ok so its friday night ... 10:52pm .... my dads in france walking the som.... and iv got a bottle of jim beam with my name all over it..... now im gonna drink my jim beam saterday night and get reallly wasted..... but its not gonna be a good wasted... its gonna be an upset wasted... im gonna be a handfull to cope with..... today has truley sucked....... ok i woke up this moring and it was proper lush and i was in a proper proper good mood..... listen to hot rod circit on the way to college with the sun beaming in my face and the bike feeling sooo smoooth and soooo good. It was truley a feeling of being alive.... went to my politics lesson... then went to tescos and got a fried breakfast.... then it rained and people ignored me and i felt insecure...... i was very quite.... it might have been a first for me..... it turned really cold .... i stood with some townies and made friends with them.... they let me smoke their draw.... it was nice getting mashed with people didnt know....... i felt abit better but at the same time very bitter ........ bitter about what .... i dunno ...... my day had gone from being kick ass awesome rad to sucking .......and the when i blazed with the townies people looked at me like i was a tratour or something (tratour spelt wrong deslexic) ... and it got me thinkin the people who looked down at me listen to musik that preaches unity and understanding ...... but they fail to grasp these concepts at the lowest levels where it matters the most.... its all well and good saying hey dont discriminate against blacks or jews, but at the end of the day if your gonna look down at people who dress in sports makes and listen to drum and bass then thats pretty fucking gash / 2faced...... i meah yeah the townies could be rude to u or take the piss out of the way u wanna dance or the way u dress... but what ever happend to passive resistance... such as the late Dr. Martin Luther King preached ..... during the civil rights protests in the US in the 1950's -60's the white man beat the shit into the blacks but they just sat their and took it ( with acception to the black panthers and malcome X who took the violence to the whites) ....they took the beatings and still where civil to the white man ..... and now we live in better times... people of differnt races are treated with alot more respect ... but that dosnt make it wrigth for u to look down at people just cos their "townies, pikes or gypseys" .... what can i say today when i was feeling shit / being ignored those so called pikes chatted to me shaired a joke or two and let me smoke their ganja .... i fucking hate this world ... its a fucking mess and people are to lazy to do a fucking thing about it .... they just sit their watcing TV using their credit cards..... credit buys them everything..... working the rat race..... nothing to come of them ..... just waiting for death... its a sorry state and it hurts me when kids take what they got for fucking granted .... oh dont get me wronge im no fucking saint ... infact im probley just as bad if not worse... i sit here in my little world, ride my getto bike, listen to my emo musik... have feelings for girls ... get all upset ...... cause trouble ... crave attention .....talk to my self ... talk to myself alot... what the fuck am i doing preaching to you about life .... i dunno im in the words of conusmed "venting my spleen letting it all come clean, its busting up my guts"
so yeah kids ...... you better fucking take it
like i said im ready for a blood bath ..........
jxx
said it was gonna be a random one tonight kids
