"Suicide"

suicide

raa

every night and day i sit and wonder 
should I take my life to really discover
another part of me 
a place to dwell where my soul can really be free
do you understand 
the pain these mind games 
give migranes afterwards ease my pain
I want to kill myself 
love to bitch at me 
u took a dive dont u see

everybody in the world has a problem 
we need to learn to communicate to solve them

sometimes i close my eyes
and i place a gun to my head 
and i pull the trigger not once but twice
how come im still standing here

all these fears of mine 
wont let me change
may as well blow myself away
im tired of tears 
its brought this 
anger stress and pain
how much more you think i can take


sometimes i feel like 
not strong enough to keep going on 
what is wrong
destruction seems simple enough but not simple sin disruption

do you really want to make it
then get rid of your time
you tried again
you fall to your knees

everybody want to push and shove you
want to make you feel like nothing see

everybody in the world has a problem
we need to learn to communicate to solve them
see
simply look in your eyes
and realize your own lies
but we cant 
we love this rock star life

close my eyes
and I place a gun to my head
and i pulled the triger not once but twice 
how come Im still standing here
all this bitching wont let me change
may as well blow my self away

i dealt with tears that 
cause this anger stress and pain
how much more u think i can take

sacraficial is the lamb
i sold my soul to the devil im dammed
and only thing i know is that the war in heaven 
has called for me to be a soldier and
i will slaughter angels and let them fall
with bloods of wings and tips be dammed
soon i know if u fuck with me 
the devil will soon come for me
take this pain away
you tell me how much more you think i can take
dont u see my life feels like a waste
i deal with reality every single fucking day

doomed till I die to the demon layer 
drop down to the pitfall
down in despair
crypt was a tomb 
where the tomb dead 
still upon human heads

you lied to me then 
that i wouldn't descend
can i penetrate 
look through the walls
Mysteries in the dice 
sensitives riddles
legends of the fall
.......
careful of the words that are carved in stone
dont get damned
damn damn
for all time 
now im come by the lord from the old time
took from the white light feel the pain
just in society
as start to rain lies into the praying hands
.........
i am insanity pains
......
yes right
show you
never
cause I beg for sanitys pains
never
never
because never
never
never
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