Past Contemplations...

2001

Dec. 28 - Jan.2 - Just got back from vegas today.. went with Quyet n my familyy... spent all my money. =(. All i have left now is seventy five cents. *sniff sniff*. I went to an arcade and watched people play because i was so poor. =~(. Hrm.. went to a new years party, and the theme was mulan rouge.. and it was really.. interesting.. hrm.. didn't really do anything else.. except act drunk, n shop. Saw Danny on the 28th of Dec.. hrm.. on Jan 2, today, went keroking, and got the Fast and the Furious from Anh. Thanks honey! =). I thought i lost it for like two hours.. but it was in my car. =S. Arghh... why do i keep on talking in broken sentences.. im going to fail school when.. school starts again. =S.

Dec. 26 - Yay!.... Boxing Day!... i baught... nothing! oh wait wait.. i baught two stuffed animals.. one for me and one for anh.. and also um.. food.. why don't restaurants have boxing day specials too?? =P. Went to metro first, looked around, then went downtown.. and looked around =P. After went to Alex's house and watched Shaolin Soccer... again. =)

Dec. 25 - A week before school ended I was swamped with tests.. plus.. i had to finish making my Christmas present to Anh.. so i dind't really have any time to update. Merry Christmas!! I woke up at 5am to goto Anh's house to give her, her present. =). A rock i carved into a heart.. in an ice sculpture of a heart.. in a box that was a collage of pictures and movie stubs n stuff. And i folded retarded looking flowers too. =S. Anh got me a Supra! YAY! Vroom vrroomm. =). Thanx hunnie, 143! After, I went home and opened presents. I got.. a new jacket, some socks that say my name on them, a mini water cooler, a calendar, and almonds.. (yay!). Then went to my grandma's house for a family gathering. Hrm.. Ruth and Quyet are here to visit, and Quyet is staying at my place..on the 18th was me and Anh's one month anniversary! =). Ehh.. but my car broke down on the same day.. =(. but it's all good, because it's fixed now. Ehh.. i forgot what else happened.. all i recall is alot of tests.. o well, i gotta wake up early 2morrow for boxing day shopping. =P.

Dec. 14 - Argh.. i haven't updated in a loong time, cuz ehh i have no time. =(. But um.. after christmas i should have time. Only one more week till winter break! Woohoo! Just went out and watched Oceans 11 today.. it was pretty cool since.. I always stay in the hotel that they rob in the movie. =s...

Dec. 1-2 - Hrm.. yesturday i was supposed to goto a ubc thing.. downtown.. but got lost so went to goto Anh's house and give her hot doh lunchables instead and a cake. =). Hrm.. didn't do nething else for the rest of that day.. except buy toy cars. =). Watch Bring it On today... or some of it.. then hung out with anh for the rest of the day. =).

Nov. 23 - Hrm hrm hrm... went to espot.. went into the jap restaurant at metro close to the bay to go eat.. but decided not to.. and ran out (eat and run! eat and run!).. but left cellphone.. and um.. got tina to get it back.. (ho yeah!). Ate at the jap restaurant at metropolis instead.. cruised around a bit trying to find a keroke place.. but didn't.. then cried! =).

Nov. 17 - Watched Monsters Inc today! Whoa.. what a cool movie!.. Pretty scary tho. =P. Went to playdium for a bit after.. then um went to Jack's loft but not go inside. =S.

Nov. 16 - Just cruised around and taught anh and melissa how to drive.. sorta..=P Went to trout lake.. then raced alex's new lexus sc430 and beat him with my nitrous equipped benz. ;).

Nov. 11 - Today I went to church with Anh!.. then went to eat ice cream at that place with 188 flavors.. (i dunno what it's called). =).

Nov. 10 - Today I spent two hours washing my car,.. wrong. =(. Arrgh.. and Danny's baba fixed all the lights in my car. yay. =). Hrmmm... i pretty much slept the whole, and later, went to metrotown, then went to some park in some elementary school to play, and then watch some of Wishmaster 3.. which was a very... um.. interesting movie...

Nov. 9 - In theory... it a Summer month should pass by faster than a month during the school year.. but for me.. I'm glad that's not the case. =). Summer months seems to go by nice and sloww.. while School months go by fast, considering you look at the month one week at a time, hoping for friday to come, so it'll be the weekend once again...but ya.. enough of that.. it's 2:23am, and i've fallen asleep twice at my computer.. in one dream I dreamt i was a car.. and in the other one i was Jay-z... hrm.. I think i should goto sleep soon.. Today I spent an hour trying to find car washing stuff... to wash my car with.. but after I did.. I got lazy and just went to sleep. Later that went I went to Alex's hous for a while, then went to Danny's house to chill.

Nov. 2 - Whoa Vivian's Birthday Party! Ehh.. we went skating for half an hour, then ate cupcakes that me and anh made in the parking lot on my car. Then went to a weird pretend bubble tea place downtown that had a see through washroom. =S.

Oct. 31 - Yay! Halloween! Boo..my parents came back from Asia. =S. Hrm.. didn't really do much. Just went to go watch 13 ghosts at metropolis. They acutally asked for my id! Whoa.. they've never done that =P. But um, it's all good since Danny had his interact with him.. hrm.. i think it must of been my cool fairy gangster costume.. =S. Nevertheless, 13 ghosts was a pretty good movie. =). And then after.. basically a monster came and tried to eat us all. But probably it was just anh. =P and oh ya.. i got my grad pics! =P

Oct. 28 - Aww.. Ruth left today.. she ditched us.. =(. and went back to Seattle. Hrm.. we went to her house to say goodbye, and to bring her ice cream.. for um.. Quyet breaking her walkway light.. then went to go find another costume for my sister.. since she decided she didn't want to be a pimp anymore. =(... but decided later that she wanted to agian! yay!

Oct. 27 - Happy Real Birthday Ruth! =P Yesturday.. was um.. just the pre party. =S. I woke up laaattee today, and went to metro to eat lunch at the jap restuarant at metropolis, then went shopping with my sisters for a halloween costume. =P.. she's being a pimp! =). Went to drop my sisters off at my Grandma's then went back to metro with Amack for Ruth's party... then after everyone egged her. =P..um.. expect for me, because i ehh don't believe in violence. =). Went for bubbletea after, then um, me and alex went around racing gwai lo's in my benz. =P.

Oct. 26 - Happy Brithday Ruth! Yay!.. Ruth came back! For the weekend, since it was her birthday. N me and amack, left at lunch.. to go visit her. =P. And came back half an hour or so late for class.. but um.. it's all good, since it's only Computer Science, n i'm gonna drop out anyways. =P. Drove to Burnaby South after school to pick up Anh and Vivian.. and make them food.. from scratch.. that Anh didn't eat. =(. Then everyone else came to my house and um.. got "drunk". But mostly Alex. =).

Oct. 19 - Whoa my mama and baba went to asia! So I get the house to myself! yay! =). Hrm.. went to go wath Joy Ride today.. it was okay.. i guess.. better than the musketeers. =P. But um.. i tihnk i've developed a fear of big rigs now.. they might run my little benz down. =(. Hrmm... watched needing you.. and played street fighter.. hrrm.. watch my parents come back.. and my house is broken.. awww.. the last time they went away... ehh.. i had no food. =(. (vivian's pimptress pic was too nice to put with all the other pics, so it had to be the header pic for today. =P)

Oct. 18 - Grad pic day! It was long..

Oct. 13 - woke up really late today, and went to dinner at richmond, then went to patrick's house to watch a knight's tale..... (is it even called that??...), and played GT3. Fall's my most unfavorite season in vancouver.. =(.. the skies are always gray and it rains almost everyday.. i wish it were Summer again..

Oct. 12 - logged onto Blackplanet.com at Danny's house and went in the chat during my study block.. daymn.. they talk to funny in there. =P. It's like AA in a parallel universe. After school we went and visited Danny at work.. at subway.. and um.. someone baught baught a cookie and I ate it.. um.. ya. Then we went to go watch Training Day at lougheed mall.. it was an.. ehh.. pretty boring movie.. but um.. okay if you're drunk. Then went to Tim Hortons.. where they have cool bars on the tables.. that you can hold in case people try to push you out of your chair.. Then we went to Leslers... for what seemed like hours and hours.. but um.. what was acutally probably hours and hours. Then went home and fell asleep.

Oct. 5-8 - Happy Thanksgiving/Columbus day! I returned from vegas early this morning and by the time I went to bed it was 5am. =S. Vegas was okay.. but the Janet/112 concert I went to was awesome!! =). On friday, after school I threw some clothes into my suitcase, and headed for Richmond.. we got to the airport early and ended up waiting for two and a half hours for our delayed flight. =P. The next day we woke up late to do some shopping.. and when we got back.. we saw two big tour buses pull into the hotel, so we ran downstairs.. thinking it was 112.. well.. um.. I tricked my sisters into thinking it was 112.. but the tour buses were being packed.. and no one was getting off. =(. Later that night was the Janet/112 concert.. we had to go thru metal detectors and there was tight security.. so I couldn't bring my camera in... but I managed to record cool concert clips were u can hear me singing in the background =P. There were barely any people watching 112.. but when Janet starting singing the place was packed.. oh and Michael Jackson was there too.. I think.. or some other famous person with a wearing a michael jacson hat.. because during the intermission everyone in the whole stadium was looking at him.. Got back late that night.. and on sunday.. did a little more shopping.. walked around some hotels.. then flew back home. I woke up monday at about the time I would of got off school, and later that day went to my grandma's house for thanksgiving dinner. Sound Files 112 - Cupid 112 - Peaches n Cream/Dance wit me 112 and meee - Player (clip) Janet Jackson - Again Janet Jackson - All for you Janet Jackson - Doesn't really matter Janet Jackson - Got till it's gone Janet Jackson - Someone to call my lover Janet Jackson - That's the way love goes

Oct. 2 - October already.. hrm.. this year should go by fast.. School Days tend to go by faster than Summer Vacation Days... well for me atleast. =P. Argh.. I had to go to school at 6:30am to get a little ticket, so after school I could sign up for a photo session date for my grad picture. I can't believe I'm gonna be graduating so soon.. it seems just like yesturday I started highschool.. =S. We had to wait an hour after school to get a photo time.. The second I got home at 4:30pm, I plopped down on the couch and fell asleep, only to wake up at 7:30 dazed, and with lots of homework and studyinng for me to "enjoy".

Sept. 28 - Today was my fashion show..... which was... eh.. INTERESTING.. there were SO many people watching me walk around in belly button shirts, yellow tarzan dresses, and weird flower hats... It was at the trade and convention center.. and there was so much security.. we had to convince them that we were performing.. Ehh.. they put make-up on me.. and made me wear funny clothing.. I don't even let people I know well do that to me.. aiya..

Sept. 27 - Whoa whoa, it was A-mack's Birthday today! Throw em Up yaw! =S. Went home at 1:37 today, then went to watch Anh get interviewed... by a gwai lo for a position on Dance Council.. Then went to metro to watch weird people dance, and Anh and Melissa Dance.. and not dance myself.. =). Ehh.. i forgot what happened after.. I think we wandered around, or something, but time passed, and then after me n alex hit D-spot.. and played pool, and ehh.. had fun on Dany's icq. =P

Sept. 25 - Aiya.. Alex tricked me into going with him and Dan to Danny's house to study.. but we went to bbtea, and then went back and played pool, punched each other, and do push-ups... =P

Sept. 23 - Hrmm.. it's sunday now... and.. i guess... I'll speak.. about.. the events that happened on the night of my "tragic incident".. hrm.. the crash wasn't really that bad.. i braked in advance.. but my car skidded right into daniel hu's car... aiyaaa...... hrmmmm..... well.. before that... everything that happend on friday seems kinda hazy now.. I remember taking my N test early in the morning at the Coquitlum centre.. halfway thought i thought i had already failed.. since my examiner was sighing... but... i passed! Strangely enough.. =S. So I cruised over to A-mack's crib, then went to Hardcore Danny's house.. then went to Vivian's house.. then Melissa's house.. then metro for a bit, then picked up Tina, then went back to metro, n picked up Anh, and went to Michele Lesley and Dorcas's chruch to watch them sing and act.. then went to Wendy's... and after crashed! =(. Hrm.. Saturday, i don't remember much except I slept half the day... and Sunday I had a rehersal for my fashion show.. and umm.. they're making me wear belly button shirts, flower hats, and a yellow tarzan dress! Aiya.. why do I always get tricked into doing weird things.. =S.

Sept. 21 - I got my N today.. but crashed... F#CK IRONY.

