May 16, 2006
Tuesday
Why?
Why is it that guys find it hard to resist other women even though they are in a relationship? Why can't they just ignore those girls? Don't reply back to their messages? Why do they have to base their manlihood by having so many girls on the side? Why are they counting girls? Some say, it's for the sake of having lots of friends. But why can't they introduce those girls to their present girlfriends? Why is it difficult for them to answer questions straight regarding those girls? Why are they so defensive whenever that topic comes up? Why can't they just be content with their girlfriends? If their present girlfriend is not good enough for them, why can't they just break it off before searching for another prospect? Why can't they stick to their word? If they really love their girlfriends, why can't they stop messing around? When they are not together anymore, why do they always come back? Telling them that they will not repeat those hurtful things/deeds anymore. But keeps on doing it?
madel @ 05/16/2006
10:37 p.m.
April 18, 2006
Tuesday
2nd day
2nd day ng summer class...ok nmn. medyo late lng nung 1st class. hehehe! pero ok lng un, basta ndi lalagpas ng 15 minutes. pumunta c michael sa school knina, nakapasok nga sya sa loob ng campus eh, pati sa bldg namin. normally kc ndi pinapapasok ng guards outsiders. kya ok, nakalusot. hehehe! hinintay nya matapos last class ko. pero sa labas sha ng rum naghintay, ayaw nya kc pumasok sa classrum namin eh, maiilang daw sha. e d cge, yan 2loy pawis na pawis sha. then after ng class ko, nagpunta kme mall. ok na sana whole day ko, kaso nag-away kme. bsta! paguwi ko nmn, naka2log ako sandali, sobrang pagod eh.
un lng...
madel @ 04/18/2006
08:03 p.m.
April 17, 2006
Monday
back...
im back!! hehehe!
-=updates=-
eto lng muna. magreresearch pa ko eh. ayos noh?! may homework kagad. hahaha!
madel @ 04/17/2006
11:48 p.m.
September 4, 2005
Sunday
Happy Birthday Papa!!!!
hehehe!!! b-day ng papa ko(dad huh!) ngayon pero last nyt sya nagcelebrate. inuman nnmn syempre...hihihi! dami ko nainom...masaya nmn kagabi. dumating cla caloy, girlie, chris, joseph & cuz nya c carlo. hehehe! nway, nung naka2log na c caloy, kumanta na c girlie...performance level!!! hehehe! kme nlang nla chris, carlo & girlie nagttrip. videoke!!! lolz! ayun...wla lng...yihee!!
madel @ 09/04/2005
05:02 p.m.
August 7, 2005
Sunday
tour...gimmik...
kakapagod...medyo hilo pa...hahahaha!
nways, we had our tour last friday sa...Sugarland! pang asar dba?! anu kme elementary?! aftr that...we went nmn sa Aguinaldo Shrine. isa pa to! kainis! tpos nagpunta na kme sa Island Cove. saya noh swimming...pero bad trip nnmn!!! ndi pede magswimming ang hindi naka bathing suit!!! shit talga! kahit naka white t-shirt or spagettistrap, ndi pa rin pede! pede daw kaso, tatanggalin mo nmn ung shirt mo! anu ba un!!! bad trip! so ginawa namin, naglibot libot nlang...mga 6:30 pm umuwi na kme.
yesterday nmn, sinama ako nila achie me sa nagtahan. bday nung niece nya, c mj. so un...nandun lng ako sa house nla jenny (cuz ni achie me) kwentuhan kme, pinapanood cla noel maglaro. heheheh! nung evening, inuman na! hahaha! binigyan muna ako ni nathan ng beer...dun ako kela jenny uminom. hihihi! after 1 hr. ata pinalabas na ko nila nathan. nandun na pla cla joseph...e d un, inum inom. naka 5 bottles ako. hahah! ay! 6 pla! ung pang 6 d ko naubos kc aalis na kme. c chris nlang umubos. c chris brother ni caloy. waaaahhh! d ko naabutan c kulit!!! kainis! pag-alis namin, tsaka nmn sya dumating. pero nakausap ko nmn sa fon. hehehe! c bait nga pla nandun dn...sabi nya sakin, bka d sya makapunta...pero dumating pa din. hehehehe!
yun lng....
madel @ 08/07/2005
10:56 a.m.
July 13, 2005
Wednesday
bad trip!!!
whaaaaaa!!!! nagulo na sched ko!!!! may 4-7 pm na ko every mon & tues.!!!! BWISET!!!! anu ba yan!!!! PIAW SI talga!!!!
ayos ba sa entrada??? hahahaah!!!
parang masesenti nnmn ako...bkt ko pa kc binasa eh...anu ba madel...gus2 nnmn masaktan!!!! baliw ka talga!!! wla magawa!! hahaha!!!! baliw na talga ko!!!! (obvious ba, wla magawa???)
madel @ 07/13/2005
11:27 p.m.
June 16, 2005
Thursday
skul...
haaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyy...d2 me sa skul. lunch break. hehehe! o well, ok nmn d2 skul kaso wla pa ko kasama. mukang d2 ako plagi sa "cyber siena". hehehe! ang aga ng pasok ko!!! 9 am. lolz! tpos whole day pa. kakainis! bka sumakit nnman likod ko nito. buti nlang wla class pag friday kaso saturday meron, 8-11. bad trip noh!
madel @ 06/16/2005
11:39 a.m.
