Myself

I am she who travels from twilight to twilight, 
Ever outcast because of my blemishes, 
Blemishes of skin, 
Skin that is my betrayal, 
Betrayal at every turning, 
Turning always into what others would have me become; 
Become bitter and anxious; useless, 
Useless as friend and in love, 
Love my deepest fear, 
Fear the all-consuming fire, 
Fire that once fed my soul; 
Soul tired with desire, 
Desire to be needed, respected, treated with kindness; 
Kindness always beyond my reach, 
Reaching like a child, 
Child bereft of parent, all alone. 
Alone, I ponder the meaning of "I." 
I am she who travels from twilight to twilight.