This chat session is between me and a girl that I liked extremely too much.
She would never go out with me and I could never figure out why. The funny
thing is that months later she came up with this liking for me and she wanted
to go out with me! That led to Tasha The Bitch.
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The End of Tasha and I
maddawg42020: hellllllo
angel2000_62854: hello
maddawg42020: how are you tonight?
angel2000_62854: okay
angel2000_62854: u?
maddawg42020: why okay?
maddawg42020: i'm doing good
angel2000_62854: well nikki and steve broke up today
maddawg42020: oh my
maddawg42020: that's terrible
angel2000_62854: ya he didn't even have the guts to tell her himself
maddawg42020: what do ya mean?
angel2000_62854: he dropped his cousin off and he told her
maddawg42020: !? that's stupid
angel2000_62854: and then he came back by and then she made him talk to her
angel2000_62854: i know
maddawg42020: why did he break up with her
angel2000_62854: he said that he didn't want to be who she wanted him to be
maddawg42020: and who is that?
angel2000_62854: the nice church going, loveable, never does drugs never drinks kinda guy
maddawg42020: so he doesn't want to go to church, be loved, not drink and do drugs?
angel2000_62854: he wants to be loved
angel2000_62854: but he doesn't want to go to church
angel2000_62854: i don't know about the drugs
angel2000_62854: or drinking
maddawg42020: why doesn't he want to go to church?
angel2000_62854: he says that he feels like that everyone will hate him now because he has done drugs while professing to be a chrstian
angel2000_62854: christian
maddawg42020: that's a reasonable excuse i guess .. but still out of compelte context
angel2000_62854: but that isn't true
angel2000_62854: i know
angel2000_62854: other than that i am good
maddawg42020: i know it's not true .. that's what i meant by out fo context
angel2000_62854: iokay
angel2000_62854: anyways
maddawg42020: whew .. they went out for over a year and he just NOW thinks this
angel2000_62854: ya
angel2000_62854: but anyways
maddawg42020: that's ridiculous
maddawg42020: anyways ..
angel2000_62854: finally
angel2000_62854: lol
maddawg42020: you wantin' to change the subject?? haha
angel2000_62854: ya just a little
angel2000_62854: lol
maddawg42020: so am i not going to see you at ALL tomorra?
angel2000_62854: well probally at church for a sec
angel2000_62854: lol
maddawg42020: why a sec??
maddawg42020: heehee
angel2000_62854: haha'
maddawg42020: why why why?? :)
angel2000_62854: because i ahve nursery
angel2000_62854: have
maddawg42020: well i know that
angel2000_62854: that is why
maddawg42020: ohhhh welllll i guess ;)
angel2000_62854: ya
maddawg42020: a'eight
angel2000_62854: i am such a klutz
maddawg42020: what did ya do today?
maddawg42020: why?
angel2000_62854: i fell
maddawg42020: off what?
angel2000_62854: the roof
maddawg42020: hahahahauhhhh that's .. TERRIBLE!
maddawg42020: :)
angel2000_62854: i know
maddawg42020: how did you do that??
angel2000_62854: i ways up there puttin up the lights and i bent over a little to far
maddawg42020: how far was it?
angel2000_62854: i didn't fall offf
angel2000_62854: almost
maddawg42020: almost
maddawg42020: so what did ya do, grab the edge and was danglin' around like in a movie??
angel2000_62854: i just scratched my arm and leg
maddawg42020: ahh, i'm sorry
angel2000_62854: haha
angel2000_62854: thanks
maddawg42020: wish i had soem rubbin' alyhol for ya
angel2000_62854: ya right
angel2000_62854: that would hurt
maddawg42020: it would make it betta!
angel2000_62854: no it wouldn
angel2000_62854: t
maddawg42020: yess, rubbin' alcohol kills bacteria and the chances of infection
angel2000_62854: okay doctor
angel2000_62854: thanks
angel2000_62854: lol
maddawg42020: no problemo
maddawg42020: that'll be $876.54
angel2000_62854: haha
maddawg42020: ya gonna pay up??
maddawg42020: haha
angel2000_62854: no
maddawg42020: well ya have to give somethin
angel2000_62854: what?
maddawg42020: i don't know
maddawg42020: what would be equivalent
angel2000_62854: k
maddawg42020: .. a'eight
angel2000_62854: ya
maddawg42020: yaaaa
maddawg42020: have you been talkin to greg?
angel2000_62854: no
maddawg42020: good
angel2000_62854: has he been on?
maddawg42020: :)
angel2000_62854: why?
