that you are a failure and that you are not capable of working around and manouvering in the ring like you had once did. You will look at yourself in the mirror that night and you will feel ashamed, ashamed that you had lost.. at one of the most important PPV's of the year.. and in one of the most important matches so far in UWF.. you will feel horrible that you had lost .. and to me! You would get an automatic bump down on the ladder, unless you get lucky.. you will be an old washed up and tarnished trophy that will sit on Sassy's wall of accomplishments along with Johnny Mara just to do her bad bidding for her.. and you will be wrapped around her finger like a tight permanent ring... as her body guard..! Can you imagine that happening to you..? Think about all of that and think of what is on the line with this match.. think of all of that and think.. what will I do after that? I can tell you what you will do.. you will be Sassy personal guard dog.. her servent.. her little "pool boy"! She will have you trained... and better yet you will be feeding out of the palm of her hand. I can deal you that fate Rocker. I can shove you in to the shark tank and laugh at you as you meet your demise. But will I? That is the real teaser Hard Rocker.. will I feed you to the lions.. like I have been thinking oh so badly since I heard about this match .. or will I lend out a hand to you and not let Sassy turn you in to a stoned statue...? Rocker, you know as well as I do, this match will be a tought one, and I am even admitting that. And I never think of myself losing a match. Remember what I said .. think of what will happen an use it against me. Because I want you to be at your best when I pin you for the three count. I cleared my throat and Sean came back in to the room, he looked like he had some news for me. |
