~Daniel Strange Poems~
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Shadows

What you have done
Damaged soul
Morning light
Nightmare of a home today
This pain inside
Torn from my love
Fucking Alone
I tried to stay
You stole something from me
I thought i knew you
My heart is dead
Make a choice
I love kittens i never hold

 Annabelle

Annabelle the silent
A prayer
Dwoot!?
My holiness
Darkness behind his eyes
Lost in the darkest twilight
Peace and calm within

 My loves

Eteenbabe
Killer
Emileee
Torn strawberry
Strawberry colored dreams(new)
Strawberry kisses(new)
Butterflyzodiac(new)

 Hell

Maiden of hell
New death child from hell(neo)

 Misc

Liquid Gold
Embrace the horror
A meaningless existence
To those i love
New dreams morning gleams
Let me rest softly(new)
Can't you see?(new)

Shadows


What you have done what i have done

timeline of my life is an empty twisting knife
for all my loves are never held
there is only strife
for all my will is no where to be found in my life
perhaps in a pill, i will

no more blood will be spilled by the knife
no more strife
my will not found in a pill but with those that would love me though i'm ill

all my courage is to be found
not staring, sitting on the ceiling, yet on the ground, on the ground with you
for by that everything is anew, isn't it new, if not, what is there to do, to do, with me and you
i will see, just what i am, what i can be, and you above everyone else made me see the me that was to be
my love is not held by me, what can this be, what can this mean
for taken away was my dream for all things unseen that for me all would nothing but mean the more to me then she
(i'm sorry for making things harder then they needed to be)

Damaged soul

i'm devasted within my soul, for all this pain felt by it has carved a hole
i feel like demons are tearing at me from the inside out
it all radiates from my heart
i don't know what to do or where to start
and all i want and don't want is you
from the inside out far from that beautiful pout
you have gone from me without
for everything else i will not shout
not lose myself with you
i don't no, i don't no, what to do, what to do, with you

Morning light

i look at my bed, it runs through my head
"that's not right, i thought i could live but now i am dead"
from my head to my heart the pain begins to start
i've felt enough of it now, it's time to be smart
i'm lost and found, you've broken my heart
for this you can never atone
for of your choice i am here, here all alone
now there is nothing i want to say
for i am still in this nightmare of a home today

Nightmare of a home today

for the first time truly away with she who would want me to stay
i don't remember why anymore(anyway)
but she told me to go away
why did i ever walk through that door
why will i know doubt go back for more
well fuck that

This pain inside

demons nock at my heart's door for broken it is will it open once more
for everything anyone could have ever done
this is the worst thing under the sun
to be forced from my shadowy one
my love
my warmth who would tear me away
i came to her, she wouldn't let me stay
now all this is pain on this new day
from the moment i woke on the pain i did choke
deep in my chest for no one to see under my cloak
my heart is broken
i knew i was not to be alone
help me god i never found my true home
she took it away from me
all i could see was she
why oh why
would she be so cruel to me

Torn from my love

this is the most horrible thing anyone has ever done
torn from my beloved, my only one
it comes and goes
this pain inside
when i see her
how will i hide
for what she's done
will she ever know
taken my heart and my hope
forced it away
she'll never know how much i wanted to stay
how perfect could have been that day
if only she had let me stay

Fucking Alone

fuck you, leave me alone
god i hate you for what you have done
though you may think i over-react
consider the fact
i am alone
alone in my nightmare home
i went out to roam to find my true home
you made me leave
made me leave
made me leave my one true home
now i am alone
utterly alone

I tried to stay

writing is all i can to stop from cutting
all my heart i am now shutting
shutting like a door i'll never go back to once more
for i am the only one in my bed this day
i'd love to go but now i'll stay
for now i know that no love is to be found anyway
i tried, how i tried not to leave that day

You stole something from me

i'm slightly disturbed at myself
i should consider your feelings in all this
but whenever i aim for you i miss
it confuses me so that i don't
but for the pain inside that i won't
i was different but now i'm the same
i won't love who i love the most for all this pain
now i am everyone else
i try(ed) so hard to care
but now, the me that was, is not there