May 8, 2005
Sunday
busy busy busy...daw oh...
sobrang busy!!! grabe! hehehe! nung april 30, nagpunta kme sa enchanted kingdom with santos family & achie me w/ noel. ang saya! namiss ko kc ung mga kids, sobra!!! ang lalaki na nila...ung isa mas matangkad na ata sakin. lolz! enjoy naman. hinintay namin ung fireworks....ang ganda! & ang tagal...anniv ng enchanted kaya may fireworks. hehehehe! then april 30, eat ng dinner sa eastwood w/ santos family ulit. after namin kumain, nag arcade kme. hahaha! then nung may 1, pumunta nmn kme nila achie, aga & santos family sa splash island. 1st time ko nakapunta dun. grabe! nabugbog ako...sa pagod. lahat ng pede ko ma-try nasubukan ko...except nga lng ung pang kids, obvious nmn d ako pede dun. lolz! tpos knina nmn, nagpunta kme family sa tagaytay...sinama namin ung pet namin, c chichi. spoiled talaga pati dun cnama. hahahaha!
nung wednesday evening till friday nilagnat ako, sobrang init kc tska pagod. wla lng, share ko lng. lolz!
watch kayo ENCANTADIA...nandun friend namin...
madel @ 05/08/2005
11:54 p.m.
March 13, 2005
Sunday
market market
went to market market knina w/ achie me, nathan, noel, auntie flora & ahiya brian. then dumating dn cla jenny nd bros nya. libot lng, buy things then eat. dapat pu2nta dn cla joseph nd paul kaso bigla cla mineet ni caloy sa glorietta, may problem ata...so un. i asked achie me kung bkt galit c paul sakin. ndi nmn pla, gus2 lng daw mag give way kay harold "benefit of the doubt" bka daw magbago, pero d ko alam. kakausapin nga daw ni achie me c harold, bka kc wla lng. ayun tpos nagkwento c achie me bout nga kay harold. sabi sakin careful daw kc nga matgal na cla frnds. pero wait lng ako, kung anu nga, ayun, sabi ko nga kay kriza bka wla nlang sa kanilang dalwa. ang hirap kc eh. pero hintay na nga lng kung anu pa mangyayare...
haaaaaaaayyyyyyy...buhay nga nmn. hehehe!!!
madel @ 03/13/2005
11:49 p.m.
March 3, 2005
Thursday
Hehehe!
nakita ko na pix...hehehe! aliw!!! scan ko l8r...wla lng...
nagpacheck-up ako knina, nahi2rapan kc ako huminga eh...ayun bka dahil nnmn to sa likod ko. nway, balik pa ko 2m sa medical city, d pa tpos eh...un lng...
madel @ 03/03/2005
02:55 p.m.
February 22, 2005
Tuesday
Bataan
yey!!! nakapagbakasyon ako!! lolz! went to Bataan last friday - sunday w/ achie me, nathan, noel, jenny, niell, paul, harold, henry, ricky, jun, elle, raymond & mark...hahaha! kinumpleto...
day 1, friday: umalis kme d2 house around 8 pm. magkakasama kme nila achie me, nathan, noel, jenny & neill. then sundo namin c jun sa...san nga ba un? hahaha! d ko alam, basta malapit sm north ata un. lolz! tpos meet namin c henry sa sm - annex, punta sa kanila kc may ku2nin sya. after nun balik ulit annex meet nmn c paul (birthday). tpos wait namin cla harold & ricky. o dba...nagkasha kme lahat sa sasakyan, eh may mga gamit pa...hehehe! buti nlang ung defender dala ni nathan. lolz! setup: front...nathan, achie me, noel & jenny. middle...jun, neill & me. back...paul, henry, harold & ricky tsaka ung mga things namin. so un...alis na kme...tpos stop over muna sa shell, kain...tpos alis na ulit. iba nnman katabi ko, ndi na c neill...c henry nmn...pero ndi sya ung kumakausap sakin, c harold macasero, na katabi nmn nya(henry) sa kabila...hehehe!
