I call myself an atheist, but the label doesn't seem to fit me as well as it used to.  Certainly I sympathize the most with people of atheist perspectives, but I seem to be getting more agnostic.  Like the subject, it's hard to say for sure.

We humans have a set of morals which are essentially universal.  I believe that these morals came about as part of the evolutionary process.  Think about it—where would we be if we all believed that killing our own species was good?  Where would we be if we didn’t care about each other?  Clearly, we would be dead.  Humans are a social species.  Virtually everything we have accomplished has been due to our ability to work together, and our common sense of morality has been key in making that possible.

So . . . why would God have our morals, as is assumed in the major religions?  Why would God have morals at all?  God, by the definition of the monotheists, is a solitary entity.  In other words, God has no other supreme beings to interact with, to share ideas with, to grow old (but not die) with.  What use would God have for feelings and moral principles tailor-made for biological success--of mortals, no less--in social environments?  Christianity dictates that God created man in His own image, but the moral (as well as the physical) aspects of the Christian God point suspiciously in the opposite direction.

I won't even get into the physical aspects of why God would have arms, legs, a nose, hair, and skin, among other things . . .

Perhaps this is all some grand design.  God's morals match ours, and were handed down from Him because It Was Meant To Be, and that they work so well is the proof of this.  But . . . that would imply that some other supreme entity created God, or that God designed Himself, which strikes me as only slightly impossible.

It's totally one thing if God causes a coincidence to happen.  It's another if God is a coincidence.  He's supposed to explain coincidences, not be one!

Essentially I think the common conception of God is far too earthly to possibly be true.  Perhaps the biggest problem I have with many theistic religions is that they arrogantly believe that they can communicate with God.  This makes about as much sense to me as an ant saying it can communicate with a human.  We humans have enough trouble communicating with primates, as it is.

Even if we could somehow understand what an ant is thinking, how could the ant possibly comprehend anything we say to it?  Moreover, why would we be communicating with ants?  This gets into the whole "God's Plan" deal, which I shall steer clear of, at least for now.
 

Thus far I have attempted to deconstruct God as He is commonly understood.  Now I shall explain what I think is, or could be, the truth.
 

There is not much to say here.  I do not rule out the possibility of an otherworldly entity, but as you can see, I do doubt that such an entity even resembles the God of the major religions.  I also don't know why there would only be one such entity.  I definitely do not think such an all-powerful entity could possibly share our morals, because the reality of life on earth is so sick and demented that I don't think any plan, no matter how Godly, could ever justify the suffering of life over the ages.  In my opinion, anyone who justifies it by looking only at the bright side of things is fooling themselves (this also gets into the question of sanity, which I also won't even begin to consider in this polemic).

I simply believe that even with all our advances in science and technology, we have just barely begun to understand existence.  One promising new theory described by James Barbour even suggests that time doesn't exist!  Imagine how that would change things if it were true.  There is also the possibility of other universes and/in other dimensions, both of which I think can easily exist, and both of which we have never found evidence of.  The possibilities outside of our universe are infinite.  How can we possibly think we can accurately or even semi-accurately derive the meaning of existence from what little we know now?

I think it is quite possible that we will never know the truth, even when (or especially when) we die.  In the meantime, the search goes on, people kill each other, good people die for no reason, others die without ever finding love.  Morality and love struggle to reconcile the utter wrongness of the world.  New generations are born, some into prosperity, some into vicious circles.  The search goes on.