I Hope You Dance
I Hope You Dance
LeAnn Womack
I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat
But always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small when you stand by the
ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give fate a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
This has to have been the most hectic week of my life
(and that's saying
a
lot). Yet here we are standing side by side at the
altar. When I think
about
everything it's taken to get to this point I could
almost laugh. Look at
how
calm he appears, standing there in his shades, wearing
that poker face;
only
a select few can tell but he's on the verge of tears
right now. I'm
happy for
him though, happy that he's ready to commit to
spending the rest of his
life
with one person...
I can't be l thinking about Alex
here can I? I mean I
know
I am, but damn ... oh shit ... now I'm swearing in
church.
I'm happy
he's
found someone who can love him almost as much as I can
... it's easier
cause
I like her, but not nearly as hard as I thought.
It's been almost six months since Kevin came to my
room that night. When
I
look at him standing over there in his tuxedo now, two
things amaze me;
1
that he's actually wearing the thing, cause it's one
of Alex's most
hideous
creations, and 2 that I was able to turn him down.
It
was for the best
though. What's laughable to me is how desolate I was
when he left;
mourning
the loss of something that had been over for years.
The loss of
something
that in all honesty probably would have been over by
now anyway even if
it
had been allowed to run it's course.
I can't think about all that now though. I have to
stay focused. God, I
hope
he doesn't yell "HELL YEAH!" when it comes time for
the "I do's"
I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances
But they're worth taking
Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth makin
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter
When it comes to selling out
Reconsider
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance
We made it through the ceremony without any major faux
pas. He did start
to
cry when it came time for the vows, but that was to be
expected. And I'm
not
sure if yelling, "Hot Damn," when they were pronounced
man and wife
could be
considered a major faux pas; just Alex being AJ.
As we walk back down the isle I find my self searching
the crowd for one
pair
of stormy blue eyes. Yes! He's here, if all these
people weren't staring
at
me I'd be jumping up and down like a 14 year old after
meeting Nicky for
the
first time. I feel like an idiot right now, it's
ridiculous, okay I met a
guy!
And he's here just like he promised he would be.
Wonder what those press
assholes would think if they knew that this 50 carat
smile I'm wearing
isn't
for this pretty girl on my arm but for that pretty boy
I just passed ...
they'd probably shit a brick.
No, he's not my usual type. Nothing like anyone I've
ever been with. In
a way
he reminds me a lot of Nicky. He can be so childlike
at times. No, he's
not
the brightest light on the Christmas tree, but we mesh
well together; he
makes me laugh and sometimes I can forget to do that.
And well he's
great in
bed. Despite what some may think he's not as dumb as
he pretends to be.
That
vacant expression he wears is just his version of
Alex's sunglasses,
just a
way to keep his innermost thoughts from being
revealed.
Don't get me
wrong
he's not perfect by any stretch of the imagination;
understatement much?
But
he's sweet, and he has a very good heart, and he can
relate to most of
my
experiences having been through a good number of them
himself.
~~~~Pose -- Wink -- Smile---- Nod~~~~
Where was I?
Oh yeah I was talking about Josh. He's really helped
me make sense of
this
whole thing with Alex. He went to the bachelor party
last night; I know
it
was sorta wrong but I used that as our official coming
out as a couple.
Hell,
the party was a blast; I really know how to through a
party if I do say
so
myself. Alex likes him well enough. Kev, was a little
wary at first but
I
think he's coming around. Bri's cool with whatever
Nicky likes and how
could
Nicky not like Josh?
I think they may have been
separated at birth or
something.
What got me was the initial reactions; there was a
very audible gasp
when
they came in and saw us together. Like I was
fraternizing with the enemy
or
something.
If I hadn't been so nervous I would have
been rolling around
on
the floor laughing. I was just waiting for someone to
mention something
about
him being "one of them."
Nicky doesn't know that I
know all about him
and the
Timberpup. Come to think of it I think we all did
Britney's sweet hubby
at
one time or another.
What can I say? I was drunk and
that boy has a
mouth
that's out of this world.
He gives head like nobody's
business. Wonder
what
those media dipshits would do with that information...
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(wants to look back on their years and wonder where
those years have
gone)
The reception is moving along nicely. Alex told me how
he's finally
gonna get
Nicky's ass for all those pranks. He's arranged for
the garter to just
land
in poor Nicky's hand when he throws it; in essence
he's paid someone to
make
sure no one but Nick gets it. I for damn sure ain't
touching the thing.
It'll be time for my speech soon. I dunno if it's
being with Josh that
makes
this easier to do or if I'm finally 100% over him. I
may never know. I
want
Alex to be happy, he looks pretty happy to me.
Truthfully, I guess I'm
hurting a little knowing that I wasn't the one to put
that gleam in his
eyes.
I guess I'm just so glad to see him back to himself
again that I can't
really
feel the pain.
Josh just winked at me. That man is nuts, he knows I'm
standing here
trying
to think of the perfect words to make this toast and
he winked at me.
He
told
me he was going to help me get through this. The
winking is a private
joke on
account of how much winking I used to do.
He never
ceases to amaze me
with
the depth of his understanding. It's almost like he
can sense when I
start to
think about losing Alex -- see there he goes again. I
gotta remember to
ask
him how he does that.
So what the hell am I gonna say? I mean it'd be cliche
to just say "to
the
bride and groom" and leave it at that. Everyone's
expecting something
sweet
and symbolic, but it's gotta be something to let him
know how much our
time
together meant while at the same time saying how happy
I am for the two
of
them.
The thing is I can't be too obvious, there are
like 200 people
here not
even half of them know about our relationship. Dammit
Josh stop being so
damn cute so I can think.... I'd better come up with
something quick; if
I
don't Sarah will definitely kill me... I know ... okay
okay... I got it
now.
They just gave me the signal to tap my glass and stand
up... All of a
sudden
my throats really dry. Here goes nothing....
"As the best man I'm supposed to make a toast, at
first I didn't have a
clue
what to say. Then I thought about how I really feel
and I think these
words
really express what I feel in my heart. Alex, Sarah,
please take from
these
words what you can and know that I mean them...
I hope you still feel small when you stand by the
ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give fate a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
Dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a constant wheel in motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their years and wonder)
I hope you dance
(Where those years have gone)
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