day 2, saturday: ayun tpos nung nsa bataan na kme, stop over muna ulit...buy cla ng drinks(emperador & red horse)...tpos c harold na 2mabi sakin...ang kulit! pasimple pa! hahaha! pero effective. lolz! tpos hanap na kme mabi2lan ng bigas or cooked rice. ayun, ang sikip namin sa middle, 4 na kc kme nagsisiksikan dun, buti nlang nsa tabi ako ng bintana. ayun, sumisimple nnman c mr. macasero. hahahaha! (fyi:naguusap na kme dati pa kya ganun sya kakulit sakin...lolz!) may dinaanan muna kme zigzag bago makadating dun sa place na pagsstayan namin. kakatakot...ang dilim kc, kinakabahan pa ko sa pag drive ni nathan, mabilis kc, eh zigzag nga ung dinadaanan. tpos nagbibiro pa, pinapatay ung headlight tpos binuksan ulit, bka kc may makita multo. hahahaah! ayun, so pagdating namin dun sa place, nsa 1 or 2 am na un, nilinis muna ung bhay tpos inayos na ung gamit. tpos nagpalit muna ko damit. after nun kain konti tpos pahinga tpos 2log na. ung mga boys naginuman sa may beach. bumalik cla around 7:30 am. buti nlang naka2log na ko & buti nlang ndi ako 2mayo kagad kundi nakita ko cla naka underwear lng or worse wla talga suot. hahaha! ganun daw cla pag lasing accrdg to achie me. then nung naligo na cla, c harold niloloko c paul. 2mabi sakin sa bed c harold tpos cnasabi kay paul na tabi daw kme ma22log. tpos sabi ni paul bday pa daw nya. (triangle...naku!!) ayun so umalis na c harold. tpos balik nanaman sya, 2mabi nnman sakin. c paul pumasok naka underwear lng. hahaha! pero d ko nakita ah...cnsabi lng sakin. ayun, umalis na ulit c harold pero tinatawag pa rin ako. tpos nung nakabhis na c paul, sya nmn ung 2mabi sakin, dun sya na2log (d nya alam...hahaha!). tpos un, 22log na dn sana ulit ako pero tinawag ulit ako ni harold, tinatanong kung anong sim gamit ko, so un sabi ko smart kaso wla ako load. sabi ko bluetooth nlang. un, txt nya ko sabi labas daw ako. e d lumabas na ko. around 8:30 am ata un. usap kme, nagtatanong sya...tpos b4 kme pumasok ulit sa house, may game pa. pero d nmn talga game. may tanong sya tpos "yes, no, yes" dapat sagot. ayun...basta...tpos hiniram nya fon ko, sabi nya sa kanya muna kc magla2ro sya. e wla nmn nagttxt sakin so binigay ko. pumasok kme mga 10:30 na. gcng na c noel (son ni achie me) & jenny (cuz ni achie me) nun...hinintay ko magcng c paul para makahiga na ulit ako. tpos un, nagkukulitan lng kme nla noel. tpos nagcng na c paul, 2mayo na sya, parang d pa alam kung nasan sya. hehehe! tpos un, naglu2to na for lunch. ask ako ni paul kung nagpaalam daw ba sya sakin b4 sya 2mabi, sabi ni achie me, ndi daw. nagsosorry c paul, ndi nya kc alam. tpos nung naghi2ntay na kme food, 2mabi sakin c harold habang gumagawa ng kite. sabi nya pag napalipad daw nya un, para sakin daw un, pag ndi daw, c paul daw may gawa. hahaha! tpos, eat na kme lunch (3 pm na ata kme nakakain). after non, punta na ko rum ksama ko c jenny. nagreready na kme para magswimming. 4:30 punta na kme sa beach, swimming na. tpos un, nung nagswimming na din ung boys...asaran nnman. c neill (bro ni nathan) pinagtripan. gus2 kc nila hubaran. hahaha! tpos non, ayan nnman, niloloko nnmn ni harold c paul. tpos umahon na kme ni jenny. nauna na kme sa bhay, naligo na kme. after namin maligo bumalik na cla. nanghiram pa sakin ng towel c harold. sabi ni jenny, ung bsahan daw ibigay ko, kaso d ko makita. hehehe! so un, inabot ko na ung towel. after nya maligo, binalik na sakin ung towel. "paraparaan" (term nila), yan palagi ko naririnig. lolz! nsa rum lng kme ni jenny...wla magawa, inantok ako. nahiga muna ko sandali. tpos ginising ako ni achie me, kain na daw dinner pero bread lng kinain ko. tpos non, na2log na ko. b4 mag 12 am. nagcng na ko. ang ingay kc nila...pumasok sa rum c achie me, nakita gcng na kme ni jenny, pinalabas kme para uminom (emperador w/ coke). punta kme kabila rum, naglalaro cla cards...d ko lng alam kung anong game. tpos un, habang naglalaro ung boys, nagkkwentuhan nmn kme nila achie me...
day 3, sunday: ...gus2 ko na magyosi, humingi ako. tpos sabi ko ayoko dun sa rum magyosi kahit pede, nahihiya kc ako k achie me. sabi ko sa labas nlang ako. sabi ni harold samahan daw nya ko. "paraparaan"...lolz! tpos un, may cnasabi sya...hehehe! after namin magsmoke, pasok na ulit kme sa house. tpos nagyaya na cla sa beach maginuman. so un, punta kme tpos gumawa cla bonfire...syempre, tabi nnman kme ni mr. macasero. hahaha! tpos un, kwentuhan na lahat, shot cla emperador, ako ndi na...ayaw ko na. tpos mga 4:30 am balik na kme ni achie me sa house. tpos sleep na kme. mga 10 am. gnicng kme kc pu2nta daw kme "pawikan island". ayun, eat muna kme breakfast. tpos bihis na then punta na sa beach. 2 boats ni-rent namin. pagdating nmn sa pawikan island, wla kwenta, kc kala namin maki2ta namin malaking pawikan, ndi pla...tpos sabi nlang namin kay manong dun nlang sa parang white sand. tpos pagpunta namin dun, pucha! bato-bato dadaanan namin b4 kme makadating dun sa gus2 nla. ang hirap ng lalakaran, gilid ng bundok. may aakyatan, bababaan, tpos nung nsa may hanggang waist na ung tubig, hinintay ako ni harold, inalalayan nya ko. ("tagal nyan ha!" nari2nig ko...kc tgal daw namin magkahawak ni harold...lolz!) tpos un hanggang nandun na kme sa gus2 nla puntahan. ang init!!! tpos un, pumunta na kme ni jenny sa may lilim...tpos pumunta dn c harold...may cnasabi nnman. hihihi! tpos non, balik na ulit kme kung san kme binaba ng boat. hinintay nnman ako ni harold, alalay nnman...hehehe! sweet!!! lolz! after non, balik na kme sa place namin, swimming muna sandali. tpos balik na sa house, ligo na, tpos inayos na ung things. ang kulit ng love triangle!!! parepareho kme suot! lolz! red top & khaki shorts. hahaha! then nung lumabas ako dala ko things ko, sinalubong ako ni harold tpos kinuha nya gamit ko, sabay sabi "madel tabi na tayo ha". hehehe! so un, kme nga magkatabi. medyo antok nnman ako, d ako makapwesto, ang hirap. sabi nya sandal nlang daw ako sa kanya, so un, sumandal nga ako, pero sandali lng. tpos stop over kme pampanga, fiesta. may kilala c harold don. so eat & run kme. hahaha! joke lng...nakipagkwentuhan nmn kme kahit sandali. tpos un, uwi na, try ko ma2log, tpos nakinig kme ni harold music sa ipod. kumakanta sya sabay tingin tpos ngiti. hihihi! anu ba yan! kinikilig nnman ako! lolz! tpos non, nung malapit na kme sa toll, nagpalit na c nathan nd harold. c harold na nagddrive tpos c jenny lumipat na sa tabi ko. tpos un, naka2log na ko sandali. tpos hatid muna cla harold, ricky & henry sa qc, iinum pa cla. nung magpapaalam na c harold, may hinirit nnman sakin...buti nlang cnabi nya kay achie me kung ano un...sa susunod papayag na ko. ayoko na kc ma2lad nnman dati. so un, after don, uwi na kme...around 9:30 pm kme dumating d2 house.