maddawg42020: yeah, he's on right now
angel2000_62854: under invisible mode?
maddawg42020: nah
maddawg42020: he's bold as bold can get
angel2000_62854: no he isn't
angel2000_62854: not on mine
maddawg42020: he is on mine
angel2000_62854: he isn't on mine
maddawg42020: he is on mine
maddawg42020: haha
angel2000_62854: haha
maddawg42020: we crack eachother uppp
angel2000_62854: ya i bet
maddawg42020: did you get my poem ?
angel2000_62854: yes
angel2000_62854: like always
angel2000_62854: lol
maddawg42020: soul rash??
maddawg42020: did ya like it??
angel2000_62854: yep
angel2000_62854: that was the one
maddawg42020: so ya liked it?
angel2000_62854: it was okay
maddawg42020: okay??
angel2000_62854: ya it was okay
maddawg42020: why didn't ya like it?
angel2000_62854: i don't know
angel2000_62854: just didn't
angel2000_62854: sorry'
maddawg42020: that's okay
maddawg42020: what kind of poetry do ya like?
angel2000_62854: i don't like any
angel2000_62854: lol
maddawg42020: why not??
maddawg42020: hahaha
maddawg42020: how can ya not like any poetry?
angel2000_62854: i think that i sucks
maddawg42020: poetry??
angel2000_62854: ya
maddawg42020: but you said my "angelic presence" was good
angel2000_62854: it was
angel2000_62854: i thought it was better
maddawg42020: ohh so why did you like that one?
angel2000_62854: i didn't read it
angel2000_62854: sorry
angel2000_62854: what are you nad now?
angel2000_62854: mad
maddawg42020: uh
maddawg42020: no
angel2000_62854: okay
angel2000_62854: figured you would be
maddawg42020: but since nobody wants to read my poetry, i guess i just won't send it anymore .. cuz greg won't shut up either
angel2000_62854: well sorry we are kinda busy sometimes
angel2000_62854: i don't like poetry
maddawg42020: fine
angel2000_62854: what does that mean?
maddawg42020: what?
angel2000_62854: fine??
angel2000_62854: what is wrong with you?
maddawg42020: nuttin
angel2000_62854: sure
maddawg42020: really
maddawg42020: nothing
maddawg42020: i'm trying to delete that list
angel2000_62854: what list?
maddawg42020: [email protected]
maddawg42020: it's the one that i was sending my poems to
angel2000_62854: come on
angel2000_62854: just stop
angel2000_62854: it
maddawg42020: what?
angel2000_62854: nothin
maddawg42020: nobody wants them so why send them??
maddawg42020: i'm just thinking clearly
angel2000_62854: this is childish
maddawg42020: how do you figure?
maddawg42020: why bother keeping it? honestly?
angel2000_62854: i mean just because i hate poetry doesn't mean that everyone else does
maddawg42020: well the only actual one in my address book that ever tells me they are good are amanda reid, amanda beasly and candice griffin
maddawg42020: everyone else just tells me to shut up or something
angel2000_62854: okay..that is why you should date one of them
maddawg42020: excuse me?
angel2000_62854: you should
angel2000_62854: honestly
maddawg42020: why?
maddawg42020: so you can get me off your back?
angel2000_62854: please
maddawg42020: what?
angel2000_62854: i am not mad
maddawg42020: okay
maddawg42020: why would you be?
maddawg42020: shouldn't i be?
angel2000_62854: i am tellin you we are completly differ
maddawg42020: i am not either
maddawg42020: good that's nice
maddawg42020: yay
maddawg42020: ?
angel2000_62854: i don't like to date people who i have nothin in common with
maddawg42020: oh this is great
angel2000_62854: what
maddawg42020: i am in such joy now
maddawg42020: i love life
maddawg42020: i sure do hope it keeps going
maddawg42020: please
maddawg42020: why are you telling me this?
angel2000_62854: cause its the truth
maddawg42020: so who do you want to date?
maddawg42020: can't believe you think we have nothing in common
angel2000_62854: we don
angel2000_62854: t
maddawg42020: this is ridiculous
maddawg42020: why don't you tell me the real reason you don't like me?
angel2000_62854: your not my type
maddawg42020: and who is?
angel2000_62854: i don't know
maddawg42020: heeeyyyy i thought you said you don't like any certain type?
maddawg42020: hmmm
maddawg42020: yeah believe you did
maddawg42020: so there ARE guys you want to date?
