your hidden glances, your unspoken words
do you expect me to understand it all?
someday i'll work up the courage to tell you how i feel.
but until then, all i'm left with are your hidden glances and unspoken words.

Not Enough

Tonight's the night where I start to be honest
where I tell you how I've felt for all of these years
how hard it's been to watch you love someone else other than me
and to know that you'll never love me the way you've loved them.
Tonight's the night where I confess my true feelings
and let you know that these past years would have meant nothing without you
that you're the only one I've ever wanted to impress
and the only one I've ever wanted to make jealous.
But these words will go unspoken, these actions go undone
for I will keep my mouth shut and my hands in my lap
and hope that this is kept a secret.
And I will sit here alone, waiting for you to share your feelings for another girl
while I sit here thinking of what could be but what never will be
for all we will ever be is not enough.

Tell

I want to tell you it's going to be alright,
but I've never made a promise I couldn't keep.
I want to tell you no one can tear us apart,
but I don't think I can hold on much longer.
I want to tell you our love's too strong to be broken,
but everything weakens in the end.
I don't know how this will end, what the story will play out to be.
But this I know for sure;
as long as I'm with you, it will be alright.

The Anthem to the Suicidal Girl

crawl up in a ball, she said
noone wants you here
worthless, tasteless, loveless
youve always been unwanted
she said, all you needed was a taste of reality
and you were ready to give up?
youre too weak to live.
you want someone to love, she said
but you cant even love yourself.
youre not worth anyones time.
youre not worth anyones love.

Sick

I'm sick of waiting, only to not be waited for.
I'm sick of caring, only to not be cared for.
I'm sick of loving, only to not be loved for.
I'm sick of asking, only to not be answered.
I'm sick of wondering, only to accept now.
I'm sick of being insulted, only to not insult.
All I want is a real friend who will care
for me the way I do about them.

this is me.

this is me, holding out my heart for you to take.
this is me, giving it to you to break.
this is me, falling in love with your smile.
this is me, begging you to stay a while.
this is me, knowing we'll be forever.
this is me, praying we'll always be together.
this is me, asking you for your care.
this is me, hoping you'll always be there.
this is me, amazed by all of you.
this is me, hoping it's all true.
this is me, just a girl in love.
this is me.