Dark emotions swirling through a shattered mind, thoughts racing, things like �It�s mind over you don�t matter� running through my head. What have I done? Nothing, of course. That�s the root of the problem. I�ve done nothing, nada, zip, ZERO. I haven�t learned from my mistakes like I should have, I just blundered on, oblivious to the things around me.
The mockeries, the jeers, the taunts, make their ways into my mind, and I�m standing here think shutupshutupshutUP. How am I supposed to do anything at all when you�re all jabbering at me?
I�m still standing here, scared to death and sick with shame. Yes, shame, deep and dark, painful, biting. What, you thought I wasn�t affected by suck belittling things? Did you think I was different? That I was stronger? Wiser? That I didn�t care? Well, you�re wrong. Dead wrong. I�m worse than you, worse than everything. I�m still standing here, quaking in my boots, mind reeling at the thought of letting everyone down AGAIN. How could you have been so stupid? This thought parades through my head like a horrible, cruel monster. I fight it, oh, how I fight it, but it�s strong. Stab it, kill it, bite it, kick it. I�ve tried everything, but the monster thought stays.
Oh yeah, I�m laughing right now. That�s how I fight. While I�m standing here beside you, I am reminded of how pathetic I am. I lie to everyone everyday of my life, and it makes me sick. I can�t stand the thought of letting you all down. Everyone seems to have this strange faith in me, and I don�t know why. It�s okay; She can handle it. I don�t want you all to know that I CAN�T handle it, because then I�ll be nothing but a let down, a waste of time and thought.
The sad thing is that I don�t even make sense. This doesn�t even make sense. Nothing makes sense anymore. Here I was, thinking I could do it, but I�m letting everyone down again.
So here I stand, dark thoughts swirling through a shattered mind, thoughts racing, wanting to close my eyes and let it all go, not care, but I can�t not care. That�d be like before. Doing nothing. And that doesn�t make sense.
This ending doesn�t make sense.

Violent protesters at the recent international trade conference in Florida were denounced as anarchist. If these people were really anarchists, devoted to the elimination of government, then they were certainly going about it the wrong way. Initiating force against the government only convinces people that the government is justified in defending itself with the use of a greater force, and thus increased the size and authority of government. I think these �anarchist� protestors were merely another group of statists bent on using the state for their own purposes.

Government is an organization that forcibly maintains a monopoly on the use of force within a geographical area. If that sounds like a questionable and circular definition, then it is a definition that accurately describes government. The philosophy of government is based on circular definition, oxymoron, and contradiction in terms. There is no reasonable and logical justification for one person having the right to initiate force while another does not.

A conservative is a person who believes in small government. Most people think conservative policies lead to stability and order. An anarchist believes in eliminating government. Most people view anarchy as a state of dangerous chaos. If small government represents stability and order, then smaller government should represent more stability and more order, and no government should represent the most possible stability and order.

It is true that when governments collapse, there is often a period of greater social disruption. That is not caused by the lack of government, but by the fact that government existed and then collapsed. Governments do perform vital services, and when those services are removed, there is hardship. But those services that are performed by government could be performed by the private sector. There have been instances of societies that were stable for long periods of time without anything we would recognize as a government.

If a non-governmental organization is performing services and then stops providing services, there will also be a period of chaos. That does not mean that the alternative to non-governmental organizations is chaos. It simply means that it takes time to reorganize any social system after a breakdown. But since non-governmental organizations typically are much smaller than governments, if one of them ceases to function, the loss of social organization is much less severe.

It is actually centralized control that creates chaos. Look that the social disruption caused by the decisions of Stalin, Mao, and Hitler. The mistakes of central planners can have huge consequences. The mistakes of private citizens are relatively limited in scope and much more easily corrected and prevented. Governments killed and wounded hundreds of millions in the last century, forcibly separated a whole lot of family members, and destroyed whole cities. Could anarchy be worse?

Smaller, more local, and less coercive social units are needed to form a stable society. The smaller the government and all the social institutions in a society, the more stable and efficient the society will be.

We cannot hope to eliminate human stupidity and violent behavior in the near future, but we could do a lot to minimize the negative effects. To avoid the chaos commonly associated with the collapse of government, and power struggles within a government, we need to shrink the government gradually so that other, non-coercive organizations can start providing the services that government now provides.

If government continues to grow, it will eventually collapse, and there will be a period of chaos while society is reorganized. If we find it is politically impossible to shrink government through the ballot box, it is prudent to have plans for minimizing the damage and reorganizing on a more rational basis when the inevitable social collapse occurs.

Anarchy is not chaos. Government produces chaos and violence.

�Anarchy is not chaos, but order without control� ~Zack de la Rocha