angel2000_62854: i dont
maddawg42020: believe you told me that wasn't true either
maddawg42020: i am a miserable idiot
angel2000_62854: i didn't say that i wanted to date anyone
maddawg42020: i am finding out now that the whole time it wasn't about anything else .. it is just ME
maddawg42020: it's always ME .. the miserable idiot .. god .. it is my persona
angel2000_62854: no just quit
maddawg42020: please tell me WHY
maddawg42020: why did he try waving at me and getting my attention at the fair?
maddawg42020: the day you drove by me filling the sdoa machine
maddawg42020: why i never talked to you in SAL that time i was with aaron
angel2000_62854: stop
maddawg42020: why why why were these things so so important if all you wanted to be was just my friend??
angel2000_62854: i was curious
maddawg42020: of what?
angel2000_62854: so sue me
maddawg42020: ?
maddawg42020: are you going to talk to me?
angel2000_62854: ya
angel2000_62854: i am
maddawg42020: do you even want to be my friend?
angel2000_62854: yes
maddawg42020: and it is NEVER going to be anything else?
angel2000_62854: no NEVER
angel2000_62854: i'm sorry
maddawg42020: when was this decision made?
angel2000_62854: umm...last night
maddawg42020: why last night?
angel2000_62854: i don't know
angel2000_62854: i didnt plan it
maddawg42020: what do you mean?
angel2000_62854: sorry
maddawg42020: you just all uv a sudden decided never
angel2000_62854: ya
angel2000_62854: juat like tht
angel2000_62854: i can you know
maddawg42020: ya know what that's fine
angel2000_62854: that it is oky for me to change my mind
maddawg42020: i have been lied to
angel2000_62854: not even
maddawg42020: yes even
maddawg42020: i have never felt this worthless in a long time
angel2000_62854: how
maddawg42020: thank you
maddawg42020: my friend
angel2000_62854: please
maddawg42020: i see you do not care
angel2000_62854: i'm not goin to feel guilty or not liking you
angel2000_62854: for
maddawg42020: i do not care
angel2000_62854: this is why i see
maddawg42020: you were supposed to be at least my friend
angel2000_62854: i am
maddawg42020: why are you acting so cruel to me now?
angel2000_62854: i'm not
angel2000_62854: i am tellin you the truth
maddawg42020: do you not see that i am hurting?
maddawg42020: does that not matter?
angel2000_62854: i see that but what do you want me to do
maddawg42020: i guess nothing
angel2000_62854: are you talkin about committing suicide?
maddawg42020: there are way too many people and things that you care more about than me .. normally i wouldn't feel so left out, but i thought that we had something in our friendship .. as much as we talked .. it all seems for nothing ..
angel2000_62854: r u talkin about suicide?
maddawg42020: why do you ask?
angel2000_62854: cause justin says that you re
maddawg42020: i do not care
maddawg42020: those phone conversations were for nothing weren't they?
angel2000_62854: no
maddawg42020: what were they for?
angel2000_62854: i asked you a question?
angel2000_62854: please answer it?
maddawg42020: i have asked you so mahy
angel2000_62854: please??
maddawg42020: yet so many have not been answered
maddawg42020: why would it MATTER??!
angel2000_62854: jeremy this is your life
angel2000_62854: don't be stupid
angel2000_62854: please
maddawg42020: what were those conversations for?!??
angel2000_62854: friendship
maddawg42020: bull
angel2000_62854: that is all
maddawg42020: bull bull bull
angel2000_62854: acceppt it
angel2000_62854: and move on
angel2000_62854: pease
angel2000_62854: please
maddawg42020: i see nothing but rejection .. and i did not even ASK for it
maddawg42020: i knew something was wrong tonight
maddawg42020: my nose bled for ten minutes
maddawg42020: tonight
maddawg42020: i lost so much blood
maddawg42020: yet so much is left
angel2000_62854: sorry
angel2000_62854: r u talkin about suicide?
maddawg42020: why am i so resistable?
angel2000_62854: answer the question?
maddawg42020: answer mine
maddawg42020: you do not care enough
angel2000_62854: please
maddawg42020: you don;t
maddawg42020: you DON;T
angel2000_62854: answer the question?
maddawg42020: no
maddawg42020: there is no answer
maddawg42020: there is no longer anything
angel2000_62854: answer the question?
maddawg42020: i am through
angel2000_62854: you are not even my friend?
maddawg42020: i am tired of being the loser
maddawg42020: i have tried to be your friend
maddawg42020: that is all i have been
maddawg42020: and this is where i end
angel2000_62854: you are being immature
angel2000_62854: and your older
maddawg42020: good
maddawg42020: i am being serious
maddawg42020: pain is not immature
angel2000_62854: so am i
maddawg42020: you are what? immature?