Sept. 20 - AAHHHHHHHHh......... after a "great" day at school.. I went home at 1:37 cuz of my spare block, n went driving... with Louis.. my honged instructor.. Hrm.. i "think" i'm inproving.. well I better be, since my N test is 2morrow. I'm gonna cry if i fail.. =(.. But jump up and say "HO YEAH" if I pass! =P. AFter driving I went to my lil cousin's birthday party. He's two! Aiya.. they grow up so fast.. before u know it.. maybe he'll be kicking me.. just like how my OTHER cousin colin does.. =S. Went driving some more in coquitlum since that's where my test is going to be, then went home, and spend an hour.. cleaning and washing my car, so it'll look all nice.. and pretty for my examiner 2morrow.. watch he fails me for driving a benz to my N test.

Sept. 19 - It was Dan's birthday on Monday...... but we didn't give him his present till late Tuesday... because of.. lazyness. I got a new driving instructor because Shaft (my other insturctor) is lost somewhere in Toronto.. my new instructor made me forget how to drive!.. sometimes I sit at green lights while he tells me to look in 50 directions.. =S. I found out more about the fasion show I'm going to be in.... I'm not being a sanrio character... but going to dress in ancient chinese costume.. but with what they're making me wear.. I'd rather be hello kitty, or the burnt sh*t guy instead. I have to wear Tarzan shirts, and belly button tank top vests, and a baday thing with a flower hat... I'm the only person who wears weird stuff!! Everyone else has something normal.. grrr.. i got tricked by my cuz.. =/.

Sept. 15/16 - Whoa.. dan's volvo station wagon was in the shop today.. so we rode in his other volvo... sort of like a "replacement '85" Camary.. =S. Went to the night market in Chinatown today again.. to find.. something, and did.. but decided not to buy it.. we were supposed to meet at Tinseltown to watch a movie.. but there was nothing good playing, so we left for lougheed instead n watched Rockstar.. it was an ok movie, not great, not bad, ok. Went for bbtea after at T Bar, and came home too late n lazy to update my page. =P. Drove down to Lougheed today to buy presents for Dan... cuz it's his birthday 2morrow! =P.. then went to Metro to meet Anh, and S-train'd to Tinseltown to meet Dan n Alex, where we were supposedly supposed to goto the chinese gardens.. but it was closed. =(.. (grr.. next week.. next week). So we went to Richmond instead to get lost, n eat pho, n bbtea. Oh ya.. and um, I'm going to be in a REALLY BADAY fashion show where I'm a sanrio cartoon caracter(?).. um.. im scared.. my aunt volunteered me.. Friday, Sept 28th is going to be one scary day. =S. Watch, they make me wear leather pants and a sailor moon outfit.. =(.

Sept. 14 - I barely had any school today because of the terry fox run, and because I had a free block. =P. During the terry fox run, we were trying to make a run for Danny's house, but teachers kept intercepting us, and making us return to the school.. until we devised a plan to take a back route where we could hide beind cars, and be met by our getawaycar (alex's dad). I left school during my spare block, and went to Burnaby South.. where amazingly I didn't get kicked out! (unlike many previous visit's I've made to other schools)... but I did manage to get lost.. but oh well, it was all good. Went to metro after to watch "O" with Anh Vivian n Danny. It was a really good movie, it exceeded my expectations. Then went cruising with a-mack in my beamer! yay!

Sept. 12 - I only had to goto school for one block today, and left after to watch the play Taming of the Shrew. Dropped by Cariboo first so Dan could see his ler pun yow" (gf), then sped back to metro to pick up some people and made it to the play half an hour late... it was okay tho.. um.. we left halfway through and went to eat at burger king, and scare little kids.. or well.. "some" of us did that.. went to danny's house later that night to get beaten in pool by mikee.. aiya..

Sept. 11 - May those killed in today's terrorist attacks rest in peace, and may the ones responsible for their deaths burn in hell. Today thousands of innocent people lost their lives on this tragic day. I still remember a year ago, standing on top of the world trade center..walking thourgh it's doors.. riding up the elevator.. and peering through the windows.... I awoke this morning dazed and with a sick feeling to my stomach as I found out about the multiple terrorist attacks to the United States. It was like I had awaken onto the set of some unknown action movie starring Bruce Willis... if only it were a movie, complete with a happy ending... But it isn't. It's as real as you and me. 50000+ people killed, thousands more injured, millions grieving. I can only pray that nothing like this ever happens again..

Sept. 10 - After a "productive" day at school, I ventured home listening to my honger/rap music enduring 20 minutes in the searing hot sun at 1:37pm, instead of the usual, 3pm, because I had a free block. The second I got home I flopped down on the couch and fell asleep watching Aaron Kwok sing and dance.. seeing him dance his "Emperors New Clothes (Song??)" dance reminded me of the way things used to be.. back in the day.. when Quyet was here.. how we would laugh.. and dance retardedly just like Aaron Kwok.. =S. Later that night I hopped in dan's "skyline" (volvo station wagon), and went to Danny's house to play some pool.. but ended up playing video games the whole time. =).

Sept. 9 - Woke up at 12 again today, to do some homework.. but found out I had none. =). Drove to metrotownn.. and sucked at parking. =(.. But atleast I didn't crash! (yay!) And went to church with Anh. Whoa.. it's been so long since I've been to church.. the last time I went was in december.. when I went to my ex's church.. and I don't think I even went in when I visited her. After we went to Chinatown, went to night market, and ate some pho.. or actually... I had vietnamese subs.. and anh had rice.. so basically we went to a pho restaurant without acutually eating pho.. which is kinda like going to IHOP and eating steak.. or a sushi bar and eating terriyaki chicken. =S. Aww.. the yelling guy wasn't at the night market in Chinatown..

Sept. 8 - I woke up pretty late today.. just like I used to "back in the day" during Summer. =P. I went out for dinner in Richmond and baught a phone card to call Quyet.. but forgot his number. =(. After I went to Danny's crib (D-Spot) with the rice bowl couple (dan and aimee), and played some pool, and SUCKED... (i think the minature pool table in melissa's house "broke" my pool skiilz). Went to watch The Musketeers after with Alex n Mike. My opion: BAD movie, don't see it.. some really retarded parts.. and the whole movie is too predictable. Then went out for Wendy's (ho yeah two dollar meal's =) ), and ate at the playground in my old elementary school.

Sept. 7 - Today I had an "exciting day" at school, doing physics, finding a new girlfriend for Quyet during computer science, and playing with my palm pilot during math. After school, I went to pick up my paycheck.. with Anh.. my man! and and then went downtown to watch girls shop, and give money to bums, n n ate at red robins. The men's restroom in Mcdonalds was Out Of Order, so I had venture into a place where no man has ever step foot into... (except baday men), the woman's washroom! *gasp*. =O. Then we went to Melissa's crib to watch American Psycho. It was a very.. hrmm.. disturbing, bad movie, which made me wonder how many people I know may be crazy..

Sept. 6 - Sorry guys.. I'm gonna start making updates less frequent because of school.. and well ya, very little happens during school, besides me falling asleep in class, and me doing homework.. =(. Hrmm.. most of my classes are ok. I have the same teachers as last year, with the exception of chemistry.. but my new chem teacher seems very... interesting. Yay! My parents let me drive the benz now! =).. and I have my own key.. *evil grin*. =P. I got a new driving instructor since "crazy bill" is booked till October.. his name is Shaft!.. well Shaff.. but it's "basically" the same. =P. The tercel that I have to drive in is crap! I floored it and it could barely make it up a moderately steep hill.. Our try-outs for temporary replacement Quyet's went pretty poor.. most of the people who made it to the second round are girls. =P.. in fact.. all of them.. I don't think anyone could ever replace him.. not even till december. =(.

Sept. 4 - The first day of school.. =(.. summer has officially ended.. Sigghh... it's finally my final year at Burnaby North Secondary.. and then I'll be "all grown up" after.. aww.. i miss being a little kid.. After the half hour of school we had today to pick up our schedules, me danny dan n alex, hit top ten, a really ghetto, cruddy, pool place close to our school.. that people only goto because it's close.. Then alex stayed at my place for a whileeee.... i miss summer, and it's just ended.. i can picture the heaps of homework I'll be receiving already.. aiyya... the thought of it makes me wanna cry.. =~(.

Sept. 1-3 - I dropped off Quyet at his mansion at 5am today (Sept. 1)... =(... it was so sad seeing him run into his house through the rain... Day one in San Francisco, took a 7am flight and got here @ 10:30... Rented a Buiclc =S...checked in at the Sheraton and realized that I only brought one pair of pants... =P. I kept falling asleep every 5 minutes today. My 2nd cousin's was held at a winery in Napa Valley, so it involved alot of wine... they even drank at the alter =P. It was really nice, although I knew practically no one there. It ended pretty late, and I fell asleep the second I got back to the hotel. Day two in San Francisco woke up waaayy too early to go eat breakfast with my second cousin's and some other assorted unknown relatives at a country club. Shopped a little, then checked out of our hotel and moved into one closer to the airport. Rested a little then drove down the most crooked street in the world, and went to eat dinner at some seafood restaurant. Day three in the Bay Area, ate breakfast in Chinatown then went "sightseeing"... went back to the hotel, checked out and went to the airport, where we went to eat in the staff cafeteria... =P. Got baq to Vancouvev @ 8pm n ate at pho 99! Awww... Summer is over so fast... it seemed just like yesterday it began... and we were cruising in the ghetto Camary yelling at "gangsters"... playing with fabreeze... awww... I wish everyday could be summer... this is my last year in high school.. then after.. I won't be a little kid anymore.. people will kick me if I played with pokemon... aiyaaaa.... Hrrmm... I miss the good old days... =(

Aug. 31 - As suddenly and as unexpectedly as Summer had started... it had almost now come to an end.. which brings me back to the "evil place" (school =( ). I woke up early today after an overwhelming three hours of sleep to visit Ruth one last time before she had to leave for Seattle. =(. Then I went to Quyet's house to help him move.. =(. He's moving tomorrow after I leave for San Fransico for three days.. Today was my last day at work.. which was way too easy as usual. =S. I was starting to get the hang of doing a job in which you do absolutely nothing and get paid for it. =).. Quyet and Alex came and ate Pho with me on my break.. and I made it back five minutes late... but it's all good. Anh visited me after she finsihed working, yay.. and my supervisor didn't care.. they wouldn't even gimme anything to do. =S.. Working at the PNE was fun.. I might do it again next Summer if I have time. Awww........ I really enjoyed this Summer, and wish it didn't have to end.. my flight's at 7am Sept.1, I don't plan on going to sleep tonight.. I miss Quyet and Ruth already.. =(.. even though Quyet's playing video games somewhere in my living room..

Aug. 30 - Yay!..or Aww.. today was Ruth's going away party.. she's leaving 2morrow! And Quyet's leaving on the first! And I'm leaving on the first too, to goto San Francisco for my second cousin's wedding. =S. We went to Spanish Banks earlyyee this morning to goto the beach. =). I dug a hole.. yay!.. Then went to the Rain Forest Cafe for dinner, but arrived almost an hour late because of many pit stops that had to be made along the way. =S. Hung around metro for a bit, then went to Hippo Cafe. Aww........ everyone is movingggg... =( Watch.. you'll probably be moving too.. =(

Aug. 29 - Woke up early today to buy going away presents for Ruth at Metro... with Anh Vivian and Quyet... oh ya! and gong away presents for Quyet... And I drove there! Yay! =S... Dan n Alex stopped by to eat lunch with us at Wendy's.. (get full for two bucks!), but one person had to sit in the trunk.. and rish their life. =S. I got kicked off work early, because they didn't need me. =(. But met up with Thao n Hon, n Esther, and other assorted people and "played" at PNE. =P.

Aug. 28 - Aiya, I was awaken early in the morning by Daniel Hu, who just got back from hong kong, when he was outside my house, and he "peer-pressured" me into going out to metrotown. And after A-mack (alex chai) went to my crib to chill for while, then I drove down to playland to wait with Anh for Vivian, who didn't show up until later, when Anh had gone home =P. But I saw her and ate lunch with her at Burger King (yay!). i was supposed to buy lunch for my co-workers at KFC.. but um.. there was a "really long line". =S.

