Look at me, who is unwilling to act
First strongly, then gently, against your will
I would never tell you
The creaking sound of leather against skin is painful
Let us intensify the wounds
Were you, who I envy so deeply, always so cold-blooded?
I was mistreated in my youth
Even now, it is painful to remember it
Why is my mother non-existent? / Tell me!
Sometime, when I can perceive gentility,
I will become the Virgin Mary in a cradle
It is pathos, therefore I cannot see in front of me
with my last MOTHER
It seems that I can, at least, perceive you, the first MOTHER
Even if the clock is turned back,
the sins I have committed cannot be rectified
In the beginning, the last prophet was destroyed
Was it too gentle for me?
Reflecting the trauma of long ago,
was I to be a torn sadist until you were the last?
The title: Cage
This is song is a little confusing. The first part seems to be talking about his past, when he was abused by his sadistic mother. And yet somehow he sees it as a duty to his mother, no matter how painful.
He also seems to believe that he has done something wrong for his mother to treat him this way (the sins I have committed cannot be rectified).
Over here it becomes clear his sorrows, and pain due to the "leather [hit] against skin". I don't know why he envies her deeply, but it has obviously hurt him greatly to know that the one he envies most is so cruel to him. It is too painful to remember. His idea of a mother is probably a gentle person, so when he asks why his mother is non-existent, he probably is asking why isn't his mother fit into the imagery that he has?
Maybe he equates a good mother to a gentle and kind Virgin Mary while he is well loved, in a cradle. But it is pathos, it makes him so sad that he cannot think of the future. I'm not sure how many mothers he has but there seems to be 2--one who took care of him, and another, the evil stepmother.
Now, grown up, he thinks he is a sadist. Great. But as he thinks back, it seems that his traumatic past has left a great scar on him and his sadism is just a cover to hide his torn up emotions on the inside of him.