ayan! tpos na...hehehe! ano ba tong nangyayare?! anu kaya un?! ayan nnman...d ko lam...bhala na...sana d ako madisappoint...oh well, hintay nlang next move...
madel @ 02/22/2005
11:08 p.m.
January 31, 2005
Monday
Happy Birthday!!!
...to me!!! hehehe! happy nga ba? ewan ko...d ko pa rin mafeel na bday ko na...sana mamya...masaya...my highschool frnds are comin over l8r...pero i told them nmn na wla ko handa...sabi nila ok lng daw...e d un...ok na rin sakin, basta nand2 cla...
last saturday nmn, nagpunta ko antipolo w/ aya, mary glenn & her(glenn) frnds...nagcelebrate sya bday nya...videoke cla...hehehe! yoko makikanta, hiya ako eh...grabe lamig dun!!! as in nanginginig na ko sa lamig...after nun, punta nmn kme starbucks libis...tpos uwi na...un lng...
nway, finally!!! d2 na nakatira samin cla krizza...yey!!!
madel @ 01/31/2005
02:20 a.m.
January 4, 2005
Tuesday
reminiscing
2004...the year i "thought" that everything will be fine, exciting and fun...i was wrong...so wrong...
it started ok...january 2004, after years of crying every new year, literally...the month where i first got a shot of Tequilla, oh boy! i was so drunk, but it's ok, i have a reason...everything was going smooth...met new friends...then came...may 2004, it was so frustrating, very depressing! my boyfriend (for almost 5 years) and i broke up. everything that we've shared for years was trashed, wasted, big time! i don't wanna talk to him at first...but as time flies, i just can't stop myself! i want to talk to him, i want to be with him, i want to know what was happpening...but i just can't. i know its been months since we broke up, but until now...i can't imagine life "not" being with him...i can't be with him when he's happy, when he's sad or depressed. i can't share my firsts with him anymore. people say that i have to move on...im trying...i may look like im having a good time, but deep inside, im not. im still hurting. i may have met someone new...entertained some guys...i may have some "kilig moments" with someone else, but still, im wishing that it was him, who im with. but he chose to be far away from me, he refused to talk to me coz he thinks that it'll be the best thing to do. not to be friends...that's what i also wanted to happen...but i just can't help myself! i miss him soooo much...aahhhh!!! hate it! im not over him! i don't know when, i don't know if im gonna be...
you might have read my past entries. it's about this guy that i met last april 2004. i didn't noticed him at first becoz, as you all know, i have a boyfriend then. i got the chance to know him last july 2004. and i think that's the time when i became naughty(kinda). i became like those people that i hate most. oh shit! although it was fun, i've diverted my attention to someone else, which is good...the sad and the lowest part, is that, i think i've hurt someone else's feelings...both sides. the thing that i hate to be done to me, is what i've done to someone else. that happened for 2-3 months, i think. now, we're still ok, we're still friends, but we don't talk that often anymore. but that's alryt. i can manage...
then, major family and school problems! don't wanna tell...
late 2004, i entertained some guys...we've exchanged txt msgs. pero ndi na mashado ngayon(ooppss...tagalog...hehehe!). but im not hoping that one of them is the guy for me.
2005...i think i should focus more on myself, my family and close friends. im going to look for a job...when a guy comes, i'll try not to fall easily...coz it'll only make things worse. im still not over my ex...im still going to try to move on with my life...hopefully someday...we'll be ok...
my gosh! ang haba! hahaha!
madel @ 01/04/2005
09:49 p.m.
December 26, 2004
Sunday
Merry Christmas!!!
Belated Merry Christmas everyone!!! Happy New Year!!!
ang saya ng christmas ko! hehehe! nakita ko nd nakasama ko kahit sandali lng ung taong gus2ng gus2 ko makita. namiss ko sya sobra! b4 pa lng ako magpakita sa kanya, nangi2nig, nanlalamig, kinakabahan nd naiiyak ako. hahaha! ndi ko alam kung ano gagwin ko. haaayyy...grabe...makulit pa rin sya. pero ok nmn...
kaya lng, ang malungkot lng...ndi na kme ka2lad b4. ndi na rin kc pede...pero ok lng, naintindihan ko. ganun talga buhay...hanggang hi hello nlang kme. un lng...hehehe!