Aug. 27 - Aww.. the ghetto '85 Camary was sold today.. such a sad day... I still remember the first time I stepped into that "beautiful piece of machinery".. the time we couldn't get it started for two hours.. the time I yelled at "gangsters" from it.. the time it stalled going down Royal Oak.. *sigh*.. atleast the fabreeze is still here. =S. Played some Gt2 today, then went to work.. it was an ok day.. had lunch with Thao n Alison at Burger King (yay! Gwai Lo fast food =) ). I was soaked by the end of the day though. =/. Aiya.. why does it have to rain in Summer?? *kicks crummy vancouver weather*

Aug. 26 - What did I do today? I don't really remember.. let's see.. I went to PNE and hung around with Quyet and did nothing cuz we got free passes from my sister, and ya.. I can get in free anytime, since I work there... We went to the "motor show", that pretty much sucked, then left halfway, then did some other stuff, and and then then waited for ANH for a really really long time.. n drove her home, n now I'm playing GT 2. =).

Aug. 24/25 - Agrh, got too tired to update yesturday, so I decided to leave it for today... Oh no! Everyone is moving! =(. Quyet's moving to Toronto and Ruth's moving to Seattle at the end of this month! Booo.... Aiya, and school's starting soon too... AND I don't get my paycheck till Sept. 8th or so, so I don't even get to spend any of my money when I go on vacation. Work was alright yesturday, the guy who takes over for me on the days off was there.. Awww... Anh's not gonna be working the morning shifts now, so I won't be able to see her at work anymore. =(. In the morning me Quyet Vivian Ruth and Anh stopped by metro for a bit before work, to.. do very "constructive things". =P. Hrmm.. after work when me and Anh were waiting for our rides outside of Mcdicks we saw soo many rats! And I thought one crawled up my leg or something, cuz I saw something run right past my foot. =S. 25th, I got my monthly haircut early in the morning from my second aunt, then went to richmind. Met up wit Quyet and Danny, and went to most of the honger malls looking for honger vcds, ate at Wendy's, then went to night market for a bit. Baught Love on a Diet and watched it tonight, it was a pretty good movie. =).

Aug. 23 - I didn't have to work today because it was raining, and PNE expected less people to go. It was kinda weird my shift got cancelled instead of someone else's, since I'm working only ten days. Anh Quyet Ruth and Vivian came to my house today... to play! yay! =).

Aug. 22 - Work sucked today! =(. There were only two collectors working today! I got so drenched and caught a cold! =~(. But.. umm.. i saw Ricky J! He looked pretty baday... but i kinda felt sorry for him cuz there were no people watching him.

Aug. 21 - Oh no! Work sucked today! I still did next to nothing, but I had to work in the rain and get drenched. =~(. Quyet came visited during my dinner break, and we ate at Wendy's. U can get full for two bucks there! =P.

Aug. 20 - I always find myself really tired after coming home from work.. after doing absolutely nothing! Hrrmm.. see, my ears in this picture are really red.. and when they're really red, it means I'm tired.. or atleast that's what my mama and baba tell me. Whoaaaa.... I won Anh a tweety after while we were leaving work! I came in all cocky, telling the guy to spin me an augest on the birthday game, and it worked. =P.

Aug. 19 - Work was fun again today. =) I brought my camera and palm pilot. =P.. it's so easy! I do next to nothing and get paid for it! =).. Shiz.... I'm so tired right now, I fell asleep for half an hour before at my desk and just woke up right now.. Oh ya.. SOMEONE gave me the pictures of SOMEONE wearing a dress!

Aug. 18 - Whoa! Working at PNE is so fun! I do nothing and get paid for it! It was weird at first because I went to the wrong place, and started working for the wrong people.. but but I found the right place half way through the day, so it was all good. Shizzz....... for a half hour the wall climbing thing couldn't sell tickets cuz i messed up.. but umm.. it was ok... basically. =P. All I at work is talk and escort people around.. yay! =)..

Aug. 17 - Went to sleep at 6am today to make a cd for anh for her birthday on my really slow burner. =P. I wore wool pants half the day.. but decided they looked pretty baday (gay in vietnamese), so i changed. Went to playland! Yay.....and I'll be going there for the next seven days too... =~(.. Playland was fun, even though we didn't stay too long. Awww.... I didn't win anything this time.. hrmm... I better goto sleep early today so I can wake up early for driving lessons/work 2morrow so I'll cut this short.

Aug. 16 - Happy Birthday Anh! yay! 16! Whoa..... u can drive! Ho yeah! =P.. I had driving lessons today! And i SUCKED! Aiya... I almost killed the instructor.. =S.. Whoa.. everyone came to my house for Anh's Birthday.. to my little ghetto yellow house. Anh and Ruth cleaned my room, and I feel guilty for messing it up now... now I have to fold everything nicely if I wanna look at my clothes or something. Aiyaaa..... and and Ruth and Vivian baked a cakee for Anh! Whoa.. I can't bake anything at all.. Hrrmm.. this morning when Quyet came over my mama kept talking with him and wouldn't let him play with mee.. waaaahhhh... n he's crashing at my place tonight. Hrmm... might goto Playland 2morrow for free, since I'm working at PNE starting Saturday.. dunno.

Aug. 15 - My Orientation at PNE today was... interesting... we did the same things as the first interview!! We made up a name for our group.. and did puzzles.. again!... Does PNE think all their workers are six or sumpin? =P.. hrrmm.. I also lost my cellphone today while I was at PNE! But Anh called it, and some gwai lo picked up, and she called Quyet, and Quyet got it back from him... thanks Quyet... =P.. I arrived at 9am for the orientation which was acutally supposed to begin at 12pm.. but when they called me last weekend.. I wasn't really paying attention cuz I was at the skyrtrain station at Metrotown meeting up with some friends.. So when I called the office, the lady gave me a lecture about what time I should of been there and blabhlabhal.. Oh well.. work is just two weeks long.. I'll live. Went to Danny's RICH house after "work" to play pool, spin air hockey paddle thingies, watch some of 15 minutes.. until I feel asleep and left cuz I got bored. Oh oh! And I ate dinner at Wendy's! They can get you full for juussstttt two dollarrsss..

Aug. 14 - I got womanized! Again!... thanx to Anh and Ruth... =P... oh well, atleast i didn't get as violated as Quyet did... persay.. Hrrmm... went back to The Q-cave... to watch Honger movies and make fun blender drinks after.. =P Watched some of a Sammi movie... but kept falling asleep so just stopped it halfway and watched Shaolin Soccer.. with Stephen Chow.. it's funnyyy as hell. =P. Dammitt.... i got orientation for working at PNE 2morrow.... aiyaaa..... Gotta wake up so early...

Aug. 13 - I don't even remember what I did today.. hrmm.. I was supposed to wake up early to goto work, but i ended up going to sleep at around five I think.. so I didn't wake up in time.. and just decided to goto the Quyet mansion to watch more VCDs! yay!...

Aug. 12 - Hrrm.. woke up pretty late today, went to Aimee's house to sing to her and give her a rose from Dan for their one month anniversary.. since he's in Hong Kong.. (awww...).. No one sang but me tho..! BOOOooooo... then went back to Quyet's house to help him move into his mama's room.. but I just talked on the phone pretty much the whole time. =P. Went to Safeway... (doesn't it look like a club or sumpin in the pic.. =P), to buy some tea so we could make blueberry bubbletea without the bubbles.. so basically just blueberry tea... that's cold.. watched the Lucky Guy on VCD, it was pretty good.. Aiya.. my shifts for working at the PNE are going to be 4pm to 12am every weekday.. I dun wanna work there anymore!.. and I havn't even started! =~(.

Aug. 11 - Booo.. they make you dial ten digits now to make a phone call in vancouver.. All my life I've been dialing only seven digits.. and now.. aiya.. =P. Watched The Others today.. it was okay I guess.. not great, okay. Then went to play at a park (yay!), goto night market (yes once again), eat some jap food then go home.. or go home and park in my driveway for an hour.. and not go inside.. because the only way in my house is the scary way through the back entrace to the garage.. where the coyotes, monsters, and "the others" dwell. =S...

Aug. 10 - After two days of dressing bummy... i wore a suit today! (dressed funeral), n umm.. ate breakfast at IHOP, went and "played" a little tennis after I dressed into my bummy clothes, them umm.. got "womanized" by anh at her house.. when she plucked my eyebrows.. (ouch ouch ouch, the pain the pain).. but not as bad as quyet when he wore a dress! but daymn.. he managed to delete the pictures of himself... stopped for some bbtea, ate some jap food, then worked at night market at my MAGIC PEN stall for about two hours. LoL, some people actually stopped to watch us yell. =P.

Aug. 8/9 - Bleh... Never made it home again last night. =P. Watched the fireworks finale yesterday at my apartment, but left a little early so we could catch the S-train b4 the crowds. We ran almost the whole way and got on the same train as our friends who left earlier =P. Went to E-spot afterwards, left @ 1:00am when it closed (so early...). Then went to Queen Elizabeth Park!... But it was closed. =~(. The next day watched half of My Name Is Nobody, called my wifey =), went out for some Korean BBQ, washed a car, then watched Quyet tennis with a weird gwai lo.

Aug. 7 - Watched Rush hour two today! Finally! I've been waiting so long for it to come out. =P.. and it was awesome.. =). Hrm... went blueberry picking after.. (pretty gay =P ), then went home and went out for bbtea, and went to aimee's house. =)

Aug. 6 - hrmmm..... went to eat dinner in richmond, stopped by night market again to drop off some stock.... and... to get lectured by a guy selling cellphone accesories, scared by the telephone lady, and the yelling guy was hiding from me! =P.... i think they're on me.. grrr... It's really weird... thinking you're absolutely sure about something.. only to find out that you were completely wrong later on... A year ago, there was only one thing in my life I was sure of.. and it turned out that what I was wrong... The road I had planned to take, was a dead end.. and now I just keep thinking.. that what if someday I find myself in the same place I was, a year ago... will I once again be so sure... only to let myself down again.. or will things be different..

Aug. 4/5 - First of all, we wenta the airport, to see my "chi chi" off on her flight baq to toronto *sniff sniff* =~P. Fireworks yesturday! Yay! But they were so crappy we left halfway. =P.. and went kereoke-ing at Do Re Mi... Pretty nice place, kinda weird... but nice nevertheless.. we were originally gonna goto Melody Shake, but it was closed(?). Took some "xtc"... and drove by Queen Eliz. park after, without going in.. cuz Quyet's mama was "mad".. =S. Slept over at Quyet's house after, and woke up late the next day.. then went to richmond for dinner, and stopped by night market.

Aug. 3 - Played more GTA2! Ho yeah! Went to metro... baught nothing, but tried on a nice pair of loafers..=P.. went to night market after.. and baught nothing. =~(. Or wait wait wait! I baught an iced mocha...! Whoa.. and so did quyet (he felt left out...), but he baught the bad tasting one.. I was gonna get the same.. but the person working there.. warned me... whoa.. I was saved.. Hrrmmm... oh no! It's Chi chi's last day in Vancouver.. awww...

Aug. 2 - No VCD's today.. just some GTA2... and went out for dinner with the Quyet Family Crew... then went bowling, T bar, hot shot, n starlight when hot shot closed. Tiredd.... I decided to dress more GQ-ish today.. since I was bummy as hell yesturday.. but it got my parents suspicious.. and the clothes were pretty uncomfortable too... =S.. The whole day... I felt like I was missing something.. I was overcome with some strange feeling of.. imcompletedness.. (sure.. that's a real word).. I don't really know what it was.. I looked through some of my ex boxes today.. that could be why.. but.. not completely.. Or maybe the murkyness of the weather might have been a factor.. Hrrmm.. Whatever it was... I have a feeling I'm about to find out soon.. what? i don't really know.. Then again maybe I'm just tired..

Aug. 1 - Today was a bad day... All cloudy, and boring.. and gloomy.. and bleh.. And my cellphone broke.. and now I can't see anything on the display or hear anything when someone calls me.. and yeah.. Augest First Bad...=(

July. 31 - Day 11 of the VCD marathon @ the Quyet mansion! Except we watched a video of The Saint of Gamblers (doh sing) instead.. reallyyy ollddd movie. =P.. but still good. =). And we also watched a video of me and Dan singing the Thong Song at a Singing competition we won back in Sping Break... pretty embarrasing stuff. =S. Hrrmm... and I also raced a car home on my bike.. which was interesting.. Ahhhh... why can't every season be Summer? =P.

July. 30 - Day 10 of the VCD marathon... and we only watched one vcd. =~(... Summer Holiday. Today we went to Melissa's farm and baught some blueberries to make blender drinks. (i have too much fun with blenders =S)... n went to Ruth's house n fixed her light we broke.. sorta.. n went out for bubble tea.

