-Hans
P.S. I like (5) the best! :)
The firey pain exploded on me,
as I watched her walk away
into the mist, into the flame,
It must have been somebody's game
To leave me here, hurting inside
Rage to divide, no one by my side
Nothing sane left in me now,
no way, no how,
not here, not now
nothing left but a dying flame
an image left in my brain
of how she just turned and walked away
from everything she had, that day
and now when I look into your eyes
I wish it would all go away
you, your face, yourself, your name
to vanish with the flame
Be gone forever.....
(2)
Laughter fills my paining ears
hold them close, relive your fears
memories come flooding back
you broke the promise, broke the pact
You said you wouldn't let yourself
relive the memories
but once again you lied, you lied
welcome back to misery
(3)
Love, Hate, it's all the same
the way it ends, it's but a game
To hurt inside with all regret
You took the chance, you lost the bet
And so it shall forever stay
you'll never forget the events that day
it'll stay with you, so very long
you'll wish the pain had finally gone
but things aren't easy, as you will see
the pain itself, it seems to breed
inside your thoughts, inside your mind
But don't worry, it'll all go in time
(4)
Patience my friend, it all comes in time
Ha, last time I heard that, it all was a lie
I found myself bitter and torn into shreds
Living my life while wishing I was dead
It wasn't easy knowing I was dead to the earth
Wished I could start it all over, right from my birth
But as hard as I tried, it wouldn't work that way
that's why I'm living, writing this today
in a beat up shack, down from your street
you won't know me, for we'll never meet
you'll go about your life, living each day
while I sit here writing, wasting away
(5)
Bitter, scarred and left alone
Just wishing for, just to go home
Couldn't care enough for me
But enough for someone else to be
Unnoticed, untouched
perfect serenity ha, not much
left but to see the truth inside
Insanity grows, without showing it's signs
couldn't get up, couldn't live for you
couldn't try, couldn't breathe, it's true
nothing is left, don't ask any more
I'm just trying to find my way out the door
back to greener pastures, back to friends
back to life, back to a better end
Anything's better then it is now
wishing things were normal, but don't know how
to fix the things that long are done
slowly but surely I grabbed the gun
put it down again, left it there
into the street, no saneness to bare
curled in a ditch, wondering why
why I ended up here, left to die
Awoke from my dream, covered in sweat
realised I'm here, still have my regrets
laid back down, scared as could be
fell back to sleep, more nightmares for me
(6)
To whom it may concern,
I've been scarred.
pain that's unreal to the human soul
can't feel much, don't really care
wish I did, but it's pretty hard
to live again.
It's hard to breathe
hard to beat
hard to live
to be alive
I can heal
with time
with help
but not alone
Hurt too much
to carry on
need someone
to lean on
can't find them
anywhere
truth hurts
it's that way
that's what it does
to me
to you
to us
destruction of lives
of souls
of spirits
destruction of who you are
who you want to be
who you thought you were
broken hearts
broken homes
tears form
start to pour
like a river
through a desert
no one there
to see the glory
of one's last moments
one's last leg of life
can't breathe
too late for me
we'll meet again
before too long
but I will heal
and become strong
once more
to love again
and to be hurt once more
the way it works
unenvitable
crushing
finished.
-A broken Heart
(7) New
Your love is fading,
and it cuts so deep,
To lose it all,
What I wanted to keep
Drowning in sorrow
Anxious with this
To have it all back
is my one little wish
What I did to deserve this
I really don't know
I tried my best to be there
and let my true spirit show
If that's not what you wanted
then so let it be
There's far more people for you
Then to stay with just me
So just leave me now
let yourself free,
I'd rather you live
Than be tortured with me
(8) New
Everything's slipping
People are missing
Others who have gone away
The reasons are known
Why they sit on their thrown
Taking in their glorious day
But why don't they see?
The pain done to me?
And to those, who don't get their way?
One day they'll see
The things that need be
Instead of this single light ray.
So they bask in their glory
All filled with their story
of how they got here and back.
But someday they'll know
Even through all this snow
That they're not quite on the right track.
And when that day comes
Glory might be quite glum
As happiness all fades away
The reasons you came
They're gone, who's to blame
Now this, is your glorious day.
(9) New
As another burden's
packed firmly in
he did nothing to deserve it
to recieve their burning sin
He took it without question
not to cause trouble, or fuss
but sooner or later
The burden bin's gonna bust
He's not just a vault
to keep stuffing things in
He's a member of family
Yes, of your very own kin
So the weight gets too heavy
and he falls to the ground
tries lifting his head
Yet he hears no sound
Only echoes of problems
stuffed into his head
so others around him
won't have to dread
Their own simple problems
if only they'd deal
he wouldn't be lying here
he'd be able to feel
For himself, for his own
To have his own only
Those burdens they give him
They make him feel lonely
He feels problems surround him
Behind every turn
All just because
That they couldn't learn
That he has his problems
that he has to fix
He can't deal with them all
there's no magic, no tricks
For him to use against this
Against all this weight
It's hard to stop crying
Let alone, to think straight
So as one more burden's
packed firmly in place
He closes his eyes
and covers his face
Tears start to form
By the corners of eyes
"Go away!" He screams
"And tell me no lies!"
The echos go outward
the silence comes back
He's getting away
He's on the right track
From these problems that seize him
Stop him right on his feet
No more burdens are on him
No more dead weight to beat
It's a chance to start over
A chance to be done
A chance to come back to life
Now that burdens, are overcome
(10) New
What's been done has been done
What's been said has been said
From this moment here
It's just what I dread
Hearing words not from you
But instead from another
Wish I could feel loved
And not be such a bother
To have happy times
And not only sad
Just to see you just once
To maybe be glad
Instead you look elsewhere
Far away from me
Good memories start fading
Leaving me in need
If only the efforts I meant for
The troubles went through
To help you get better
Could be noticed by you
Instead they're far from it
You no longer care
You've got what you needed
You've taken your share
Now your needs are fufilled
You're back on the right track
You feel free to leave
And never look back
But soon you'll start slipping
Back into old ways
And that's when you'll realise
This wasn't the way
To stay where you're going
To stay where you should
You shouldn't of left
You could've stayed, you could
But I don't offer happiness
It wasn't enough
You think I listen to you
Because this is fun stuff?
Whether you realise it or not
I have my own burdens to bear
But where can I turn?
Tell me, oh where?
Your back has been turned
Your eyes have been closed
My spirit is fading
Your path has been chose
It wasn't by me
It wasn't by him
You just let yourself
Fall into this sin
I was upset and I warned you
You made me believe
That you had then listened
My words, you did heed
But instead I find otherwise
You're looking for more
My mouth feels like screaming
To call you a whore
But if you want to leave
Feel free, go ahead
It'll be more then just me
It'll be you, that you'll dread
You'll hate yourself terribly
You'll hate yourself more
You let yourself wander
So I slammed the door