FRIEND THANK YOU!!! ang ganda ng gift mo sakin. thank you so much!!!
madel @ 12/26/2004
02:52 p.m.
November 18, 2004
Thursday
swimming...
whew! sarap magswimming! kung pede lng everyday nako magswim. hehehe!
oct 31 to nov 2 - punta kme puerto gallera, stayed at white beach resort. pagpasok ko sa rum namin, naka2log ako. hahaha! pero ok lng...paggcng ko, change nako damit tpos stroll lng sa beach. after that, eat na kme dinner. balik sa rum tpos hintay cla joseph, ate tony & ate nak (ayus sa name! hehehe!). pagsundo nla samin, punta na kme ng bar. grabe! nalasing ako! hahaha! paghaluin ba naman tequilla & mindoro sling. lolz! grabe that night! pagbalik ko sa rum, 2log agad!
the next day, sakit ng ulo ko!!! pero pinilit ko pa rin bumangon, kelangan eh. ligo tpos nagbreakfast then nagsnorkling. kaso dun lng kme sa mababaw, ayaw kc ni mommy sa malalim eh. after non eat na kme lunch. after eat ng lunch, nagswimming na ko. super babad ako! hahaha! sarap kc eh. after namin magswim, balik na ulit sa white beach. kain halo-halo then ligo na. after maligo, eat na dinner tpos inuman nanaman! pero cla lng. hehehe! yoko na uminom eh.
nov 2 - uwi na kme...
nov 13 to 15 - went to terrace view resort. b-day celebration ni joseph. swimming party!!! un lng. hehehe!
madel @ 11/18/2004
12:19 p.m.
October 21, 2004
Thursday
Puerto Gallera!!!
yey!!! pu2nta ulit kme puerto! saya! beach na beach na ko!!! hehehe!
haaaaayyy...nag eroll nanaman ako sa gym. my gosh! sana matapos ko toh! hahaha!
obvious wla ko masabi...basahin nyo nlang toh:
Mnsan, iniisip naten na mag LET GO...na MAG move oN...iniisip pa lang naten, NAsasaKTAn na TAyo..pano kung We'll walk our talk na Mag LET go..
Pakshet! MAsakit d bah? It hurts even more kung lam mo sa sarili mo na, sobrang LOVE mo xia...U sacrificed a lot..madame kang nagawa na d mo nagagawa sa iba...Pero d nia lahat nkita yun! he's so blind to see and so deaf to hear...bakit? ewan ko ba.. kung bakit may mga tao na...MANHID? or nagmamanhid manhidan? dhl ba... d ka nia GUsto or IBA ang MAHAL nia..d mo tuloy alam kung dpat mo ng i-let go ang feelings mo..
Sbe q nga...mas madali cguro MAg-LET go kung alam mo na wala naman syang pakialam sayo..Xiempre kung meron..d nia pababayaan na MAWALA ka..pero kung feeling mo...OK lang sa knya yun...dnt be a fool!
LET GO..
pano mo ipaglalaban ang taong mahal mo?
MAHAL mo pero habang pinaglalaban mo naman xia...pinaglalaban nya din ung taong MAHAL NIYA! gnyan talaga! REALITY bites, sabi nga.. MASAKIT, MAHIRAP, PARANG d MO MAKAKAYA... OO, NORMAL lng yan sa PAG LE-LET GO. mnsan nga... gus2 mo na uleng kalimutan ang mga sakit at isipin na MAHAL MO PA RIN XIA KAHET ANO MANGYAREH!
ANg nakakapagtaka pa dun.. bakit ayan ka na naman..d mo naisip..NAPATAWAD mo xia agad at nakalimutan ang sakit..PERO WALA NAMAN SYANG GINAGAWA..WALA syang GINAGAWA KUNDI SAKTAN KA..ang mas masakit pa dyan...THe cYCLE GOES ON AND ON...PAulit-ulit lang yan..OK..PAlusot ng IBA..."PAG mahal mo d ka magsasawa" PAKSHETTTT!!! MAGSAWA NA tayo sa MGA SAKIT na bnbgay nila...
HAaaayy... LuL tlga ang mga taong ka2lad nila...Dahil pinakawalan nila ang katulad naten!
Im NOT Expectin na ma-absorb mo ang mga cnebeh ko..all I want is for u to reflect...
BIBITAW NA BA AKO?
Who knows...pag bitaw mo sa kanya...MAY DARATING na MAS DESERVING...SOmeone who will hold ur hand and GROW OLD with you.....
madel @ 10/21/2004
02:10 a.m.
August 21, 2004
Saturday
kulet...
whaaa!!! naka2lungkot!!! stupid ko! hmp! anu ba un! 2 days na...wla pa rin...d nagpa2ramdam...d rin kc ako nagpa2ramdam, lolz! pero d ko lng sure kung 2matwag sya sa landlyn. hahaha! d bale magki2ta pa rin kme...hehehe! labo! haaaayyy...miss ko na KULET...
madel @ 08/21/2004
01:56 a.m.