July. 28/29 - Missed yesturday's entry cuz I crashed at Quyet's house. Had to wake up early on the 28th for a dentist appointment, then had to stop by Playland to get my pic taken, n get my employee card. Work starts Aug. 17 (?)... After hit metro, did some "shopping", n went downtown to my apartment to watch the fireworks! Yay!~ South Africa.. =P. How can they even afford firewroks?? UNICEF money? =S. (*points to self* ignorant asian man =( ). N after we went to Hot Shot to "play pool".. but yeah.. we acutally just played the photo hunt game the whole time. =P. Then then then then, after driving some ppl home, I slept over Quyet's house (my second home)... N the next day went to IHOP for breakfast.. at around 3pm. =P.. and went to Richmond after with my family.

July. 27 - Whoa... Day 9 of The VCD marathon... at Dan's house! (gasp).. not at my second home.. =~(. We watched some of Initial D the movie.. n Gone in 60 Seconds. Today we brought Dan... to Aimee.. played some bball, played on the playground, and then we left, and went to Dan's house and had "fun". =P. Yay! Ho yeah!

July. 26 - Ho yeah! Day 8 of the VCD marathon @ Quyet's house! But we only watched one VCD (Mater Q 2001), because we went to go bug my sister at "work", drop by Playdium, and go kereoke-ing @ Mikes. My sister's "boss"(?), looks EXACTLY like Carrot Top! It's so... weird.. :P. I went back to the tower in the woods at Warner Lope Park (spelled wrong..but basically sounds the same).. and the words I carved months ago were still there! Yay...

July. 25 - day..... (drumroll) SeVen of the VCD marathon! Ho yeah! =P. We watched Fists of Fury 1991, Lord of Amusement, and The Mission today. Or.. actually, we "watched" the Mission... And also.. a hardcore indian woman tried to kill me by calling her hardcore gangster indian friends! =(... Yikes! (whoa.. what a cool expression.. yikes...). I'm supposed to goto Playland to get my picture taken and fill out forms sometime this week.... (watch me running in the office at the last minute). =P

July. 24 - Today was work day! =(... yay.... *fun stuff*. We ate lunch at Parker Place, and after went back to the company to install programs in laptops... while my little cousin harrassed Quyet.. yay!.. for five long hours.. until I went ghetto on him.. and made him cry... then I felt bad.. =(.

July. 23 - Day 6 of the extremely long VCD marathon @ Quyet's house today! Dan joined us briefly, n Danny participated for the entire day.. Today we watched... The Storm Raiders (aka Fong Won), Roaring Wheels, Runaway, and Biocops. All very "interesting movies"... lol.. jk.. Storn Raiders is pretty good, n biocops is alright.. roaring wheels is so boring no one payed attention at all... and runaway.. well.. ya... We stopped by metro to pick up some new VCD's... and play games at Playdium.. well I only watched them play games since I'm brrooookkeeee.. =(.. from "soupping up" my phone.. *kicks cellphone*.. stupid blinding blue lights.. =P.

July. 22 - Day FIVE of the VCD maraton @ Quyet's house... though today we planned on doing very little.. we went around alot.. =P.. Hrmm.. let's see. First we drove Dan to metro to goto Aimee's birthday party (yay!). We gave her.. a foam monkey, a poo eraser (toast eraser), stamps, and a light up pen from my night market stall! (whoa, big money. =P). Then we went around metro for a bit, bumped into Patrick and Gloria (what's *that* about? huh? huh?). Then we baught some VCD's and went baq to the Quyet Mansion to watch Matrial Angels... a weird movie about lesbians, rapists, and bad morals.. after.. a hardcore gangster stopped by.. to kill us.. almost.. (Danny) but he decided to pick up a VCD we borrowed, and spare our lives instead.. =P. Then we went baq to metro to pick up Daniel, the golden rice bowl..boy! And waited for a longgg time.. I found out who that person who asked me "aren't u Donna's ex?!" was... and it turns out I've met her b4.. =S. Then.. afterwards.. we picked up a-mack (Alex), then went back to Quyet's house once again to watch.. Everyday is Valentine.. that was pretty good. =). And then went back home to "fun gohw" (sleep). *Yawn*...

July. 21 - The VCD marathon will be continued tomorrow.... yay!... Today I... went to the night market to work for about an hour... and I sold ALL the slippers.. (yay!).. then me, Quyet, Melissa, Melissa's cousin, and Melissa's cousin's boyfriend, walked around the night market in richmond for a bit, then went to eat Thai food... But upon discovering that there were rats near the vicinity of the restaurant... we decided to go eat some pho.. which was kinda weird.. because the restaurant was supposedly "closed".. then we hit e-spot, n played some pool, popped by jack's loft (jack off =P)... then went home. yay!. =P. (I'm now poor).

July. 20 - The VCD marathon was cancelled for today.. because I had to work! Installing stuff on laptops! =(! But... fear not.. the VCD marathon will resume this coming monday. (yay!)... I can't believe I spent $50 on "souping up" my cellphone.. it has blue lights now and a clear faceplate.. I didn't take a picture of it.. cuz... that was $50 down the drain... and I don't really want it anymore... Now I can't use my phone while watching a movie in a theatre... now I can't ehh.. see the pretty green glow it use to emit.. and now I can be spotted from a mile away in any direction... Heheh.. I worked like 45 minutes at a stall at the night market in Richmond today.. the one with the light-up pens.. It was.. interesting... Awww... some chick said I was a pretty bad salesman.. =(. But her friend baught a pen anyways... so.. yeah, who has the last laugh now. Aha! (whoa). =P.

July. 19 - Day 4 of the VCD marathon at Quyet's house! Hardcore Danny stopped by to partake in this lively event today. Daymn, I forgot to bring my camera today... =(. Hrrrmmm... I think I'm working at the Night Market in Richmond 2morrow... Soooo... Come visit me! Look for a tall asian man... =P. Today's selection of VCD's included Young and Dangerous 2 (goo wat gai yee), Help, 007 from Beijing with love (ling ling chut), and Marooned. Our marathon was briefly interrupted for a viewing of Double Take. Dr. Ho's massage therapy is scary... =(... It shocks you! It made me lose feeling in my thumb for about five minutes.. and I had it on low power too!

July. 18 - Day 3 of the VCD marathon at Quyet's house... was cut short because I went to metrotown at four.. to watch "The Score", with Brant, Simon, and Sang. It was a pretty bad movie.. =P.. tho Brant's opinion might be quite different.. Today's selection of VCDs include... needing you, and the rules of the game, both honger movies. When I was at metrotown.. some chick I've never seen before, working at some sports store came up to me and said "aren't u donna's ex???". Then after I replied "yes"... she said "good job...". Freaky stufff.... ohhh ya.. and I saw Melissa! Whoa!! =P

July. 17 - Day 2 of the VCD marathon at Quyet's house... we had chicken for dinner.. yum. :P Some gwai poh's stole my sandals while we were doing the laundry... which was an interesting experience.. fortunately the sandals weren't mine... and i got them back. :). The honger movies in today's selection were: the god of cookery (sick sun), young and dangerous (goo wat gai), and young and dangerous 5 (goo wat gai em). Daymn... I didn't know the fifth one was the stupid boxing one.. the worst of the goo wat gai movies.. :~(. I should be in the goo wat gai movies.. then everyone would have to look up to talk to me.. and I could just *bop* them on the head if they want to start something with me... hrrmm.. yes.. that would be a *very* interesting movies to watch.. don't u think? :)

July. 16 - Woke up at around 4pm for day one of chilling in Quyet's crib.. today we ate pho! Woohoo! What an *exciting* day! Aww.. n his uncle forgot to bring his new dvd player... so... I'm bringing mine tomorrow.. yay! And whoa.. everyone from some site knows what I look like now!... =P

July. 15 - Whoa.. I was left without a ride and stuck at my Grandma's house in richmond.. so I started to walk home... for an estimated duration of 3 hours.. but luckily.. whoa.. quyet drove all the way from burnaby and "saved me"... Hrrm.. then 1/2 of KJC + Danny, Thao, and Thao's friend went to metro, n hit playdium/kareoke-ing. :P

July. 14 - Slept most of the day, went to Parker Place, ate, left. Went to the Night Market with the Quyet Crew. Some $@#% tried to steal our spot, but fortunately we told them off with our hand signals. At the Night Market we had "fun", ate fishballs, Quyet went on the hardcore Titanic, and Quyet's cousins got balloons filled with water and tied to an elastic band... For ONLY two dollars. Daymn Carnies... tricking us... =P. I'm at my Grandma's right now, writing on my palm pilot, sleeping over.

July. 13 - I'm in my office right now writing on my palm pilot... Just sitting here while everyone else in the office, along with some investors(?) are in a heated debate over the future of the company... They're right beside me as I write... What I don't get is why they don't use the meeting room... Hrmmm... I think I know too much information right now... Maybe they're gonna kill me when they're done =(. Oh well... It's my last day @ work today! Yay! =). Woohoo! More sleep for me. =). Heheh... This meeting's like a mumbling convention. =P. Sigh... So bored right now... And the computer I'm at has no internet access... Some investor guy came up to me before, who was greeting everyone, and asked me "what's your position in the company?"... And I was trying to explain to him I didn't actually work here, but I don't think he quite got me... Whoa, the meeting's over now... Hrmmm... It's 10:32am right now... I'm surprised I'm not asleep yet... =P... I wonder if I should use this palm pilot to take notes next year... I haven't really written anything on it till now. Lalala... Awww... Too bad I forgot to bring a disk for my digital camera... I was gonna take pictures of all my "work friends". =P. I guess I'm gonna go play some solitaire now... (so hardcore la). Ok, solitaire becomes really boring really fast... Today reminds me of my first day here... I have nothing to do... And it'5 so cold in this office, I think I caught a cold yesterday... .=(. Hrmmm.. after I came back from lunch I went to sleep purposely.. until someone woke me up to tell me I could use their computer to surf the internet... *ahhhh*... if only real jobs were like this.. :P Yesturday my family found a dead kitten in our frontyard... =(.. and last week there was a dead squirrel in our backyard.. we think we may have a coyote living in our backyard... as small as it may be.. Whoa.. Quyet payed me back ten dollars right now!... what a honest, and decent guy! And... he's single too! Yes... that's right ladies.. so... If YOU'RE under five feet, and and.. think that Quyet is a nice.. handsome young man.. contact me now for details... (yes.. my journal is now a dating service!) (whoa..) (um.. ya.. I'm not kidding.. =P ).

July. 12 - Whoa... I did such a *good job* at work today.... my surpervisor said I could have the rest of the day off. =). Then KJC (Kevin Jew Crew) plus Aimee went out to the Cactus Club to eat (gwai lo food), went karaoke-ing, then hit T Bar... and the highlight of the day.. DAN GOT HOOKED UP! Woohoo! WASSUP! My Man!

July. 10 - Well... I acutally did something at work today.. but the day consisted mostly of surfing AsianAvenue and sleeping.. It's kinda weird how I received more calls on my cellphone, than the company did the whole day... hrrm.. ohoh I have a very speshull treat for everyone today.. I finally took out my digital camera and.. took it around... sooo... without further adieu... here's Kevin's Surprised Gallery! (yay!). I went to people's houses, knocked on their doors/called them, and ran away. :).

And some not so "surprised" pictures. (aww...)

yea yea.. i know the last pic/second last pic looks weird. :P

July. 9 - Work is so boring... I could cry... The office has like 5 people. No one talks at all.. It's like it's forbidden or something.. The only sound heard is the clitter-clatter of keyboards being typed on, and this russian woman who talks on the whole alot... but whispers... as in secret. Today, I accomplished nothing whatsoever. "Here, you can look at this program we made".. Which was semi-interesting for like ten seconds... but six hours later... yeah... You kinda get the idea. At some point I fell asleep, and when I woke up my supervisor was trying to explain something to me... but I couldn't really tell what, because he kept mumbling. Sigh... more work for me 2morrow. =(

July. 8 - I have work 2morrow... without pay.. *grumble grumble*

July. 7 - Went to E Spot... whoa. Played Pool. Whoa. Drove around for hours and hours.... got to Quyet's house (aka Sister Stalker)... current location. :P

July. 5 - aww.. everyone's in summer school but me... i feel like such an outcast.. =( ...heheh j/k. I get to sleep in and they don't.. yay!

July. 4 - went to Alina's house, did nothing..:) Watched a jap movie after that made little sense... Well, probably cuz I don't understand Japanese... But yeah... I could read the subtitles... Tne good guys die in the end...? That sorta baffled me.. there wasn't really any real solution to the conflicts..

