| The first thing that comes to mind about keeping a public journal: |
| Why the hell would anybody want to read about MY life? |
| That's a damned good question. |
| When I'm on the net, I like to read about things that are relevant to me. Yep, it's self-centered, but, hey... I don't think I'm alone in that category. I like to read things that make me think wow... someone else feels that way too. Or about things that - I - think are interesting and important. Or about people that- I - know, or would like to know. (I am fiercely nosey. If I know you, and you have a homepage, you'll get lots of hits from me... I am also fiercely paranoid, and I'll probably be looking for references that have to do with - you guessed it - me). |
| So what I'm hoping is that someone out there will read this and think hey, this woman is a lot like me... or maybe hey, this woman is pretty interesting. What I am NOT hoping for is hey, I know her... I had no idea she was this nuts. But that's a chance I am prepared to take, obviously. |
| (If you, dear reader, do know who I am, you might be surprised by what you find here. Please try to remember that I'm still the same person you knew before began reading this... there's just a lot of stuff that doesn't come up in conversation very easily. Be kind.) |
| Hmmm. |
| I just looked at that last paragraph and realized that I am rambling because I can't stand blurting out grizzly details. So I guess I should get some guts (excuse me while I step out to the deli) and tell you some things you'll need to know if this journal is going to make any sense at all. I'll make a list so that I might actually stick to the point: |
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- I am a 29 year old woman. - I live in Eastern Canada. - I have an eight year old daughter (let's call her S). - I have a twenty-eight year old fiancee (let's call him R). - I have a psychology degree, but I work in a grocery store. - I have a dissociated identity. (what the heck is that?) - I refuse to call this a disorder. - I live with a range of mental health problems. - I have a best friend that I love dearly (lets call her Anarchia). - I love mood-altering substances (you figure it out). - I love coffee and cigarettes and cola more than my health. - I am addicted to my computer (hell, any computer). - I have a past that contains some pretty gruesome elements. - I am an athiest. - I am bisexual (isn't everybody now?). - I am a feminist. - I am a pacifist with a secret love for Quake III |
| O.k., I think that's enough for now. Believe it or not, that was hard. When your identity is always in flux, nailing down the facts (ma'am) can be a tough call. |
| Until next time! |