angel2000_62854: being serious
angel2000_62854: please don't lie about me
maddawg42020: excuse me?
angel2000_62854: you said i don't even want to be your friend
angel2000_62854: you said that
maddawg42020: i know that you don't
maddawg42020: you used to
angel2000_62854: no i said that i wanted to be your friend
maddawg42020: but ever since we held hands, everything has been changed .. completely
maddawg42020: i do not know why
angel2000_62854: forfet it
maddawg42020: and i do not care to know
maddawg42020: it is over
maddawg42020: i am over
maddawg42020: it is all over
angel2000_62854: what are you goin to do?
angel2000_62854: jeremy answer me please?
maddawg42020: why do you care?
angel2000_62854: because i consider you a friend
maddawg42020: why?
angel2000_62854: cause i di
angel2000_62854: do
maddawg42020: you cannot come up with a reason
maddawg42020: you do not know why
maddawg42020: therefore you don't
maddawg42020: i have never been proved that you do
maddawg42020: all you say is that you are
angel2000_62854: okay
angel2000_62854: whatever
maddawg42020: xactly
angel2000_62854: i was scared that you were goin to commit suicide
maddawg42020: why?
angel2000_62854: but you have threatened before
maddawg42020: when?
angel2000_62854: why shoulld it be any differ
angel2000_62854: figure it out
maddawg42020: i am not important to you ..
maddawg42020: i am just your "friend"
angel2000_62854: exactly
maddawg42020: yep
maddawg42020: i knew i wasn't
maddawg42020: you have lied
maddawg42020: you said once that i was important
angel2000_62854: you need some help..honsetly
maddawg42020: yeah, i do
angel2000_62854: ya
angel2000_62854: please seek help
angel2000_62854: no joke
angel2000_62854: i am serious
maddawg42020: i do not know why you never considered me important
maddawg42020: i have always considered you important
angel2000_62854: my friends are important
angel2000_62854: therefore you are too
angel2000_62854: what are yo doin?
angel2000_62854: jeremy who do think cares about you? justin?
maddawg42020: very few
maddawg42020: my parents
maddawg42020: chris
maddawg42020: my grandma who is dieing herself
angel2000_62854: what about justin
angel2000_62854: my brother
maddawg42020: what about him?
angel2000_62854: do you think that he is someon who cares about you?
maddawg42020: not really
angel2000_62854: well then you need to stop
maddawg42020: oh trust me
maddawg42020: it will
angel2000_62854: i am sorry that i don't like you like you would like me too
angel2000_62854: but honestly what can i do about that?
maddawg42020: i've been under rejection before, but never has it been so disguised
maddawg42020: you strung this whole thing along
angel2000_62854: i can't control who i like and who i dont
maddawg42020: and just right at the end, i was beginning to not care if you liked me or not anyway .. but now it has all been screwed up
angel2000_62854: you know what i can't take this it is 2 agaisnt 1
maddawg42020: whos #2?
angel2000_62854: and i qit
maddawg42020: who's #1 for that matter?
angel2000_62854: my brother
maddawg42020: i am not against you
angel2000_62854: you
angel2000_62854: and then there is chris
angel2000_62854: and i am out
angel2000_62854: bye
maddawg42020: you just think that because i have feelings that means i have to just accept it
maddawg42020: those things take time
angel2000_62854: accept this you are the meanest person i ahve ever been friends with
maddawg42020: and you are the most uncaring
maddawg42020: thank you
angel2000_62854: goodbye have a nice life
angel2000_62854: i see what melanie means
maddawg42020: don't worry, i won't ..
angel2000_62854: she was right
maddawg42020: she was
maddawg42020: tasha
angel2000_62854: what?
maddawg42020: i am sorry
angel2000_62854: sure
angel2000_62854: now you are
maddawg42020: no
maddawg42020: i am
maddawg42020: you do not deserve this
angel2000_62854: bye
maddawg42020: no please
angel2000_62854: what do you want
maddawg42020: i am sorry
maddawg42020: i shouldn't have done this to you ..
angel2000_62854: but you did
maddawg42020: yeah
maddawg42020: and i can't change that
angel2000_62854: i need to know one thing?
maddawg42020: yeah
angel2000_62854: r u going to church tomorrow?
maddawg42020: why?
angel2000_62854: just answer
angel2000_62854: please
maddawg42020: i don't know
angel2000_62854: well thanks
angel2000_62854: and bye
maddawg42020: do you not realize how things will be?