July. 3 - I got the job... obviously. :P

July. 2 - Sometimes you find the most amazing things.. in the most unexpected places... and other times you find the crappiest things in the most obvious places.. =(

July. 1 - July first. Canada Day... yay! Less spectacular than Independance Day... but ya.. um.. it's still somewhat celebrated. Watched the fireworks at Canada Place today, hit Rush after, then went to T Bar... where I *think* I saw my ex... and by that.. hrmm.. probably yes. But I wasn't really sure, and didn't really wanna find out. The fireworks they had for Canada Day were so... hrrm.. how do I put this... ehh.. Ghetto. They had so little fireworks, that it seemed like it was over when they shot more than two in the sky. We left early so it was easy to catch a skytrain.. with slightly amusing people on that we talkead to.

June. 30 - Slept at my grandma's house last night cuz she was going to be home alone, I could of slept on a bed.. but instead I chose to sleep on a couch toO small for me, because there was tv in the living room. =P. Stayed up for a couple hours partially thinking.. about.. life.. and also because of the ticking of an incessantly loud clock, which in the morning.. I couldn't hear at all. Kinda spooky...
I believe.. that if something is meant to be.. it'll come with minimal effort, almost naturally.. And I apply this theory to most things I do.. though I probably shouldn't.. because it'll probably lead to a... lack of trying.. and striving for goals. Hrmm.. this theory seems pretty... inaccurate. Ok, I hreby ditch this theory, and now I'll believe that if you want something to happen, make it happen.

June. 28 - Watched Save the Last Dance today... a grand total of... (drumroll please).. 3 times! yay! (because i somehow managed to brake my television, so we have no cable now... =( *sniff sniff*)

June. 27 - My sister's birthday today. :) She sure had fun... And me? ehh.. my sister had fun...
Everyday.. I feel less and less like myself.. and more like someone else. It's a strange feeling.. but somehow, I think it's helping me.. I'm forgetting the past, and seeing the future..

June. 26 - A tribute to Alex Chai..... Hope your ready for the next episode.... heyeyeyeeee! Smoke weed every day!... today?... the usual.. ball, drive around... get bored, goto new west. No more 85 Camary. =(. Now we crusing in an unproportional Pontiac... dammit.. the seats hurt my back.. We need asain engineering.. =P if ur fed up with my sort uninsightful entries.. ehh.. u can always read my earlier ones i wrote back in the day. =)

June. 25 - Yay... I am working at Playland this Summer.. hrrm.. what should I do?...sell tickets or be the guy who gets to drive around a little cart fetching people stuff?... Hrrrmm... Aww... I wanted to be the ticket collector. :( Oh well..

June. 24 - Watched the Fast and the Furious again... it was better this time... the ending was more suspenseful.

June. 23 - Today I went to my cousin's Chinese Ballet Performance... pretty intense stuff. ;). It seems I'm developing a habit of waking up at 4pm now and going to sleep at 4am... bad Kevin... :(. My sister has an interview tomorrow at PNE. She's 13 going on 14... hrrmm.. i wonder how that'll work out... Maybe I'll be working with my sis. :P

June. 22 - Went to the night market at China town, ate sushi at metro, and watched the Fast and the Furious at logheed today... then after my friend scared me... "hey.. let's see how long it takes for this '85 camary to do 60 mph!...maybe it's a ten second car!...". Sadly, I think many other cars were trying to do the same. I think I have a magic wallet... I keep on taking money out of it... but it never goes away... hrrmm.. bad money! shoo!... (it's late at night and I'm tired). Ahhh... Summer vacation. Now I know why I crave for this time to come all school year... bliss..

June. 21 - Hrm... it's June 21.. and nothing really happened today.. i guess it wasn't a sign... maybe i was supposed to pick lotto numbers or sumpin..

June. 20 - After months and months of waiting and hoping... Ahhh.... the first day of Summer Vacation has finally arrived. And what did I accomplish on this glorious day? Well, I woke up at around the time I would of returned home from school, and played games while working out. :P. I plan on gaining 15 pounds this Summer.. the reason why is beyond me.. and how.. I don't know... but it shall be done. (notice the deterioration of the quality of my entries as time passes.. before you'll know it, you won't even be able to read them... ohh...)

June. 19 - The end of an era... the end of a generation... the end of grade 11! Yay! I went on a job interview today at Playland which wasn't really a job interview.. we just played games and solved puzzles. And I got pretty much all of the puzzles for my group. :) Yay! I've decided that I'm going to run everyday of the Summer and stay in shape.. hrrmm.. if I do get this job at the pne.. then I'm probably not going to be going to Hong Kong. Of course you'll all come visit me right? =)). Still no updates on family situations. Tired. Sleep.

June. 18 -

Watched Shrek in an empty theatre today.... discovered how fun yelling really is.

June. 17 - my dad moved his stuff out of his office today... it isn't final yet.. but he's "makling preparations". He's the vice president... alot of power.. but not enough.. company's losing money. The situation with my cuz.... has become even more complicated.. it turns out.. he might be playing us all for fools.. but we don't really know... I've only seen the guy three times in my life. My uncle's situation.. well.. we're seriously buying alot of lotto tickets and hoping for a miracle... I went to the cementary today... Suddenly my life has become so complicated.

June. 16 - After a "constuctive" night of hanging out and fooling around... spraying fabreeze at passing cars.. and singing out loud... I was faced with the blunt slap of reality. Almost exactly like the many bad chinese gangster movies I have seen... but a frightening actuality... my cousin has been captured by a gang.. which demands 350,000 Canadian Dollars for his return... my uncle has gone completely bankrupt... and my dad might lose his job sooner than expected... and me, a 17 yearold boy, completely useless. My cousin should be okay.. we should have enough money to get him back.. considering they abide to the agreement. My uncle's case is next to impossible to solve... if we sold everything we owned.. we still wouldn't have close to what he needs... we can only pray for a miracle right now.. and my dad's job.. we still have another company.. and that might cut it for now... and my mom also has a job.. Sometimes when the most unimaginable situation comes true... you're left to fend it off with nothing but a stick... life isn't a movie... things don't always work out.
Sorry I missed yesturday's post, my computer crashed over 20 times.. and I gave up. I have a *pretty* good chance of working at pne this summer... since.. I got connections.. I'm probably going to be collecting tickets.. so if you see a tall asian guy. Gimme a shout. :). It seems almost completely trivial to discuss anything else in my life right now... I just pray that somehow.. someway... everything will work out ok.

June. 14 - Hackers are mean cold hearted people... :(

June. 13 - Ironically I lost five times today at pool... karma's no fun. :(

June. 12 - Today I got something back, that I've missed having for a long long time... sleep. A four hour nap is refreshing as hell.. (how beautifully worded). I just noticed something about myself today.. I love things that I hate.. it's kinda of hard to describe why... but I'm starting to understand how a love-hate relationship functions. So far, it's just been with items and other things, and not acutually real people that I know. Take for example.. N sync. I hate their songs... yet I sing them cuz.. I dislike them so much. Also.. my cellphone. It's cover is broken, and it's opens if you do as little as put it up right.. yet I find it "more amusing" that way. Hrm... my mind's a blank right now, I can't really think of anything else. In terms of a love-hate relationship... I somehow can't grasp that concept yet.. I don't understand how it would work, since my experiences are only one way with items and songs.. Maybe the hatred is acutally love in disguise, and the person just doesn't relize it. That's the only way I can see it I guess.

June. 11 - A cold summer afternoon.

June. 10 - So... what did I do last night till this afternoon? Just usual adolescent mischief... hrrm.. summed up with some key phrases?... "doing an infotech assignment", "drivers license", "I *think* we're in Coquitlum, so I'm guessing it'll be another half an hour till we get there", road block, messing around with "gangsters" in a Prelude while we're crusing in our *new* and oh-so-intimidating Camary ('85 baybee!), no parallel parking abilities whatsoever, no parking spaces whatsoever, racing station wagons, "are u pizza boys?", alcohol, PIZZA!....cold, remote controlled blinds, "Wow! This telescope is so powerful you can even make out the hookers on Hastings!", "Standford Street", Bunkbeds in China, "Shreddy Wiener", "jogging in the rain", no Pho places open at 4am, 80 km/h in the parking lot with Police cars parked in it, Lost in New West, The bowl macker! (inside joke... ehh.. I'll tell you when SOMEONE decides that the confidentialness of this information is not longer necesary, um... as if you'd understand anything else I wrote in this entry. =P), "Huh? Arolsol? Sure..", "Hey **n, this is ****e, wassup?", Bullseye, Cream but no sugar coffee, more Bullseye, "It's all good, the mud makes you look like you were in a fight", Pool at Starlite, "Hey, isn't that that guy that was driving the Prelude?", 5 straight wins (yay!), Elton John.
If you can understand that... you're very talented. =)

June. 9 - Sitting on the edge of the ricebowl....

June. 8 - Played some pool today.. havn't played in a while... still really suck. Played DDR (dance dance revolution? whoa.. i know the abbreviation), still really suck at that. I was looking through some old pictures of myself last night... I can almost recall every single picture perfectly.. where I was, what I was doing. The images are so clear and vivid, it's hard to believe I'm where I am right now. Sitting in front of my computer eating J-e-l-l-o. I ate two bags of chips today that were "boyond their freshness date"... what does that acutally mean?? freshness date.. can't they just put expired?? They were only 3 days expired, so they were still "ok". Although now and then I often see flashes of blinding colors.. ;P. I have weird teachers... My physics teacher races his Sentra, my Social Studies teacher goes clubbing, my Info Tech teacher plays mean tricks on his girlfriend, like steal her car and pretend to be a policeman..., my French teacher has the most monotonous voice in the world... a couple of words and I'm fast asleep, and my Visual Art teacher is scary as hell... I gave her a lecture the last time she was accusing me of something... and just nodded as I spoke. =S

June. 7 - hrmm... homework? watch mtv movie awards? or sit at my computer chatting and playing games.. decisions decisions.

June. 6 - Yay! I aced a test I thought I would fail! And I found out that I got fans! Yay! (the entrie's don't get any better than this! ;) )

June. 5 - You know what I think? Ehhh... this may seem like a stupid theory.. but hey... people thought computers would be nothing more than a useless device... What I think is that.. sometimes, in a relationship, you should break-up, so you can see what the person is really like. I mean, in the long run, it would be better. You'll learn more about the person's true nature, and wouldn't end up with someone that you figure out you don't want to be with, years after it's too late... Unfortunately, in the short run, things wouldn't be so great. But then if you weigh it out... a couple of days/weeks of hardship vs. a lifetime of regrets. It seems like a good idea.. You don't want to spend the rest of your life with that girl/guy who scratched up your car and egged your house the day after you broke up. I'm not saying go break-up with whoever you're with right now... it's just something... to keep in mind. =P.

June. 4 - This Summer will be one of my last Summers of just hanging out and doing nothing... although I`ve been working the last three Summers.. =P I guess it`s my last real Summer as a kid... If i can still be considered one... I miss being a kid, you`re so free to do whatever you want. hrm.. I`ll probably miss being a teenager too in a couple of years. =(. Time goes by so fast.. I can still remember being a nervous 13 yearold entering highschool for the first time.. everything seemed so big.. so unfamiliar... and now everything seems so small and trivial.
I was just checking off dates in my calendar wasn`t, paying attention and ending up checking off dates till June. 21... hrm.. some kind of sign?... or just plain stupidity? =P

June. 3 - I had an interesting conversation with Janet Jackson last night as we were driving to my apartment downtown... She told me how her life was composed of extremes.. how she was constantly at the pinnacle of happiness, and many times at the pinnacle of sadness at different times in her life. I thought this was also a pretty accurate description of my life... I learned alot about myself that night.
And yes, if you're wondering... of course it was just a dream... but that was a pretty meaningful conversation. =P
Yay! I just finished it! If anyone wants to check out my flash project.. (i just learned flash) click here... I'm in it! :)

June. 2 - I got a VIP keychain from a Pho restaurant that I goto alot.. yay!! 10% off EVERYTIME.. =P

June. 1 - Lately, I havn't really been able to think to my full potential. My mind feels overwhelmed with nothingless. Clouded... I worry about what the future may bring.. what I have in store for me. What I may not have in store for me. I've lost alot of motivation lately.. I don't have the will power to do anything anymore.. treading a thin nonexistent line somewhere between lost and emptyness.. melancholy as hell. Life has too many complications.

