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So now I understand why you never felt like you wanted to marry in this life. That relates to what happened in your past life with Patrick. Once he married and the 2 of you drifted apart, I really got the strong sense that you never married or loved another. And it would also explain why you love the movies where the couples can never totally be together. I actually got quite emotional when I was typing this up and to me, that is definite confirmation that what I am picking up and sensing is true.

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It's very depressing. But I'm THRILLED you did this reading. I never would have thought of this scenario that came through with this reading, but I do think it's probably all true. That latest vision I had must have really been something then. (Finding Patrick with another woman. She had dark brown hair and dark brown eyes). I knew it HAD to be something b/c I never have visions and that particular one came out of left field. The woman must have been his wife. And maybe that other dream I had (of him and myself in the same room) was an aftermath of that? I definitely felt some sort of tension between us in that dream. I was standing by the bed and he was way across the room, by the door.

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And also your mother told you about that "rendezvous" at the lake with the swans too right?

I'm beginning to wonder, now that I know things I didn't know when I had this dream, that maybe that was my subconscious remembering that PL. You know, in that our being together wasn't allowed by outside forces.

And I'm just brainstorming here, and I know this sounds CRAZY.. . but what if that was a memory of our reunion, on The Other Side, after my last life in Victorian/Edwardian Days? That would explain our giddiness in our reunion and one of us BURSTING through the door. I really, really REALLY cannot even begin to describe how elated I felt... we both felt... in that dream. Heavenly isn't even the correct word. It went so BEYOND any words we have to describe that kind of happiness. It's like there isn't a word in any language that describes the feelings we had in that dream. I just can't help but think that that dream was a combination of an actual memory and my subconscious remembering our circumstances in that PL - in that we wanted to be together, but couldn't. I don't think dreams are always so straightforward. You know, in that it's always just a memory, spirits visiting you in a form you're comfortable with, or your subconscious coming up to the surface in any way it can.

That dream never made sense, but it definitely made an impression on me. I depressed me so much that I didn�t even bother writing it down. I knew there�d be no point since I wasn�t likely to ever forget it.
And if it was a reunion on The Other Side, that would explain why I was dressed in Victorian clothes. I remember that the skirt was just a solid red. Nothing fancy, but usual for that time period. I always brushed that dream off b/c �Neil� (or someone looking very much like him) was in it. Also, it was a cabin, and in that tv series �Neil� lived in a cabin.

So it may be something like a memory of a reunion with Patrick (in disguise in my dream), or nothing as profound as that at all.

Uncomfortable Dream

Okay� now the dream. It was STRANGE STRANGE, STRANGE. I almost wrote you about it but felt silly about it. But when I read your email today about your class last night (trance), I thought I�d bring it up.

The night after your first reading, I slept restlessly b/c I kept waking up. EVERY SINGLE TIME I woke up I may have been �talking� in my sleep. I�m actually embarrassed to think that my brother could have heard me b/c when he stays at our house he sometimes has to get up during the night to take his dog out.

Anyway, EVERY SINGLE TIME I woke up it was like I was trying to say a name in my sleep, but couldn�t get past the first syllable. It was always a �W� sound or a �B� sound. I don�t know if I LITERALLY made those utterances, but it was happening every single time I woke up. The only way I can describe it is how a deaf person sounds when they�re trying to speak.

This is the thing though� in your reading you said you thought Patrick�s other name was �William,� which echoed what I told my aunt in her reading years ago. So that�s why the name �William� could have been on my tongue. Also, the �B� could have been �Brian� because my sister told me she thought his name was �Brian Patrick.�

But each time I woke up from this dream it felt like I wasn�t IN CONTROL, you know? I am not into trances and spirits taking over a person�s body AT ALL. I�m not even sure I ever really believed that was possible. But this �W� and �B� thing was bothering me ALL NIGHT. The last thing I remembered was a dream where I was in the bathroom next to my room. The lights were still off (except for the nightlight), and it was still nighttime. But in this dream I was levitating in front of the mirror, and there was the spirit of some woman in there with me. She was wearing a blue Victorian dress. In the dream someone walked inside the bathroom (my brother I think), and I remember thinking I wish he would say something so that this lady and her control over me in my dream would vanish. It was such an UNCOMFORTABLE, UNUSUAL dream. I�ve never had a dream like that before, and the constant �B� and �W� sounds I was making in my sleep are pretty disturbing as well.

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