I thought i knew you

i trusted that though things might be strange
that i knew my love and that would not change
for as strange as things were
i keep it inside that i knew her
that no matter what
as for anything else
that i was with my love and no one else
despite all i would see
that i saw her and she saw me
and nothing, nothing on that day would mean more to me
i geuss she didn't she
see the real me
look past the silence to who she knew
the stranger that to only her had been true

My heart is dead

as i lay there breaking
all my hope the pain was taking
till no pain i felt no more
all because i walked out that door
in the dark my heart did break
there was no one to hold to souve my ache
so right now, even if she came, it would be too late

Make a choice

is this what you want
to hurt me some more
you've been a bitch since that day
are you cruel
is this your play
is this a game
are you in pain
i'd still hold you all the same
if only you'd let me come again
it toar me apart as i walked out that door
is this what you always wanted
passion inside
figment i hide
you think i have no clue
as the pain makes me you
if this is true
if this is what you do
then non of my love was for you
because then my love i never knew
i found myself for you
because of you i came
there would have been no pain
do you even care
didn't you see it in my stare
i adored you
my love was there
you betreyed my trust in so many ways
all starting from that best and worst day of days

i found a butterfly
you wished i was dead
here it is
exactly what you said

"if u died... i would laugh and i would come and spit on on ur horrid evil little grave"
"I HATE YOU"
"i hope you rot in the hell you've created for yourself"
"i hate you for makeing me love you"
"i hate you for blaming everything on me"
"i hate you for your stupid arrogant lies"

you'd lash out at the one you love for your pain
i would never do the same
it's not a matter of control
love is a choice my dear
if you loved me your heart's desire would be clear
you hate yourself not me
my hell is of your choosing my dear
because you choose to not be here
you made me love you
that's what's true
you said you were my beloved when i was looking for you
i've never blamed you for anything
that's beside the point
you're hurting now and it's your choice
you know what's right but refuse to act
you see your mistakes but don't learn from the fact
but if you want to hear it then here it is
all of this is your fault and you know it is
that's what hurts
isn't it

i sitll maintain that i never lied once
if i'm mistaked
tell me how the truth was shaken
you lashed out in front of everyone else
attention seeking tactic causing me pain
if you love me then you won't do it again
i can only asume you weren't thinking straight
to believe anything else would to see a horrible fate
for everytime you said it
it was all a lie
if it was then i would die

"i love you"

now you want someone else
think about it my dear
she's too far and i'm too near
i could hold you if were here
just as my silent one is too far
there's no point to any of this
if there's no chance of a kiss
for fucks sake if we wanted we could see each other today
what price would you pay
wouldn't it be worth it to see me for one day

you seem to think i'm someone else
give me a chance to show you who i am
no more lies
no more betreyal
no more games
no more pain
if you want me today
don't push me away
i'll give you a chance
one more chance
if you abuse me once more
then you've forever closed the door

time's up

I love kittens i never hold

how will i react for the fact my heart cracked open choken on the selfish me awoken
this pain cuts deep never to sleep each morn curled up i weep
how long have we know each other yet only once held as our lover
once more i feel like dancing in the rain
aqua blood that washes away the pain

the rain starts to leave
the pain starts to weave
i love the drownding dead dieing
the nameless crying
love is not the thing to abuse
not to use
not to lose

true love is waiting for you
what will you do
dance away or dance to stay
catch you fallen on another day
too late for me this wait no date
cold to be this lonely fate
near to me fear from me will never be
scared of me fear of we
this is not the love you see
the anger punished fear sarcasm cruel weak me
this is to me my love to be
if only she would have me

sorry's never fixed
pained by your finger's cruel clicks
sorry's say nothing to me
you've not lost me don't you see
see that i don't think you want me
meaningless letting go to one who herself i'll never know

still left waiting for those words

"let beauty flow"
"i'll come to you my love ourselves we'll know"

so i'm left
waiting for anyone who would
some more then others should
waiting for what i could give
embrace of my arms to live