May. 31 - I spent 10 hours studying yesturday for the three tests I had today. Which seems like a long time... but went by suprisingly fast. It would have been 11 hours... but my proposed fifteen minute nap, ended up lasting an hour =P. I didn't have enough time to study everything and attempting to study everything at once only made me confused. But now that I'm finished writing all the tests... I feel like celebrating! Even though I have no idea how I did... NO MORE TESTS!!! WOOHOO!!! =)).. well I do have a math quiz tomorrow... but that's easy.
We're one day away from June and pretty soon it'll be Summer (if it isn't already.. I don't actually know when it starts). I might goto Hong Kong in Augest.. but the details are kind of hazy. I could be going by myself.. and that would be fine.. except for the face that I can't speak cantonese at all. I sonud like a white guy trying to impress a group of hongers with the very few words that I can almost pronounce... NAY HO MAH. GONG HEY FAT CHOY. CHOW MEIN... along with some assorted swear words. The last time I went.. some person working at a store actually begun speaking english to me as if they were notified in advance of my very poor chinese. :S. They're onto me... Maybe it's because of my height. I feel like a giant there. I didn't see one person taller than me... and I think I actually managed to bang my head on the very low doorway of a restaurant. =(. It's fun being in Hong Kong. I love the tall buildings and the different environment. It's only fun to visit though.. I could imagine how much it could suck living there. :P Too many people.. not enough space. Well.. it wouldn't be as bad if you were a millionaire, and fortunatly most of my relatives who live there are... and I'll probably be staying with them ;)

May. 30 - I don`t have time to write anything today.. :(.. and here I am wasting precious seconds writing this explanation of why there`s no entry... sorry! check back 2morrow! =P

May. 29 - I've lost over 5 pairs of sunglasses in the last two years. I lost another pair today. It just so happens that my social's teacher, english teacher, and physics teacher decided to have a test on the same day... so I'm pretty much screwed over right now. A last attempt for them to make everyone suffer just a little more before Summer Vancation kicks in. They must plan these things to make my life as miserable as possible. :S. A survivor of the holocaust spoke to our social's class today.. I could only imagine what he had been through... my perception of everything he was saying was probably very limited though, and I couldn't even begin to picture a fraction of anything the man had been through... living in fear for his life everyday with little food, a minimal amount of sleep, few friends, and no family.. always having to work... a lifestyle worse than that of a slave's. What he said made me think about how lucky we all really are right now... not having to live in a state of war, in unbearable living conditions... Lately, It seems I'm being reminded alot about that. I often wonder why I've been blessed with the life I live.. and why I'm not poor and staving, living in a third world country. I probably don't deserve such a luxurious life. In the future I want to travel the world.. and give back all that I've recieved.. give to those who need the most. I don't know how I could even attempt to begin such a journey.. or where I would get the money from... but one day I shall. And one day I shall also buy another pair of sunglasses, and manage to keep it longer for a year.

May. 28 - The sun's shining so brightly I can't even see what I'm typing on the screen... so I guess I'll stop right here. =P (shorry, need to catch up on homework and sleep)

May. 27 - Christina Aguilera's voice sounds like a suppressed scream. I'm sick of her Lady Marmalade song.. and all the Moulin Rouge hype.. voulez-vous couche avec moi ce soir blah.. aiya.. they're playing the song on the radio as I type! I hear it 24/7. It's enough to drive someone insane.. Christina's voice overpowers everyone else's in the song... sure, it's true that she has an amazing voice and all, but it's not really singing if you're yelling at the top of your lungs all the time. :P Then again there's rap.. but that's not singing either, it's just talking... with style. I prefer talking with style over suppressed screams. :) How did Christina get thrown in there anyways?.. Pink, Mya, Lil' Kim... Reminds me of those little segments they have on Seeseme Street.. one of these things is not like the others, one of these things isn't the same...
It's weird how music can bring back such strong memories.. where you were, what you were doing, who you were with. Whenever I hear Kiss By a Rose by Seal(?), I think of playing Warcraft II... because I used to listen to some cd I had with the song on it.. it's kinda weird... I don't especially like that song. There are some songs I don't listen to anymore because of the memories they bring back.. the songs me and my ex's had.. Right here waiting, Angel of mine... When I hear the Thong Song... memories are brought back of the very embarrassing singing competition which I miraculously won last Spring in Vegas. Why I would be in a singing competition, in Vegas of all places... I couldn't tell you... What I can tell you is I can't sing at all. I could try... but I would fail. Your ears drums would shatter.. and I would be sad, feel guilty and never sing again. I think the only reason we won was because Dan did a flip.. which wasn't actually a flip, but doesn't really matter, since it looked like one. And because everyone probably had on ear plugs, so their ear drums wouldn't have to suffer through our suppressed screams and talking with style. And since we were dancing around so much.. (eh.. don't ask) it probably looked like we were singing splendidly. (yes.. i use words like spendidly.. along with spiffy, nifty, and neato). Neato, it's time for me to goto bed now. And as I finish typing my final words.. the radio is once again playing Lady Marmalade.

May. 26 - My friend's dream car is a Honda Civic Hatchback '98(?) edition... out of all the cars in the world... he would rather have a Honda Civic Hatchback.. no Lamborghini Diablo, no Porsche 911, no Ferrari F50... not even something simpler like a Supra or a Prelude.. just a plain ol' Honda Civic Hatchback.. A dream that could easily become a reality. Which led me to thinking about how some of our dreams are so far-fetched that we'll never be able to achieve them... and probably invest a minimal effort into reaching them. I think if you want something.. it has to be to some extent achievable.. knowing it's within your reach, you'll work harder to get it... By that I don't mean right in front of you... but something more like a mile away.. a reachable destination. I think sometimes we have to forget about driving Lamborghini's, living in mansions, and dating Jennifer Lopez.. and focus on more realitic dreams.. driving Supras, living in a nice apartment/house, and dating that hot girl that you met last week at your friend's party. Realistic dreams will bring you further. If you run too fast you'll slip.. baby steps will get you there. I'm not saying abandon all your dreams.. because there's very little to life if there's nothing you desire... but just.. make this relization. I think seeing this has got me far in many aspects of life.. hrmm... I hope I'm not sounding too much like.. a motivational speaker or anything.. :P

May. 25 -
i went to a farm today... yay..

May. 24 - I fell asleep in Chemistry today and when I woke up I had a Five-Star emblem imprinted on my forehead... which was pretty amusing for a couple of minutes. ;P

May. 23 - There's NOTHING better than those little sugary donuts they have at Playland. NOTHING. Playland was awesome today! I went on ALL the rides!(almost). I've heard that people have died from almost every ride there.. yet.. the people who say this, say they heard it from someone else.. who probably heard it from someone else.. :P but, just the thought that someone has actually died from the rides, makes them more thrilling... and scary. And also fills me with sorrow for the victims of rides... I can imagine someone flying out of one of the rides, or a ride somehow malfunctioning causing everyone to fly out... But still, most of the rides are pretty lame. I think the scariest aspect of most of the rides is how low the beams are... they look like they're about to smash into your head as you pass them... and even though that's probably very unlikely... I always duck. I especially disliked the ride that has a bump in the middle of the seat... which is really uncomfortable to ride.. I think the scariest part of the ride was knowing that umm... a part of me could get hurt.. REALLY hurt.
The weather's been more than great lately. I no longer look pale :). I'm sitting in my room right now and it's boiling, but I don't mind. One of the best things I like about Summer is how it feels when entering a car that's been sitting in the sun for a while, after experiencing the cold air conditioning of a mall... ;) Summer is approaching fast.

May. 22 - This week is the BEST week! All my relatives are in town, I have no homework in any of my classes, yesturday I had no school, Friday is a half day, tomorrow I'm going to Playland, and Saturday I'm taking my friend to her prom. :) AND I'm eating cheese!
Yesturday I got my poem published in a book... it might be a giant scam.. but still.. it's nice to know that.. hrmm.. ok maybe not nice to know.. :P
I wrote it when I was 13

She Lives Within
The body may die
But The soul lives forever
A tear in the eye
Fades away: never.
Though she is gone
I can see her reflection
Like a new dawn
A light of perfection
Shining so brightly her light leads the way
Leaving the darkness and coldness astray
You feel her warmth
and remember her love
You know she is watching
From heaven above.

When I showed it to my teacher.. she said she didn't get it and told me to write another poem. The poem isn't fabulous, but ever since.. I've never written a better one.

May. 21 - Went to Aberdeen and went bowling!.... played some pool, ate dinner with relatives and family. Wow.. what a day. =P

May. 20 - Today we baught a fish and set it free in the ocean... it looked like it was skipping as it swam away towards the horizon.

May. 19 - Last night I had a dream... I was walking home and when I got to my house... and it was on fire. My first instinct was the save the car... I don't know why. So I punched in the code for my garage and pushed our mercedes onto the driveway. (Which probably wasn't very useful... =P ) It's weird how well I can think within my dreams... I was considering going into my house to save something.. but then I realized there wasn't really anything worth saving. Which led me to thinking how unnecessary alot of the things I value really are...
I also had a dream about being in a gang fight.. by myself.. which wasn't very fun.. all my dreams are always about me in unfavorable situations. I almost never have any good dreams. =(

May. 18 - The sun is shining, it's Friday, and it's the dawn of a long weekend... life is good. :). Ugh.. falling asleep in school has become a customary thing for me now.. For three straight classes in a row during English, I havn't once been able to make it through reading two chapters without falling asleep. One chapter I can manage.. but when I hit the next one... *boom* I fall to my desk and awake to the sound of a school bell half an hour later. Chemistry was even worse.. I fell asleep while the teacher was talking about electroplating, then suddenly woke up and said "Plant" really loud.. the teacher just looked at me like I was insane... and asked why I had suggested to electroplate a plant.
My parents institute the weirdest rules... I'm allowed to stay out till 5am.. I'm allowed to pretty much do everything.. but I can't close my door when I'm in my room. Ostensibly they think I'm doing something mischievous.. like smoking up or building a bomb.. i don't know.. And while it may seem like a very trivial rule, I'm very frustrated by this... It's just, the thought of having to follow a rule that makes so little sense.. and serves so little purpose. I have no privacy.. my house is small, and I can't concentrate at all if i leave my door open... I sit my computer staring blankly at the screen, unable to focus, I read my textbooks and take in nothing... only hearing the tv set blurred in with voices comming from the living room. Not having the freedom to do as one wishes is like.. being held captive within your own home. And in some absurd way, my parents probably think they're helping me... and in some even more absurd way, they probably are... =(

May. 17 - It seemed like Spring never came this year.. it went by so fast I barely noticed it, and now it's almost Summer. It's been so warm lately I've abandoned all my jackets... even on the cold days.. :P and I won't be wearing them regularly anymore till October. :( Wow.. what an exciting life I live. Talking about jackets and the weather :).... I watched the sunset last night at English Bay in my apartment.. it looked really nice over the water as it disappeared behind the mountains.. I've always wanted to take someone special to watch the sunset with me... I don't know why I havn't..
I want to live in an apartment someday.. the scenery is breathtaking, and I like being high. :). Somewhere in the core of the city where I can go downstairs for a cup of coffee and a donut anytime of the day. It might get weird not being able to turn up the music loud enough to shatter ear drums.. or jump around.. not that I do either of those. But.. i think it'd be nice.. well until I met the one.. and have a fmaily. It'd be hectic living in an apartment with kids. :P, just two people would be perfect.
heheh my lil sister has a stocker. :P. It's kinda funny.. she's freaking out.. not in a scared way tho. So it's ok. I think it's kinda cute.. in a weird.. twisted way.. whoops.. i don't think I'm allowed to use that word.. um.. i think it's kinda.. umm.. i.. um.. better go workout now...ok bye.

May. 16 - Just came home from dinner.. getting late, so I'm going to make this short. :( And in short.. I mean very.
I've decided... I'm not going tomorrow.

May. 15 - After a while, even someone you know very well, someone who's close to you, can become as distant as a stranger... If you let enough time and distance fall between you and a person.. the next time you see them, they will have completely changed. In a perfect world, everyone would stay the same.. and everyone would be happy. But people are constantly changing.. evolving. My ex, I don't know her anymore. What she wants this Thursday.. I don't know either. Deductively, this Thursday will turn out to be a very bad day for me. :(. She can't drive, and I'm guessing her parents won't be driving her.. no buses are running, and the skytrain is really far from her school... meaning someone is going to drive her. Which would most likely be a bunch of guys who don't think too highly of me.. :( But.. I'm curious... and also very stupid. :P. I mean.. what she did.. was..how you say.. not very nice.. but I'm sure she must of had her reasons.. maybe she was just frustrated..
One of my greatest flaws is I'm too forgiving.. :(.

