Chapter 37
AJ opened his eyes and moaned softy, his heart still pounding. His entire body was relaxed after the intense orgasm he had experienced, and he sighed contentedly as he turned his head to find Howie. Howie was laying on his side, his head propped up on his elbow looking very pleased with himself indeed.
"God. D. That was..." AJ rasped.
Howie simply smiled at him before pressing his lips against AJ's in a soft kiss.
"That was just the beginning love." Howie whispered into AJ's ear. The promise made AJ shiver in anticipation and Howie's grin widened as they began again.
Howie pulled AJ closer, drawing him into a deep kiss. AJ willingly submitted to Howie, letting him dominate completely. As Howie rolled them both over and looked down into AJ's eyes he suddenly realised what it was he could see there. Along with the lust and desire and more than a little love, there was trust. AJ was trusting him, not only with his body, but with his heart and soul as well.
That knowledge floored Howie, he recalled a conversation they had once had, where AJ had told him he could never allow himself to trust completely like that, he was too afraid of getting hurt again. After the way AJ had shut himself off completely the last few days, Howie hadn't expected AJ to give himself so completely so quickly.
AJ saw Howie staring at him and knew what he was looking at. He smiled softly at Howie before lifting his head and pressing his lips against Howie's.
"Love you." He whispered before pulling Howie back down for a passionate kiss that assured Howie that AJ was ready for this, and sent any doubts of his own flying away into the night.
Howie reluctantly broke the kiss and reached over to a small drawer at the side of the bed. Pulling it open his fingers closed around a tube of lube. He quickly shut the draw again and sat on AJ's thighs. He looked at AJ before gently running his palm up AJ's re-hardened cock.
"Alex?" He asked, giving him the choice.
AJ shook his head before taking the lube from Howie's hands and squirting some into his hand. He warmed the cold gel in his hands before running his hands over Howie's cock, quickly making it slick. Howie moaned at the friction AJ's touch caused, he hadn't cum yet, and his cock was almost painfully hard. AJ removed his hands, and Howie smiled at him before taking back the lube.
He took a pillow and put it under AJ's hips, and then he moved into position between AJ's thighs. He leaned down and kissed AJ as his fingers again sought out AJ's tiny virgin hole. He slipped one finger in easily and watched AJ for any signs of discomfort. Seeing none, Howie continued to push his finger in, until it was buried as far as it could go.
Reassured AJ was fine, Howie moved his finger around inside, loosening him up before adding a second finger. This time AJ winced slightly at the intrusion, and Howie stopped his movement and gently kissed AJ's forehead.
"You okay?" Howie asked.
"Yeah. It just stung a little. Keep going."
Howie nodded and began moving his fingers in a scissor motion to stretch AJ ready for another finger. Howie was going to take as long as AJ needed to get him ready; he didn't want to hurt him. He pulled his fingers back and slowly added a third, stopping when he heard AJ hiss at the unexpected burn.
"Shhh." Howie soothed him, kissing his closed eyelids. "It'll feel better in a sec." With that Howie twisted his fingers to quickly find AJ's prostate, tapping on it and watching AJ's hips lift in reaction.
"Shit. What was that?" AJ asked.
"Feel good now?"
"Fuck yeah." Was AJ's reply. Howie smirked and tapped AJ's prostate a few more times making sure he was ready.
"Alex. Are you sure about this?" Howie asked, needing to know for sure.
"I trust you Howie. I know you won't hurt me." AJ replied.
"Well. It WILL hurt a bit at first. But it gets better pretty quick." Howie explained, before adding softly "I think."
"Whaddya mean think?" AJ asked, confused. "You've done this before haven't you?"
"I've been top before, but I've never been bottom." Howie blushed slightly, giving AJ the sense that there was more to it than Howie was letting on.
"Why not?" AJ asked softly, reaching up and cupping Howie's face tenderly, making Howie look at him.
