I can't keep up this keepin' on
For as long as I remember
I've turned into someone bigger
Someone who I wanna be
Someone who is definitely not me
And now in the present, you see
I'm changing who it is inside
Trying to be a better person
And believe myself instead of lies
But to do what I say is true
Is to be a fool in this game of life
Because I can't get ahead
Wondering what else I could hide
Or confide in myself
'Cuz there is no one else out there
I can't bare to look in the mirror of tragedy
Into our souls that we stare
I've done it about 4 too many times
And I can't shake the picture
Of the lives and trials that chimed
When it was their time to leave
It wasn't I who grieved
I was supposed to be the strong one
In the eyes and the beliefs
Of all the people who were too clever
So when I was a smartass to them
They just said "Why in the...Whatever"!!