May. 14 - I finally got my computer fixed and can go on AA again! No more suffering from AA withdraw! Now I can bask in the warm glow of... n/m. :P Hrmm.. to conpensate for the entres I missed, I better write alot today.. :P
Today, I went to school, slept through a social studies class.. read in english.. slept some more during physics, and did a presentation in French class that was based on Survivor.
Sunday, stayed at home for the most part of the day asleep.. only to be awaken by the phone at around 10am, finding everyone in my house gone.. I spent the rest of the day working on my French Project..
Let's see.. On Saturday I went to Metrotown and watched Driven, it was a pretty good movie.. not great.. but good. Although, I think I might of actually enjoyed watching the previews at the beginning more... RUSH HOUR TWO!!! :) It looks uproarious! (ya, that's a word). Jackie "Over here I'm Michael Jackson, and you're toto!" Chris Rock "No no no, it's Tito, Toto's what we had for dinner last night." :P
On Friday our family and my relatives on my mom's side, celebrated Mother's day early.. I had kind of forgetten how much I enjoyed just hanging out with my cousins.. One of my cousins who goes to went vancouver sec. is halarious.. he's the same age as me.. except much bigger.. and much weirder.. He was reading a book the size of a giant reference dictionary, because the large print version was the only one he could find.. And get this... He knows ALL the names of the people who work in the cafeteria at his school, and they goto him and actually tell him if they have a special, or some new food... how scary is that??
Hrmm.. ok, right now, as I'm typing this, I've just received a call from my ex... she wants to meet me on Thursday... Why?.. I don't know.. she just said it was important. Could she be more explicit?.. :P.. I can't think of any reason why she would want to see me.. and with regards to the phonecall I got from her last friday.. I'm somewhat scared of what the outcome may be this Thurday.. I don't know what I'm instore for.. I doubt it'll be something along the lines of an apology.. and the only other thing I can picture is a whole bunch of short guys chasing me with machetes.. and though the probability of that happening is very slim.. it's probably still more likely than you might think.. Maybe I'm just being paranoid. Maybe I'm not. I really want to be friends with her... but the way it's been lately, that just doesn't seem like an option.. I don't know what's going to happen this Thursday... so until that day comes, I can only wait.

May. 11 - 8:49pm: I'm sitting at my desk finishing up the rest of my math homework, eating a cup of blueberry yogurt. I only have two more questions to go.. when my cellphone starts ringing. Anticipating it's one of my friends, I pick up and give them a big "Wassup La!"... For a second the phones's silent, and I begin to wonder if I had lost the signal. Just when I'm about to pull my phone away from my ear to check... A voice says "hello". A familiar voice... yet, I'm uncertain of who it is, although I could of made a pretty accurate guess. It was my ex. I've never been one to recognize voices very well.. once I had mistakem my dad for one of my friends... It surprised me that I wasn't able to recognize the voice of someone I had talked with everyday for fourteen months.. But that was almost half a year ago. For about ten seconds it was casual talk... but after those initial ten seconds... it was a different story.
her: Why did you tell me you loved me when we had only went out for a week??
me: What??
her: Tell me.
me: Well... because I did love you..
her: bullsh'it
And so... it built up from there.. and you can probably guess how the rest of our conversation went... It was very... oneway... with me on the receiving end. Here I was, sitting at my desk in the middle of a question about coordinate geometry, holding a cup of yogurt.. being bi'tched at.. ahh.. the perfect way to spend a thursday night. The whole incident seemed very unreal, she kept going on and on about things I had done in the past.. which really weren't worth arguging about.. things I had done the first week we went out.. I kept on thinking I was experiencing some kind of twisted nightmare.. but I wasn't. If her intentions were to make me feel bad.. she did a pretty good job.
her: ..and you know what?
me: what?... (feeling I really don't want to know...)
(pause)
her: I regret ever going out with you (slam)
Dailtone... (or acutally no, that only happens in movies to make hang-ups more dramatic.. although that was pretty damn dispiriting)
Ouch. I was hurt.. and in shock... our relationship had never ended on a bad note.. and now this?.. I begun to wonder if I had really deserved this.. I mean.. am I that bad of a guy?? =(. It seems my life is always going downhill.. full of endless valleys, no peaks. What I really couldn't believe was... how someone who once knew me better than anyone ever had, someone who I once loved more than anyone else on earth, someone who once only made me smile.. did this to me. The whole time I wanted to hang up... but couldn't... it just seemed.. too mean. It was strange.. even after all that she had done and said.. I didn't want to hurt her... and right now, I have no feelings of anger or hate. I mean, how could I ever hate someone, who I onced loved so much... I did a lot of thinking last night.. and never really got any sleep..
When my math teacher was checking homework today, I didn't have mine finished.

May. 10 - I'm currently reading The Bean Trees, by Barbara Kingsolver for English Class, and up until yesturday I thought it was among one of the worst books I've ever read... The plot was really weak, and there didn't seem to be much of a point to the entire story.. I was probably led to this misconception because everytime I read it I would fall half asleep.. and everything would make no sense to me.. But last night I went back to the first chapter and started reading it again and found out that the book's actually pretty good. Infact maybe among one of the best I've ever read... maybe.
There have many times in my life when I've judged something, too quickly, before taking the time to fully understand, observe, or appreciate it... There have been many cases in which I've taken something for granted, and ended up wishing I hadn't... Many times when I've looked back and realized that my past opinions were wrong.
In many ways my whole life, has been like reading this book.

May. 9 - Wow!... I had the BEST sleep last night.. almost 8 hours! Woohoo!.. well, I missed first block.. but it was okay, because i was intending on doing that. :) My only "actual" class on Days one's and three's is math, so today was alright.. well, except for Visual Art and my freaky a$$ teacher..
(sorry about this next section... it's um.. a vague look into mind of a seventeen yearold)
I swear... there really is something wrong with her. People like her shouldn't be able to teach.. I don't hate many people, quite possibly no one at all... well, with an exception for her. I actually physically hate my visual art teacher. She just... makes me want to scream... and do violent things.. If you're late, even just for a minute, she'll lock you outside for twenty minutes, if you're late and come in with an excuse she'll say something mean to you.. She's racist, prejudice, and irrational.. and has the tendancy to think that she's the most important person in the world, and her class is absolutely crucial... For instance, if you do as much as whisper to the person sitting beside you, she'll glare you with her eyes wide open, like she's going to kill you. And hrmm.. just today my friend came in late because he was working in the school store, and when he walked in the classroom he gave her the reason why he was late... and when everyone was seated she went up to him and said "What's wrong with you??!!". And then started lecturing him about something that made no sense whatsoever.. Just because she went to art school for two years, and has authority over a bunch of highschool kids, she thinks she's the queen of the world... and uggghh.. just the way she acts, and thinks.. is so.. one track.. So blinded, and.. ignorant.. I think what makes me hate her the most is.. the way she speaks like Barney.. So scary, I've had nightmares.
(wow... what an insightful entry... :P )

May. 8 - Kevin's Guide to Macking - Girl Edition

1. Be a Girl
2. Be Hot
3. Have the ability to speak

You now have total control over 75% of the single male population..
Stupid as it may seem.. this is probably very true.. A large portion of the male population tend to do alot of their thinking with..."their other head". To lure a guy, this is probably all you need.. but to go the distance with him is another story... Looks only go so far.
A guy has two main focuses: sex and companionship. The ideal woman, therefore would satisfy a perfect combination of them both. In actuality, contrary to popular belief, it's not looks that drive a man wild... but attitude and personality. The way you put forth yourself.. A man wants a relationship that is always exciting and new, yet familiar and comforting.. Guys will always want something they can't have... more. That's mainly the reason why alot of guys end up cheating... they simply get bored.
When you're in a new relationship.. there are so many things yet to be explored, everything is new and exiciting, and there are these key moments which you know you'll remember for the rest of your life... Imagine if every second you spent with him were a key moment.. imagine how great it would be, if every kiss, were like your first... That's the ideal relationship. One that is able to adapt with changes, one that never loses it's spark.. A man wants a woman who wants him as much as he wants her, yet is able to hold herself with class. Someone who will play with his emotions...sexually, someone who will tease him, forcing him to chase her, yet also allowing him to capture her...a little bit at a time. Imply this to your relationship skills, and you and your guy will be happy for a long long time.
On the other hand, more than anything, he wants a soulmate, and a friend. Someone who is sweet, caring, and affectionate... Someone who he can talk to, and have fun with. He wants someone who will always be there for him, yet at the same time, someone who he can always be there for too. A man wants someone who will love him unconditionally... A woman who will trust, respect, and admire him dispite all his faults. His ideal woman will see past his faults, and focus on his good qualities.

uh-oh.. i didn't really focus on the actual approach.. well, it's just same as the approach for a guy... a couple of glances and a smile, and introduce yourself. :)

May. 7 - Kevin's Guide to Macking - Guy Edition

Wow...it's finally here! Now YOU TOO can utilize the sacred macking techniques of Kevin Chiu......oohhhh... Only for the low low price of three easy installments of $29.99-....j/k..:).
To be successful in conveying a good first impression on... your target, the most crucial thing you should keep in mind is to just simply be yourself. It may sound a bit cliche, but is entirely true. Being youself is the most important thing in the world, because if you're not yourself, then you're not anyone at all... it's like you're no one... :P. I'm not saying be yourself, as in "no one's watching, it's ok to scratch my a$$" yourself, but being yourself, as in just being real. If you try to carry a false impression, they'll know... and even if the person doesn't find out right away, sooner or later down the road, it'll come back and haunt you.
Don't rely on corny pick-up lines.. they almost always never work... well except on the rare occasion when the other person's drunk.. but you don't want to be the kind of person who would take advantage of someone else, would you? (that answer better be no :P ). Trust me, you'll be better off introducting youself, rather than saying something like "Nice Legs, what time do they open" *slap*... Hrmm.. not a very favorable situation to be in.. What I find most effective, is if you try make eye contact with the person before you make your approach. When they look over, flash them your 100 watt teeth smile, or an equally seductive no teeth smile.. which ever you prefer. If they acknowledge your smile, and maybe give one in return, then the runways spotted and you can zoom in for a landing! (really awful analogy..) But if they don't acknowledge, or even look back at you... for a while.. and you're pretty sure they saw you.. then you've scared them, and probably would be better off if u layed off the macking, and find a new target. :S.
This next section may be pretty inaccurate...since I'm a guy.., but all a woman really wants, is to be loved. To be looked after and romanced. Constantly swept off her feet, time and time again. A woman wants a man who is confident and strong, yet at the same time sensitive and aware of her needs. NOTE: sensitive, not wimp. Someone who she can talk to and confide in, someone to be her lover and bestfriend. A man doesn't necessaily have to be rich, dress in Armani, or drive a nice car, (although those things are always a plus), but should atleast be able to provide for her needs, have some fashion sense, and be able to bring her on dates at other places other than his house. In my opinion, looks don't matter as much as they would to a guy... As long as you're not the freakkin hunchback, and are self-confident, articulate, and believe in yourself, you can be the man of any woman's dreams.

Coming 2morrow, the Woman's Guide to Macking. =)

May. 6 - Sorry if some of you were expecting something else for today's entry... but I'll put that "Kevin's guide to macking" up another day, when I'm in a more... how u say, macking mood...
Four months; the longest time I've ever been single... well, excluding the thirteen or so years when I was younger. I'm living those four months right now... and I'm a wreck. I know it's not my ex that I miss... maybe in some ways it is... but what I really miss is just simply having someone there.. someone to talk to, someone to love, someone to share my life with. My family's not very close.. thus I've looked for love in other places... I know it may sound strange.. but sometimes when you can't receive the love you need from your family, you can always look to your friends. My ex was more than just my girlfriend, or a friend, she was my bestfriend.. Over time I've discovered that each relationship I've been in, was better than the last... and with every relationship that ends, I go through more pain than the last...
I guess, most of the pain that I'm experiencing right now, comes from losing a large part of myself... I can never be truly happy. I smile, I laugh, but deep down inside, I feel hollow. I don't know right now, if finding someone to replace the emptyness would be right.. if I did find someone new, I don't want to take their love for granted, I don't want them to be just a replacement.. I also know that I probably won't take their love for granted.. yet a part of me will tell me that I am.
Some people tell me to just remember how I was living my life before I met my ex.. but before my ex was my other ex, and before that ex was my other ex...and so on... it goes all the way back to grade six or seven. My life back then was watching cartoons and playing nintendo.. I can't go back to living the way I did before.. I'm forever changed. I wish I wasn't so dependant.. or sensitive... Sometimes I wish I was just a cocky, ignorant b@stard... I probably should be careful of what I wish for tho.. That would make life so much easier tho.. :P
They say that your greatest successess come only, when you learn to accept your greatest failures... My greatest sucess has been what lead to my greatest failure... I don't exactly know if I'm over my ex... or if.. I just can't handle being alone... I think I need therapy... :P.... :(

May. 5 - watched The Mummy Returns :P

May. 4 - Why do people tAwK liQuE dIsh, DoEsn'T iT gEt rEaLLyeE aNnoYiNg hAvInG tO pReSs ShIft So0o MaNyeE TiMeS? heheh.. i do it too sometimes =P...so i dun really mind or care... but why do some people have a passionnate hate for other people who tYpEe LiQ dIsH.. I mean, it's just typing... I've seen sites with no intentions other than to tell others they don't like people that TyPe LiKe ThiS. I dunno which is worse... maybe me since I'm talking about this "substantial life altering conflict".. =P.
My favorite time of the day is night... which may sound like a paradox in itself... but is entirely true. I love the night... it induces my most profound thoughts. I do my most crucial thinking, make my most important decisions, and come up with my "greatest ideas" when I'm laying in bed right before I goto sleep. Another reason is because the night's romantic as hell. =). Just walking through dimly lit streets with someone special... or watching the sunrise on the beach... unfortunately I don't get many opportunities to enjoy the night, due to my freaky controlling parents.. and well, obviously sleep.. So if you ever find me "mysteriously disappearing" in the middle of the night.. now you know why.

