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name Kenny, Ani b-day 5/17/1989 schooling HS Senior location down by the third coast ♥ manga, jrock, web design, boredom, sleep, caffiene, cooking, Insaniquarium, Valkyrie Profile, and Maple Story. X dubbed anime, everyday people, school in all generality, being forced to do things, reality, anything with an overload of tomatoes and mayonnaise. wishes a new laptop, a plane ticket to Kentucky, a fully equipped kitchen
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November 1st, 2006 Ahh, it's been so long again. Even more things have happened since the last time I wrote. So many more things...even things I didn't even plan on. xD Looking down and reading an old entry from well over a year ago I see I said that I had found someone...xD I laugh now as I read that. That relationship...oh christ. I don't know why I ever let myself be submitted to such emotional torture and hopelessness. But such is life; it teaches you everything the hard way. So yes, that's why our relationship was terminated last March. (cue gasps of realization) Yeah. But that's long over. However, recently, my mind has been bringing it back up...Why must I keep remembering something I cannot hope to revive after it has laid dormant for so long? We had nothing at all, and even yet...Perhaps I left it too unresolved? Oh well...after so long, we have both most likely come up with our own conclusions to the matter. Maybe she brushed it off so long ago that it doesn't even faze her anymore. Meh, life goes on. That's a closed chapter of the book now. Summer went by okay. I Mapled ALL day long, up until July, when I completely flipped my sleeping habits - I would wake up at 5PM and sleep at 10AM XD That went on for about three-four weeks until my mom forced my sleeping habits back to normal. it was great though. XD I got my Ranger to 70 that way, training at zombies when the maps were most empty - 3AM XD Speaking of Maple...When I had thought I had sealed off all of my problems IRL, they only moved online. April 17, 2006 Oh dear. I went on a random hiatus without informing anyone. Sorry, I had problems in life around September and decided to focus on it and ignore the internet for a bit. 7 months. That's a lot to cover. First off, Omi is no longer a part of my life. Now that that 6 year escapade has ended, I guess I can now say what it is I like to say with no fear. Thank God. Excuse me for that. I feel quite free now, yet empty. I don't have someone bothering me often, but I DO, in fact, miss someone to talk to everyday. However, I believe we hated each other for quite a bit prior to when I finally decided to call it quits, so it was merely something waiting to erupt. But besides that. It played quite a difficult role in my life the last 5 months or so but I've let it go. There are other people to whom I must donate my time and attention to now. To something a bit better in my life, I started playing Maple Story XD Been addicted to it since December 26th; haven't stopped for a single day. Call me a nerd if you must. It helps me forget about my mistakes and the horrid social standing I currently possess. There's very few people I can trust at school anyway. To anyone who's reading this that's one of my buddies from MS, thanks for being such great online friends XD Anyway, since I'm rambing on about school anyway...I've gotten so lazy...I don't know what's gotten into me, but it's one of the dumbest things I've ever done...yet I could never have been any more content. I love making honor roll and all, but hey, it involved too much stress, too much pressure, and my parents were totally anal about all As or nothing. This year, I've slackened, and I have more time for things...No worries, I'm passing with comfortable grades XD straight Bs is what I've managed this year and it's great. I feel so FREE. XD Anika! Are we ever going to game again?? Get the band nerds together and let's massacre Joseph or something. XD Maybe my house one day? Since we always go to yours, or Danny's, or Melvin's... Oh man...it's April 17th! My 17th birthday is in A MONTH. I feel so old. It feels like yesterday that I was still a stupid 14 year old. Ugh, how time slides past so swiftly... SOMEONE GET ME MONEY FOR MY BIRTHDAY RAWR Seriously, I'm BROKE. I need a car for my Co-op Culinary class next year and my parents and I have no means of providing the funding for one. aggghhhh. Please help support teh anime by buying something from my shop or something. If I know you IRL, pleeeeassseeeee help. I'll pay you back somehow. o_O Anyway, I must get to homework, and MS. I left someone without warning. XD Oh, and hi, Xai! =DDD September 5, 2005 I never knew so many people I knew popped in to read my blog oO I've had a good five people nagging me about who said person is (not just you Annie XD) and what's funny is that even that person asked me. XD meh, I guess I'm treating it like a game, but it's funny to see you all commit so much brainpower to something so easily visible...*cough* School is going well o_o...but I just don't feel like writing a two page essay right now...anyone want to? I'll give you 5 bucks XD it's due tomorrow, so I guess I'll BS it later, as usual. people seem to be noticing me more despite my silence, which is weird...I can't help feeling like they want something from me...<_< >_> WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME?? *KICK* oh, mom's taking me shoppin. brb. *pokes omi* August 13, 2005 What do you know? I told you I'd return. XD It's been amost a year since I killed this thing, and now look, it returns... There's so much that has gone on since last October...the major one being the shocker to most people that I quit band. yes, I quit. Like no more seeing me complain and suffer under the scrutinizing eyes of the directors and peers.Yes, finally, this thing will talk about my life, for once. I quit band for one major reason: I want to focus on my studies for college. Okay, it's stupid because colleges look at your extracurricular activities and might accept you in for that alone, but MAN my grades have been suffering. I want to be the straight-A student I used to be back in elementary school > < people may find it crazy that I say that because my grades right now are As, mostly Bs and some Cs, but ugh...I hate it. ...and yes, I do sort of regret quitting now, but now that I haven't been there for so long, how are they going to accept me back in? besides, my clarinet is totaled. x_x ...I'll see about that next wednesday, I guess. Ugh, school is starting too. I hate school. No, not because of the work, I hate school for the people it involves forcing me into getting to know. many are so selfish and have a habit of somehow getting me to do their bidding...well, it's my fault too, but that's only because they like to hurt you somehow if you don't do what they ask -_-; I have to stop letting people walk all over me. This year I shall be a friggin CLAM. no open for you. In other news... 1) trip to Dallas this past april/may was AWESOME. yay for the four wannabe mexicans (Joseph, Danny, Anika and I), yay for the suites we got to stay in, yay for the coolness that was medieval times 2) Astroworld company trip was blah...I think I've been there one too many times lol 3) I have no clue what I wanna major in! I'm not so sure about webdesign or culinary arts anymore... 4) DANNY FIND VALKYRIE PROFILE PLEASE 5) btw, that was some damn good barbecue lol 6) DOFUS IS CRACK. Join plz kthx I have so much to say...lol. but now I hit some more serious stuff. I've been thinking about it for a long while now, and I'm not so sure, but...I think I've found someone. yes, that kind of someone. they probably don't know, but after knowing each other for so long and having done things most haven't you'd think it should be at an elevated level by now...of course there are some barriers but I don't give a crap. this is someone I always want to be close to and take care of, someone whose material belongings I don't give a ---- about (lol), someone who I long to share a life with...eh, if they haven't figured it out yet, I'd have to say they don't have rational thought. lol but I wouldn't care even if they didn't have that. they might not like me much, and it's quite possible that this is a one-sided thing, but I just don't care...even if we stay as friends it'll keep me happy... Yum, apple pie. lol I think this is a good place to call it a night... | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||