August 9, 2004
Monday
labo...
tgal ko na ndi nagblog! hehehe! hmmm...meron nga pla new pics, hanapin nyo nlang. haha!
nway, what's new? oh well, medyo magulo coz happy ako nd malungkot dn. happy coz nagagawa ko na ngayon lahat ng gus2 ko, kahit cno pede ko na kausapin & then there's this guy na pag naiisip ko & nakakausap ko, masaya nako. cno? i can't tell eh. basta happy ako pag kausap ko sya & syempre pag kasama ko sya. ibang klase! ang kulit pero ok! sarap kausap, lalo na pag inaantok na. hahaha! basta, sarap! ayos! lolz! but what i like most about him is that, totoo sya, honest or should i say frank, medyo naka2gulat pero ganun talga, ndi sya nihi2ya sabhin kung ano naiisip nya or nararamdaman nya. like nung first tym na may cnabi sya sakin na kinagulat ko talga, as in d ako nakapagsalita, parang, huh? ano? rewind...(inulit nmn...hahaha!) pero 2lad nga ng cnabi nya, at least nagpakahonest sya nd gus2 nya ganun dn ako sa kanya...ayun.
malungkot nmn kc, i don't know wer i stand, kung ano nya ko...alam ko frnds kme pero ano pa? bat ganun? bat ganun mga cnasabi nya? basta! magulo! as in magulo! i don't wanna fall for him pero gus2 ko sya. labo noh?! ah basta pag nagusap kme, tatanong ko na(sana kaya ko...hehe!) haaayyy...witness mga frnds ko...parati ko sya naiisip. pero dumating dn ung time na ndi sya nagre2ply, ndi 2matwag, gus2 ko magalit pero ndi pede kc wla nmn ako right. naisip ko na "wla toh, tigilan na, in ur dreams madel! impossible, asa ka pa!". pero ndi nangyare...bkt? 2mawag kc sya eh...masaya ulit! hehehe! gulo ko magkwento! oh basta un...sana lng matanong ko na...hihihi!
for the mean time...
madel @ 08/09/2004
01:05 a.m.
July 4, 2004
Sunday
gimik...
-=Updates=-
monday: nagpunta ko sa mall, ako lng mag-isa! hahaha! d kc dumating ung frnd ko eh, kaya un, ako lng nag ikot ikot sa mall. pero ok nmn, at least wla ako iintindihin na kasama. haha! bad talga!
tuesday: pinuntahan ko bestfriend ko sa work. hinintay ko sya then nagsoli ng vcds, grabe, laki ng fine ko. hahaha! tpos, nagpunta kme sa house nung boss nya, nandun dn ung ibang officemates nya. kumain kme tpos nag vid-oke cla. mga 8 pm umuwi na kme.
wednesday: wla lng, dapat mano2od kme ng spiderman 2, kaso ayaw ng sis ko kaya ndi na2loy. la nmn masyado nangyare.
thursday: watch spiderman 2 wid mike. un lng. hahaha!
friday: haaaaaay, wla lng, 4 pm lng nmn ako nagcng, ewan ko ba. kainis!
saturday: kala ko wla nnman mangya2ri sa day na to. umalis sis ko, gus2 ko nga sumama eh, kaso late ko na nalaman na aalis pla sya, nalaman ko nlang nung aalis na sya. bwahahaah! pero ok lng, kc mas ok nmn ung nangyare, mga 10:30 pm sumama ako k nathan, gimik. mineet nlang namin c achie me dun sa "Kawasan" sa may timog. ayun, kilala ko naman ung mga nandun. kaso nahi2ya pa rin ako. hehehe! pero ok nmn ung nyt na un kc naki2pagkwentuhan nmn cla sakin. then d ko ineexpect na c "_____" ung maka2tabi ko nd makakakwentuhan ko. whaaaaaaa!!!!! kinilig nmn ako! hahaaha! mabait nmn sya, maasikaso, tska may sense kausap, makulit din & ndi mayabang. hihihi! kaso medyo naka2ilang kc ung ibang tao dun nakatingin samin. y? artista kc sya eh. kaya un. hehehe!
sunday: kanina nmn, wla lng, nagpunta lng ako sa mall w/ my family. nothin special.
un nlang muna....
madel @ 07/04/2004
11:16 p.m.
June 24, 2004
Thursday
You'll never know... You can't really tell...
...Why does someone affect your life the most. You have plenty of questions and you wonder why.
You're making your life harder than it's supposed to be. You keep on pushing yourself to be loved by that person and you keep on pretending that there is indeed a glimpse of hope for you to be together.
But sometimes you wake up crying...you wake up feeling alone and unwanted...You tell yourself "I am okay" but the truth is, you're not. You keep on clinging with the past, though you know that deep inside, everything's over (has it started?-this should be the very first question). We have to accept the fact that while some good things never last, SOME DO NOT EVEN START.
We do love to prolong the agony, we love to keep the hurt alive, because we believe that if we still feel hurt, we still feel LOVE for that special person. Why do we always cry over spilled milk? Because of the fact that we have lost it and we still very much want to drink it.
But life is not like that. There are things which can be brought back and there are things that are impossible to relive. All we have to do, perhaps, is to stop having those false hopes, stop clinging with the past and lastly, stop pretending that love is still alive where in fact it's no longer there, it's no longer part of your life.
When you keep on dwelling with the past, you may not be able to move forward. You may not be able to know that hey, there's life after the pain, after the hurt, after that dreadful incident of your life. It's just a matter of accepting the fact that what you felt is just a thing of the past, something that must be forgotten. Forget the hurt, but never forget the great feeling of being in love, of being taken care of. These are your weapons while on your search for a new love, a new relationship. Never forget that loving feeling, that will help you be mature enough to handle the next relationship...
