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Author: Silver
Feedback: Damn straight...err maybe not straight [email protected]
Date: Feb 03
Category: RPS
Paring: Kev/Nick *AJ/Howie mentioned*
Rating: PG-13/R
Warning: Vampire fic...but just an overview
Summary: Kevin loves Nick *sorry...no smutt*
Disclaimer: Every word is true...AJ told me over lunch one day. If you believe that I have a number for you to call 1-888-NUT-FARM...seriously I don't know them and this never did happen...to the best of our knowledge that is. This is purely for fun and fictional entertainment.
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He remembered all too well when the dreams began. The first time he green eyes locked on those curious blue ones he felt the connection. It plagued him to no end. He had every intent, every single intent on killing those young men. He'd been watching the older one for a time...Howie had been easy to ensnare, for the one thing Kevin prided himself on, it was his singing voice, many a meal it had brought to him. Alexander had been a little harder, for he was cunning and curious himself...many times he'd wondered if AJ had been a slayer or hunter in a previous life. Then there was Nick, shy little blue eyes, whose first remark after they had sung together "Wow, you're amazing...Kevin do you think we'll make it big someday?" It was with that remark that he was resolved to make every dream of Nick's come true. He'd sought out his own kin, unknown to Brian of course, but Kevin was his great-great-great many times over grandfather and brought him into the group, completing the harmony.
It was in '97 that the dreams became more prominent. For it was then that Nick seemed to go from a clumsy child all arms and legs, to the most beautiful being Kevin had ever laid eyes on. It was then Nick matured into this handsome young man, silky blond hair, smooth velvety skin, and a smile that melted even his heart. It was Nick that changed him, he deduced, for it was Nick that followed him that night, and saw him drag the young man behind the club, with the full intent of drinking him dry. It was Nick who walked up as the young man...a child really, when he compared it to his own life, begged and pleaded for his life, his scraggly blond hair tussled and his blue eyes wide with fear, it was Nick who stopped him, with a small voice "Don't kill him Kevin, please" he whispered placing an arm on his shoulder. It was that night his killing days ended, that night as he walked back to the hotel with Nick, he told him his life story, and Nick asked him not to kill again...and he hadn't.
Now its 2003 and the dreams plague him to no end. Now 10 years may seem like a long time to be dreaming the same dream, but to Kevin, whose life spanned centuries, 10 years seemed like minutes. But never had they haunted him like this, it seemed every time he closed his eyes he thought of him, and now, when Nick was no where in sight, for the first time in 100's of years he was hurting, a pain in his heart that wouldn't go away.
He sighed and looked at the magazine article 'Nick Carter solo success' "He doesn't need us anymore Alex" he said tossing the magazine to AJ.
AJ shook his head "That's not true Kevin, it's not true and you know it. Nick's just proving to the world he's more than a boyband heart throb" AJ replied sitting down across from him at the table.
"I miss him Alex, I miss him so much it hurts" Kevin said banging his head down on the table.
"When are you going to tell him?"
Kevin looked up "Tell him what?"
AJ laughed "Tell him you're in love with him" he replied.
Kevin shook his head "I do NOT love him. I don't love, we're not capable of it" he said emphatically.
AJ just rolled his eyes and shot Kevin a look "Yes we are... I mean I love Howie, I love him with all my heart and soul."
Kevin laughed bitterly "AJ, when I turned you back in '96 you're heart stopped beating, you sold your soul to the devil. You have neither."
"Oh stop it you bitter ol' fool. Just because I had the balls to tell the person I love how I feel, you try to ruin it. Tell Nick how you feel, maybe you'll be surprised" AJ told him sharply.
"I don't love him, I can't love him...I just can't" Kevin whispered softly.
"Why not Kevin, why can't you LET yourself love him?" AJ asked.
"I don't want to hurt him." Kevin replied.
"You won't hurt him Kevin; he loves you too, so much. You know, when he found out you turned me, he wouldn't talk to me for a week" AJ laughed. Kevin looked at him blankly so he continued "Remember when he walked in on us feeding that night a few years back" Kevin nodded. "Well I talked to him because I didn't know he knew what we were. He was mad that you turned me and not him."
"Why would he want to be turned?" Kevin mused.
AJ snorted a laugh "Because he wants to be with you. He loves you Kevin, he loves you so much, I just wish you would open your eyes and let yourself see it."
"He loves me" Kevin whispered.
AJ nodded "Yes Kevin, Nicky loves you; he would 'give up his soul' as you put it, to be with you for eternity. If that ain't love, I don't know what is."
"I gotta go" Kevin said getting up quickly and walking out of the house.
He watching Nick from a distance, not wanting to give him any indication he was there. He watched the show with awe, not matter how many times he'd seen Nick perform; to him...each performance was better than the last. He followed him after the performance to the hotel and waited again, knowing Nicky, he was going to go out. And he was right, so he followed Nick too... "A gay club" Kevin whispered to himself as he walked under the neon sign.
Once inside he quickly saw Nick, dancing his way towards the bar among a sea of hot, sweaty bodies, watching him dance like that, made Kevin hunger, not for blood or the rush of a fresh kill, as he hungered in the past, but for love, passion, the rush of adrenaline when two bodies mate in a lust driven frenzy. He hadn't hungered like that for centuries, not since "Nigene" he whispered to himself and it all fell into place. The dreams of the past, of those haunting blue eyes, why each look, each touch from Nick, awakened thoughts and feelings he thought were long since dead.
He walked up to Nick, who was standing at the bar waiting for his drink and wrapped his arms around the younger mans neck "Great show Nicky" he whispered placing a gentle kiss on the back of Nick's neck, causing him to shiver.
Nick turned around "Kevin" he whispered, his eyes clouding over with confusion. "What" he was cut off by Kevin's lips meeting his in a searing kiss. He instantly relaxed into Kevin's embrace opening his mouth slightly...a silent invitation Kevin wasn't about to pass up.
As Kevin slid his tongue into Nick's sensuous mouth he moaned in pleasure, how long he'd been thinking of this moment, dreaming of the day when he'd fine his soul mate once more. He pulled away from Nick when he felt the other mans need for air "Nicky...I...I..." he stuttered, unable to put to words the emotions of his heart.
"Shhhh" Nick said putting a finger to his lips "I've missed you too my love. But now that I've found you, I'm never going to let you go again" he said removing his finger and replacing it with his lips.
That night he didn't have to dream, for his dream was wrapped around him, eyes closed peacefully and lips turned in a blissful smile. No, tonight his dreams were real once again.
