Angel could feel himself loosing the battle between him and his demon.He had
to make them pay...the lawers at Wolfram & Hart,the people who helped
Holtz because they held a gruge against a vampire,and Wesley.His so called
friend who had been stupid enough to believe a fake scroll!
Part of him wanted to make them pay, and part of him just wanted to make
himself pay. To kill himself and make the arching pain he felt stop...
~If I fall along the way
Pick me up and dust me off
And if I get too tired to make it
Be my breath so I can walk~
He needed the only comfort he knew. He needed her. He needed Buffy. Angel slamed his car door and started it up. She would make it better. She
could always make it better. A tear slipped down Angel's face. Buffy
always made it better,and he always made it worst.Angel sighed and pulled out of the Hyperion parking lot. It was going to be hard seeing her. Telling her. Having to look her trait in the eye and tell his true love he had bore a child with another. But,he would do it. He would tell her the truth.He owed her that much.
~If I need some other love
Give me more than I can stand
And when my smile gets old and faded
Wait around I'll smile again. ~
Buffy stood at the magic box table talking about Warren and his group of
evil nerds,when Angel walked in. He stood there starring at her. Every one
else that had been facing Buffy turned to see Angel. Willow smiled,"A-angel!Hey.H-how've you been?" He didn't answer. Him and Buffy locked eyes and her heart sunk. He knew,some how she knew.Of course she did. She was Buffy.
Buffy walked away from her friends and approached Angel. She cupped his
cheek gentle and tears filled her eyes. "Oh God Angel...What happened?"She
asked slowly. Angel smiled sadly, "I did. Me and my stupid trust in my friend, me and my problem with hurting a human like Holtz! Me not being able to save
son!" He clasped into her arms and she rapped her arms around him.She did not
know what he meant, but that didn't matter, that would come later. "Shhh.It's
gonna be okay,"She soothed. "I'm here.It's gonna be okay."
~Shouldn't be so complicated
Just hold me and then
Just hold me again~
Every one watching the display grabed there things and whispered their
good byes. Leaving Buffy alone with Angel. "Tell me-c-can you tell me what
happened? Angel?" She whispered. He lifted his slowly and looked in her
eyes. He feared telling her at first,but then he looked into her eyes and
remembered this was Buffy. She wouldn't judge or critisize. She would
only love him. Buffy looked deep into his eyes and he reminded her of the time he came back from hell. She had tooken care of him,and held him when he cried. His eyes mirrored those eyes of a lost little boy in the dark.
"It all started with Darla..." It had been thirty two minutes and now they sat on The Magic Box stairs. Buffy held Angel's large hands in bothe of her,and had listened to the entire heart breaking story. She felt so much pain swell up inside her.
Her poor, poor Angel.
She let one of his hands drop to stroke his face.Angel closed his eyes
tightly and leaned his forhead against Buffy's.
"What if I can't do it Buffy!" Angel began to sob,"What if I can't move
on! What if I can't live! God I don't think I can! Please help make it
better! "He kissed her and then pulled away to let out another cry,"Help
make it better!Love me!"
~Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent~
He hid his face in between her neck and shoulder. "Shhh,I
will,shhh. It's
gonna be okay. I'm here and I love you.It's gonna be okay."She
repeated,not really nowing what else to say.
~If I couldn't sleep could you sleep
Could you paint me better off
Could you sympathize with my needs
I know you think I need a lot
I started out clean but I'm jaded ~
So,she held on to her broken Angel,and did the only thing she could
do. Love
him.
~Just phoning it in
Just breaking the skin
Start bending me
It's never enough
I feel all your pieces
Start bending me
Keep bending me until I'm completely broken in
Shouldn't be so complicated
Just touch me and then
Just touch me again~