And if love knocks at your door once again, don't be afraid to give it a try. Give yourself a chance to be happy once again, to feel that great feeling once again. You never know, that love could just be the same love that you have been waiting for a lifetime. That same person could be the "next person" after all. In that case, you should be careful, exxxtra careful in deciding. It's harder, because you have lot of things to consider. You were hurt the first time, you can be hurt again this time. But, come to think of it, you may also have the opportunity to learn from your mistakes and rebuild the relationship, a better one this time.
If it's the a brand new love, then it's better. It's a fresh start, a new horizon to pursue and a great deal of opportunity to be happy and hurt-free. Don't forget...never waste any opportunity to show how much you care. You never know, it might be too late after all. Sometimes you wait for the other person to do it first just to know that, that person might be waiting for you all this time. Pride doesn't bear any fruit, humility and truthfulness do.
In God's time, we will all fall in love, for the right reasons, to the right person. When that time comes, it will be worth the long wait, the tears and the pain, then we will forget we ever cried!
madel @ 06/24/2004
01:38 a.m.
June 19, 2004
Saturday
bday...
1 week nnman ako d nakablog. nway, nung june 12, nag celebrate ng bday mommy ko. meron dn reunion ung batch namin nung highskul the same day. nagpunta ko dun sa reunion, kaso ung mga barkada ko nung high ndi nagpunta, pero masaya naman kahit papano. nakita ko mga batchm8s ko. after nun uwi na ko, nag vid-oke kme. hehehe! napakanta ako, gus2 kc ni mommy, 2 or 3 songs lng, pero ka duet ko c achie me. hehehe! tpos kahapon nmn bday ng bestfriend ko, nagpunta ko sa house nila, kain lng. d kme masyado nakapagusap kc inaasikaso dn nya ibang bisita nya. miss ko na sya, d ko na kc sya masyado nakakasama kc may work na.
bilis ko magkwento, wla kc ako sa mood eh, next time nlang. inaatake nanaman ako ng katamaran. hahaha!
madel @ 06/19/2004
12:07 a.m.
June 10, 2004
Thursday
school...
grabe! nakakapagod! pang gabe class ko. wla pla ako kasabay pauwi. kakatakot! as in! buti nlang nung tuesday cnundo ako ni achie tpos kgabi hinatid ako nung classm8 ko. pano kya mamya?? whaaaaa!!!! sana sunduin ulit ako! nway, sa friday nd saturday wla kme pasok, rizal day nd independence day, grabe! puyatan nanaman toh! hehehe!
madel @ 06/10/2004
02:04 a.m.
June 6, 2004
Sunday
busy ata...
haaayy...d ako nakablog for 1 week, oh well here's what happened:
sunday: went to eastwood w/ my family, cnama namin c chichi(pet). pinanood namin santacruzan ng mga dogs. ang cute! kaso 1 lng napicturan ko. dapat isasali namin c chi chi sa parade kaso na-l8 iparegister, pero ok lng kc madami dn nagpapicture sa kanya. hihihi! nakita ko c joan, classm8 ko sa miriam b4, ksama dn nya family nya, ung sis nya gus2ng gus2 c chi chi. hehehe!
monday: went to school to enroll sana kaso nagleave ung registrar kaya nagpunta nlang ako sa mall, nagpafacial nd nakipagkita kela aya nd nina, tambay lng sandali tpos namili.
tuesday: pu2nta sana ko school kaso tinamad ako. nagpunta c mike may dala dvd and pasalubong sakin, tempura! sarap! hehehe! nanood lng kme tpos umuwi na sya.
wednesday: nanood kme ni achie ng Harry Potter and the Prisoners of Azkaban, bonding ba? ndi den, d nmn kme naguusap eh, hahaha! serious kme nanood.
thursday: nagpunta ako school. nakapagenroll na ko. whaaaa! 3 ung 6-9 pm class ko! pero ok lng, palagi nmn ako gcng ng gabi hanggang madaling araw eh. at least ngayon may katuturan na pagpu2yat ko. hahaha! nway, after ko magenroll nagpunta kme ni maricel sa mall, namili nnman ng kung anu-ano and kumain. tpos balik sa school, nagpasundo na din ako dun kela achie.
friday & saturday: wla lng, d2 lng sa bhay.
yun lng...hehehe!
madel @ 06/06/2004
12:51 a.m.
May 30, 2004
Sunday
tired...
oh my! naglinis me ng room ko! sakit sa likod(i have scolio kc eh). rearranged the furnitures. meron pa nga ako plan d2 sa room kaso d ko pa nasa2bi sa mami ko. gus2 ko palitan color ng wall, dresser & drawer. palitan ung blinds. tpos gus2 ko din bumili ng sofa bed, para pag may ma22log d2 d kme share ng bed. hahaha! ang damot ko!! lolz!
nway, later/tomorrow nlang, i have 2 call someone pa...
madel @ 05/30/2004
12:35 a.m.