May. 3 - Ehhh.. I think I have a sleeping problem... =(.. so if any one sees me online at anytime past 12... tell me to goto sleep ok?... ya.. anyways.. today was a very typical day. Goto school, sleep, come back home... What my school needs is a naptime class... ah... I can picture it now.... or not..
I have a friend, who after seeing this girl once, is totally obsessed with her, and is now determined to find her... Romantic?... eh.. or deranged stalker?.. I like to think of it as a combination of them both.. =). What's the fine line between doing things when you're in love with someone, and stalking someone?.. Phone calls, little notes, and presents can be sweet in a relationship... but can be scary when not in one.. I think what differentiates the two are love goes two ways, and stalking only goes one way (unless in some twisted situation). It's especially harder to set the two apart when a relationship has ended.. intially it's considered "ok" if the dumped makes earnest attemps in hopes of recovering the love that had once existed... This effort shows some significance of how much a person treasures the relationship, but when the dumped exceeds the limitations of what's "accepted", in terms of the magnitude of their actions, and the time spent doing them... they start to make their way into stalker territory... love is replaced by sheer obsession. The intentions are for personal gain without regard to the needs of the other person. Scary Stuff... and I have no idea how I wondered into this topic.. I was intending on speaking about love at first sight.. anyways.. I'm sure my friend isn't a stalker... or is he? heheh.
Love At First Sight. A topic that has been facing some controversy.. does it exist? Or is it just infatuation in desguise.. an obsession with exterior qualities without regard to what's within.. You can only make assumptions about a person, that may, or may not be right.. But quite often a first impression can affect your perception of someone forever... Does love at first sight exist? In theory... it probably doesn't... but still... I believe it does. Even if it is just infatuation without actual love in the beginning.. something else, something more can evolve from that. Nothing in life is difinite; people change, relationships change and how well you do in the end... depends on how well you cope with these changes. :)

May. 2 - During the later years of my childhood... I had a certain fear of dying unknown... without any recognition, or evidence that I had actually lived... I wanted to accomplish something meaningful, so that in someway, people would know that I had existed. At the time, I figured the best way to achieve this was by having a piece of my writing published.. since a useful invention is difficult to constitute, and gaining fame through the movie industry is near impossible.. so I figured writing would be my best oppertunity. After all, writing is a very powerful tool that can be utilized to communicate thoughts, stimulate minds, and be practiced by anyone with a pen and a piece of paper... I started to write a book to express my views on life... a book on life written by a twelve year old. Sadly, I wasn't even able to finish writing the first chapter. =P. I came across the "book" last night while clearing up space on my hard drive.. and actually found some interesting thoughts in there... but also found that I disagreed with almost every word I had written.
I don't have the fear of dying unknown anymore. As long as I enjoy myself, and find "the one"... I'll be happy. Even though I don't have that fear anymore, I still want to do something meaningful for others.. I want to help people.. How? I don't know. I'd like to become a doctor.. but I wouldn't be able to handle having the life of another in my hands.. And the amount of education needed would put alot of "the best years of my life" to waste.. after all, a job is only a job.. a source of money... I don't intend on looking back when I'm seventy, to memories of nothing. For some time, I wanted to become a psychiatrist.. but I figured I would probably end up analyzing everyone in complete detail.. and wouldn't be a very fun person... Something else I also considered doing was becoming a teacher.. hrmm.. maybe.. but the idea of being in school forever.. isn't very appealing.. =(. Writing is one of my passions.. although I'm not very good at it... Up until recently, I haven't written anything of outstanding quality outside of school, well maybe except this journal, but besides this, nothing else, except a couple of poems.
Hrmm... sorry about today's entry being really... dull, but I'm not really in a mood to write right now... but on a sidenote... I had the BEST nap ever today in my physics class... when I woke up I felt like I could run to mexico and back! =)... i don't think my teacher appreciated my naping in class very much though.. =S.

May. 1 - May. A new month. A month filled with oppertunity and promise of warmth, laughter, and good times.. a month filled with.. ya.. im just gonna stop there. Well today, was another *great* day.. I had a test in information technology.. about something I knew absolutely nothing about... slept through most of Chemistry and Math.. Visual Art wasn't half bad today tho, well probably only because our teacher wasn't there for the most part of the class, and because class was shortened..
We threw our Social Studies project in the dumpster today at lunch... 30 pounds of sand, a small fortune spent on plaster of paris, 24 square feet of plywood, two hundred fifty dollars, one hundred fifty hours working non-stop to create the best overall project in the school... in the trash. Such a waste of money... =(. All that's left of it is one little green army man. A very expensive little green army man.. Remind me never to spend money on school again.. well high school atleast..
This is completely irrelevant to what I just wrote... but I was talking to someone yesturday about whether or not it was better to be friends first in a relationship. I believe it's always better, because you know the person and already share some type of bond, you're familiar with the person, and know you want to be with them. Coming into a relationship fresh, without being friends with them first, to my experience hasn't worked out very well.. the certain triats that you look for in a person... may not be there. Being friends with a person first gives you time to justify wheter or not the person is right for you. I apologize in advance for this lame analogy... but relationships are like swimming. When you're initially learning, you stay in the shallow end, and familiarize yourself with the feeling of weighlessness, starting off slow, but with good technique.. and when you feel you're ready, you can gradually move into the deeper end, and improve your swimming abilities, learning more and more as you go. If you just jump into the deep end without any knowledge of swimming.. you'll drown. You can attempt to learn, but will at best only be able to keep afloat for a short while, utilizing poor swiming methods... Friends first is always better, you're able to be more comfortable around the person, and hopefully will have abolished all the ackwardness that is usually present in alot of teenage relationships. I can't count how many couples I've seen that don't communicate at all... I could be wrong, but it seems like the only reason they're together.. is a need to fit in.. and a fear of being alone.. Then one day one of them realizes the lack of actual substance in their relationship... and leaves.. but probably will come back because of the fear of having made a mistake. It's quite normal though, and is something everyone goes through sometime in their life.. A couple months ago, there was nothing in the world I feared more than being alone.. well not alone, but losing the person I loved most.. I guess I'm not actually scared of being alone... it's just, the distinct feeling of emptyness inside.. For weeks I was depressed and wanted to die... but as time passed, I learned to get over her, and moved on. I can look back now at my past relationships and smile now... even the bad ones. I learned from them, and grew as a person.
A partner isn't only your lover, but also your best friend. Someone that you share laughter and pain with... not just bodily fluids. ;).

April. 30 - There are probably alot of things I take for granted in my life... And alot of things I don't know. At seventeen you're at a stage in your life where you have completely abandoned all childhood ways, and have begun to take on bigger things... Some "achieve" this by simply imitating adult lifestyle, without really having a complete understanding of the complexities or reasons behind certain actions. Well, In theory they'll learn from this and what mistakes they might make... But they'd probably be better off if they had advoided making these mistakes in the first place.. What's really pathetic are the little grade three kids trying to achieve this; putting their lives to waste unknowningly.. Hrmm... take smoking for example.. if a teenager tells you they do it because of stress, or basically any other reason... they're most likely lying.. There's a certain sensation that's achieved by putting a cigarette in your mouth and lighting it.. a feeling of utter "coolness", "toughness", an image of smoking that cigarette companies have spent millions trying to convey.. but before long this sensation starts to die out, and soon it's only the nicotine addiction that keeps them going.. Ya.. dammit, why didn't I write this sh1t when I was making my anti-smoking website... =P. Sometimes I wonder what's going through the mind of others my age. What they're really thinking.. I meet alot of superficial people.. but maybe I just have that conception because of unfamiliarity.. I probably come across as being superficial to most people too... in my assortment of black clothing, and with my gold chain and buddha hung around my neck.. :) I like black clothing... I'm a dark person...j/k.. I like simple colors.. and only wear light color clothes with light colored pants...which are only khakis..and i only have one or two pairs in contrast to my many pairs of jeans.. ya...and also cuz i wanna look so "hardcore". :P *ahh.. all so clear now...*
I can imagine in my years to come, I'll start to grow a better understanding of life, and the way I'm going to be living it. It's kinda hard to imagine myself later on in my life.. what my values will be... where I'll be.. I'll be looking back and seeing how ignorant I really was at this age.. how "blind" I was.. And hopefully my level of writing will have developed enough for me to write actual interesting entries that can better communicate my thoughts.. :) but until that time comes.. go read All2Swift's page..

April. 29 - This is my description of "the one": She's someone who knows herself, and what she wants. Amazingly gorgeous... yet at the same time amazingly cute. Long hair, captivating eyes, and a smile that would be imprinted in my mind forever. Also, it'd be nice if she was atleast close to my height.. but I don't think I've seen any girl close to my height... well except on tv.. Actually I like short girls, so scratch that... but again.. "short" to me might include almost everyone.. =P. hrmm... it seems like I'm focusing a great deal on exterior qualities.. but in actuality, physical beauty doesn't really matter to me. Although I have some belief in the theory that how you look on the outside, to some extent, reflects what kind of person you are on the inside. You can usually make pretty accurate guesses about a person, just based on their exterior qualities... but there's only so far you can see.. I probably have a different perception of beauty than most people though... good to look at, doesn't exactly equal beauty.. a person could look like anything at all... but still be seen as beautiful in my eyes. An image of beauty is conveyed though a person's overall beauty.. a combination of external and internal. But one quality that is a must, is a great smile. :)
To me, the most important aspect of a relationship is communication, well, not exactly communication, as in just talking... maybe more accuratly described as the ability to speak freely with the person about anything and everything. Complete familiarity. Which kind of combines all the other important aspects of a relationship, such as trust, understading, and perhaps loyalty. Being able to take the other person's feelings and thoughts into consideration is also important, because most of the time people tend to think too much about their own feelings, and neglect their partner's feelings. This is extremely hard to do, since it can be done almost unknowingly and unintendedly at times. In result many relationships have ended because of this. Similar intrests isn't always necessary, but definitely a plus. The amount of available time a person has can also be a factor in the degree of comitment one has for another. This is sometimes overlooked.. But then again, what the hell do I know, I'm only a seventeen yearold guy filled with too many hormones, and am probably unsure about alot of things... And wait- oh ya.. Love. Love is by far the most most most imporant thing in a relationship... so important that it pretty much doesn't even have to be listed.. =P
Hrmmm...Overall I'm looking for someone who can make me make me feel good about myself. Someone who knows what their looking for in a relationship. Well... not ultimately, but the qualities that they're looking for. Must have the three I's: Intelligent, Intellectual, and Irresistable. =). And of course the perfect smile... I could ditch all of my beliefs for a breathtaking smile =P. Hrmm... Maybe I'm being too idealistic about all this tho... maybe... So, does any of this sound like you? (hrmm... makes my entry for today sound like a big personals ad for myself =P)

April. 28 - arghh..apparently on the weekends I don't notice time at all...I think I ended up going to sleep at 4am yesturday, and woke up at around one today...which would be the same day. This morning I realized that... I have no pants! They're all in the laundry! So I had to resort to wearing shorts with no pockets (cuz um... i don't have any shorts with pockets)... no place to place to put my keys... :(

April. 27 - There's a feeling of emptyness within me... maybe i should go eat something..

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