"I couldn't. 'Cause, cause…" Howie trailed off, a single tear escaping and rolling down his cheek. AJ sat up slightly and kissed the tear away whilst staring into Howie's eyes. Suddenly he knew why.
"They weren't me." He stated. It was not a question. Howie nodded.
"I just… I couldn't…"
"Shhh." AJ soothed him, kissing him softly. "You're amazing. I can't believe you'd do that for me. God I love you." He went back in for another kiss, before laying down on the bed again and raising his knees slightly to give Howie access.
Howie barely contained a moan at the sight of AJ so exposed to him, and he moved to cover AJ's body with his own. He positioned his cock and kissed AJ again, making sure that AJ was ready. When they broke the kiss AJ moved his mouth close to Howie's ear.
"Howie?" He whispered softly.
"Yeah."
"It is me now." He whispered seductively. Howie groaned and shuddered at the thought.
"Show me." AJ rasped softly, before licking Howie's earlobe.
That did it for Howie and he pushed. Howie groaned at the tightness that suddenly surrounded him, feeling AJ's walls contract around him, pulling him in deeper still. AJ meanwhile bit his lip to keep from screaming as the pain ripped through him. 'This doesn't just hurt a bit' AJ thought to himself. 'It fuckin' kills.' Thankfully Howie stopped pushing as he saw the pain on AJ's face and felt his body tense underneath him.
"Alex?" Howie whispered worriedly.
AJ slowly opened his eyes, and came face to face with Howie's concerned gaze. Howie looked scared when he could see the pain in AJ's eyes and went to pull out, but AJ stopped him.
"S'okay, just give me a sec." He managed to say. Even as he said it he was aware of the pain lessening, and he was able to feel the undercurrent of pleasure running through his body. AJ reached up and pulled Howie's face to his own, kissing him to reassure him, and also to take his own mind off the pain.
As the kiss continued, Howie felt AJ's hips begin to move, pushing against him, he picked up the rhythm, pushing back gently, before increasing the pressure, until he was finally fully inside. AJ moaned into the kiss as the pleasure rippled through him when he felt Howie's cock rub against his prostate.
Howie pulled back a little, and pushed in again, feeling the pleasure building. This wasn't going to take long for either of them and he knew it. He had barely held on with the initial penetration, AJ had been so hot and so tight, he had never been with a virgin before, and he was amazed at the sensations running through him.
But he also knew that this was way above sex, way above fucking, even making love didn't seem to adequately cover the way this felt. As he thrust deeper and faster, and felt AJ pushing back against him, he felt it was more like a merging. Two bodies and two minds, two hearts and two souls, merging into one complete entity, so that they would never be apart again. And as he looked into AJ's eyes, he knew that he felt it too.
AJ threw his head back and moaned as Howie thrust into him, pushing harder and faster, hitting his prostate every time. The pleasure he felt was almost overwhelming, and he didn't think it could get any better than this. Then Howie lowered himself completely, and AJ's cock was trapped between their rock hard stomachs as Howie thrust again and again, doubling the pleasure.
Howie managed to catch AJ's lips with his own, and they kissed again, tongues duelling in a battle as old as time. AJ wrapped his arms around Howie, as if he couldn't bare any space between them, wanting to feel them completely joined, aware even as he did it, that they would always be a part of each other.
Howie broke the kiss, panting, and moaned. He was close and he couldn't hold out much longer. AJ ran his fingers down Howie's arm, entwining their fingers in a lover's knot, whilst his other hand ran down Howie's spine, resting on Howie's perfect round ass.
"Cum for me Howie." He whispered. "Let it go." With that he pushed his index finger into Howie's hole, wanting Howie to lose complete control. Howie shuddered at the intrusion and felt his orgasm as it raced through his body like lightening. His body jerked up into AJ, pushing his cock deeper inside AJ, triggering AJ's orgasm as well.
"Alex..." "Howie…" They half moaned half screamed each others names as they came, holding onto each other as if their lives depended on it before collapsing back onto the bed in a sweaty heap, the only sounds audible each others pounding hearts and ragged breathing.