May 27, 2004
Thursday
takaw...
haaayyyy...knina/khapon, nagpunta me sa mall, nagpafacial & nag take out ng food sa greenwich. umuwi, kumain, nanood. tpos nung mga 5:30 pm lumabas, kwentuhan w/ mommy, papa, achie, achie me & nathan. then cnamahan ko c achie magsoli ng vcd, sumama c chi chi(pet namin, tingnan nyo sa gallery, family. hehehe!), noel nd nathan. then uwi ulit, tpos mga 8 pm umalis nanaman, nood movie w/ achie, judith, achie me, nathan, noel & auntie flora. nanood kme ng "the day after tomorrow". grabe, scary, in a way na pano kung totoong mangyare un?? pano na?? hehehe! ayun tpos, nung paguwi pumunta ko sa bhay nila achie me, nagkwentuhan kme habang kumakain ng lugaw. hahaha! ang takaw ko!!!
nway, un lng...
madel @ 05/27/2004
02:10 a.m.
May 25, 2004
Tuesday
done...
tpos na site ko, cguro, hahaha! tsaka ko na ayusin ung iba. kakatamad na eh.
nway, khapon, nagpunta kme ni achie sa bhay ng tita ko, wla lng, bisita lng, tpos pinakita ko sa cuz ko ung site. aba! gus2 ba naman gumawa. eh kaso, ilang taon lng un, 8 or 9 plang sya. hirap 2ruan. hahaha! tsaka na pag dun ako ma22log, 2lungan ko sya. ayun, tpos paguwi, binigyan ako nila achie me ng bbq, hehehe!
yun lng...
madel @ 05/25/2004
03:03 a.m.
May 24, 2004
Monday
yey!!!
malapit na matapos site ko! yehey!!! grabe, tagal ko ginawa, nakalimutan ko kc ung ibang tags ng html. hehehe!
sleep muna ko...
madel @ 05/24/2004
04:40 a.m.
May 23, 2004
Sunday
scary...
lakas ng ulan! ka2takot!!! well, khapon, nagpunta frnds ko, nagluto kme. enjoy nmn. tpos, cla mike, 2nd, erp & roy nagpunta dn. kainis nga eh, konti lng food na niluto namin, d ko nmn kc alam na may ksama c mike. cnabi lng nya nung tpos na magluto. daya nga eh, sabi ko magluto sya eh. hehehe! d bale ok lng, sakto lng nmn ata ung luto. pero kainis parin, d ko lam kung nabusog cla. hahaha! kakahiya!! d bale bawi ako nxt tym. kung meron pa. hahaha! joke...
madel @ 05/23/2004
02:15 a.m.
May 22, 2004
Saturday
ginaw...
lamig ngayon! sarap may kayakap. hahaha! joke!! nway, la ko masabi. tsaka nlang. i have 2 sleep early, my frnds are comin over later. yey! excited na ko!!!
madel @ 05/22/2004
02:25 a.m.
May 20, 2004
Thursday
wedding...
khapon wedding ng classm8 ko. ung groom schoolm8 ko na nung highschool pa. i went with "him" pero we're not at the same table, dun sya sa frnds nya nung highschool. me nman, sa table ng frnds ko sa school. hehehe! ayus! ok nmn ung wedding, medyo funny nga lng, ang kulit kc nung bride & groom. after the wedding, syempre, uwi na ko. hinatid "nya" ko (dapat lng, hahaha!) pero nakisabay kme. hehehe! nung pagdating d2 sa house, may inabot sya sakin. d ko pa nga alam kung tatanggapin ko eh, pero kinuha ko na rin(pakipot pa!) haaayyy...
madel @ 05/20/2004
02:44 a.m.
May 19, 2004
Wednesday
happy...
haaaaaaayyyy...happy ako kc nakapagusap na kme, sa ym and txt nga lng. pero gumaan gaan na pakiramdam ko. at least we're ok na. 7:30 am na nga ako naka2log eh, tgal namin nagusap. hehehe!
cge 2 na muna...
madel @ 05/19/2004
01:15 a.m.
May 18, 2004
Tuesday
reunited with friends...
knina when i woke up, ang plan ko is to go to school with aya(my bestfriend) to get my clearance. pero nag change plan kme. we decided nlang to go to the mall and meet some of our friends. 5 kme, ayun, kwentuhan lng, ndi ko kc cla nakita for some time. tpos nung mga 7:30 pm na, nagpunta nlang kme nila aya and nina d2 sa house, kwentuhan pa rin. pinagusapan namin ung mga issues sa skul. dami pa kme gus2 pagkwentuhan kaso 10:30 pm na, kaya umuwi na cla. im so happy talga na nakasama ko ulit cla. sobrang namiss ko mga friends ko.
see u all sa pasukan!!!
madel @ 05/18/2004
11:14 p.m.
May 17, 2004
Monday
feelin' better...
today, i started to blog na rin...actually b4 pa gus2 ko na, kaya lng wala akong tym. nway, la nmn masyado nangyari 2day (ay, kahapon pla). slept around 7 am then woke up 11 am, earlier than i expected. madalas kc after lunch na ko nagigising. d ako kumain ng lunch, i dont know y. pero snack kumain ako, sweet corn. then went online, nakachat ko sandali c nicky. nagdc ako eat again , may pasalubong kc c achie. hahahaha! i read "i kissed dating goodbye", recomended by nicky. when i started reading it, ndi ko matigilan, chapter 1 plang medyo naiyak ako. halos half nung book binasa ko, ndi na nga ako nakakain ng dinner eh. hehehe! pero ok lng...medyo nagreflect ako, actually i really did!
i txted "him", accepted na his apology. after that, i'm feeling much better na. i dont want to keep this hatred in me. i'll be ok, he'll be ok, we'll be ok...
"move on"
madel @ 05/17/2004
03:14 a.m.