Pushed_away

It's hard to trust your feelings when it hurts you so much.
It's like waiting for a phone call that will never come.
When you realize that what you had was worth nothing,
When you feel you don't mean much by someone you care so much about,
When you find the courage to call but having nothing to say and
Each moment of silence is too much for you to handle
But you would call them anyways.
When you missed the right moment and lost the track of time,
And having hard time trying to let go of the feelings that became part of your life.
It's hard to admit what's in front of your eyes when you can't see what you want to see.
It's like staying up all night to hear your favorite song, but you know you missed it.
It hurts you so much.
Makes you want to cry.
Cuz the feeling of forever seems never and never seems forever,
But the worst part is it hurts more to be pushed away than being told you are hated.