angel2000_62854: yes i do
angel2000_62854: exactly the way you made them
maddawg42020: i would figure you wouldn't even want to look at me
angel2000_62854: i won't remember
maddawg42020: how can you not?
maddawg42020: i have hurt you
angel2000_62854: ya
maddawg42020: i have done the thing i have been so against my whole life
angel2000_62854: ya
angel2000_62854: and you did good
maddawg42020: but i am overwhelmed with emotion
maddawg42020: and i was hurt too
angel2000_62854: ya
angel2000_62854: i know
maddawg42020: and i am deeply sorry
angel2000_62854: ya
angel2000_62854: whtever
maddawg42020: do you not believe me?
angel2000_62854: i don't know what to believe
maddawg42020: me neither
angel2000_62854: i was tryin to forget you talkin to greg and fenton
maddawg42020: what?
angel2000_62854: but that didn't work
angel2000_62854: what what?
maddawg42020: i don't understand what you mean?
angel2000_62854: take a guss
maddawg42020: okay, i do not have a clue what you are talking about ..
maddawg42020: what about greg and fenton
angel2000_62854: i was talkin to them
maddawg42020: about .. what?
angel2000_62854: and they were keepin me calmed down
angel2000_62854: you
maddawg42020: why were you wriled up?
angel2000_62854: yes
angel2000_62854: but thanks to them no
maddawg42020: why were you?
angel2000_62854: you
angel2000_62854: you
angel2000_62854: you
angel2000_62854: you
maddawg42020: what did i do?
maddawg42020: just because i was hurt?
maddawg42020: oh .. you thought i was going to kill myself?
angel2000_62854: ya
angel2000_62854: i thought that
maddawg42020: why did you think that?
angel2000_62854: justin said tahat you wee
angel2000_62854: were
maddawg42020: well ..
angel2000_62854: you shouldnt do that for sympathy
maddawg42020: i wasn't
angel2000_62854: ya
maddawg42020: i don't want sympathy
angel2000_62854: k
maddawg42020: all i wanted was someone to care about me
angel2000_62854: sorry
maddawg42020: and i didn't mean it to come out as if it was suicide
maddawg42020: sorry what?
angel2000_62854: ya it apparently did
angel2000_62854: sorry about you wanting ot be cared about
maddawg42020: what is that supposed to mean?
angel2000_62854: nothin
maddawg42020: no, what?
angel2000_62854: nothin
maddawg42020: *sigh*
angel2000_62854: k
maddawg42020: what would going to church matter?
angel2000_62854: i just wanted to know
maddawg42020: why do you want me there?
angel2000_62854: so justin would
angel2000_62854: that is all
maddawg42020: oh, well ohhhhkay then
angel2000_62854: are you?
maddawg42020: i am not wanted
angel2000_62854: didn't say that
maddawg42020: as always, i know you didn't
angel2000_62854: r u ?
maddawg42020: but when the feelings not there, it JUST don't happen
angel2000_62854: r u going?
maddawg42020: i'll try to get justin to go ..
angel2000_62854: whatever
angel2000_62854: k
angel2000_62854: i thought he was goin?
maddawg42020: so you only want me to go so justin will go?
angel2000_62854: just do what you want
maddawg42020: my gawd .. some friend
angel2000_62854: don't start
maddawg42020: honestly
angel2000_62854: ya
maddawg42020: ya what?!
angel2000_62854: ya do whatever
maddawg42020: he's going
angel2000_62854: please quit lieing
maddawg42020: he said he was
maddawg42020: i never lied before .. you did that
angel2000_62854: you saud i wanted you to go just so that justin would go
angel2000_62854: that is no true
maddawg42020: you don't want me there!!
maddawg42020: you admitted it
angel2000_62854: never
maddawg42020: yup
angel2000_62854: you are a lier
maddawg42020: i asked why you wanted me to go
maddawg42020: and you said ..
maddawg42020: so justin will go
angel2000_62854: never
angel2000_62854: you lier
angel2000_62854: ugh..
maddawg42020: you DID
maddawg42020: My gawd do i have to copy and paste it
angel2000_62854: whatever
maddawg42020: here it is:
maddawg42020:
maddawg42020: what would going to church matter?
angel2000_62854: i just wanted to know
maddawg42020: why do you want me there?
angel2000_62854: so justin would
maddawg42020: exactly how it went
angel2000_62854: bye
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maddawg42020: i can't believe you hate me
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maddawg42020: after all we've been through, it came to this .. bye .. i still love ya
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