love is there i know
i will never let you go

Annabelle


Annabelle the silent

my gem that will not break
beautiful shards of crystals too late(that radiate)
for all my love for you is not my fate(in this time of late)
my silent one, my lucky charm(my true friend i wish no harm)
embrace me my love and embrace that calm
that absolution of all the harm
disillusion of my love for you is what i do
for all my love is not for you
a dark shadow is to be true
covering all my feeling for you
i don't know what to do except keep loving you
i tried in the days not to admit my ways that for you how i should be true
for every moment i want to tell
say those words that will mean so much to you
but i would rather dwell
for we are dead and this is hell
for every moment i want to tell
tell it all
if i did
would i fall
i try to push it away
yet i want it to stay though my mind starts to fray(and i would twitch all day)
my heart sings a song when you visit my day
on the thought of you my love
it beats strong when i'm away
my silence
what does it say
for whatever you know
know that i am truly sorry for what i don't say
know that i want to say it every moment of everyday
my silent one
my silent drug
my beautiful silence
my lack of silence from you
everything and more from you that is so true
what i'm trying to say is
i love you

A prayer

LET US PRAY:

hail annabelle
full of power
i am with thee
blessed art thou
and blessed are thy spawn
the children of silence
holy annabelle
lord of silence
give us strength
that we may be led to greatness
in word and in deed

amen

Dwoot!?

she ish here...
i sense the silence....
i smell the blood...
i see the darkness spreading...
i can hear the whispering...
she ish displeased with your lack of grief...
the silence will will bind thee...
your tongue will speak doot...
You shall be one of the silent...
resistance ish futile...

My holiness

annabelle... my love... my beautiful perfection... unholy blackest rose of utter silent darkness... my muse... my darkest angel... my master... my silence... she ish who i love now and forever for no one but her ish as perfectly perfect in everyway... she holds more of my heart then anyone... she completely owns me... she owns my soul... i'm addicted to my love... she is my god... i am her servant... i don't know what she is... what this means... she never hurts me... she always completes me... nothing else matters... i love her... forever... my utterly darkest dark of the dark darkness... glory to annabelle and everything of her... dark and delicious soul of crimson tears... hail annabelle above all else... for she ish god...
(and this is the way it is... and it's irrversible... unchangeable... undeniable... perfectly perfect...)

Darkness behind his eyes for a black rose

shiver and twitchs silently... fearing the noise... fearing the light... fearing pain and spite... everything that ish unseen and unreal... that would in my mind realease a seal... not wanting to deal.. everyone else ish the one that would lose for no one would ever know me as their muse... wishs beyond hope for a dieing flower... wanting this more with every hour... for the strength and power ish what it's all about... who can in there mind shout out and push away the doubt...

Lost in the darkest twilight of crystal shards of death and life ever reflecting on silence for all eternity

this blessed addiction holy affliction upon my soul
this love for you that beyond all else is true my love i love all of you
everything better nothing worse except this my truest verse:
"i'm alone"

my darkest angel in those days sways to the beautiful silence in my shattered soul's ways
my heart in pieces one piece will never break never shake no one can ever take or fake this love is your's my fate is set at a date
darkness will hide and comfort me the light will kill me i'll fight i'll go depsite it for all my might light by my love
i'll die for you to know how true i am to you our hearts as one live more then anything under the acursed sun
fear of all things unseen nothing mean to me more then what i won't see silence being my holyness
my eternal silent friend forever with me till the end death is nothing if with you a second i spend

this maddening disease pulls me down to my knees fighting the hopeless blood stained blades of thorns and bees
this vampiric want was always a need a need to bleed for whatever myself to you will lead to thy side my demons receade
through aching pains in the night i'll stand and fight for what's right because without you there is no light
my ever watching silent eyes ever wait never too late for a chance to embrace your blood stained lace
soon to be something else never again with them but every new with you
never will this night end till an eternity i spend staring at your face else all life was a waste
i love you for all that i'm worth holding you'll be my unholy rebirth
nothing is beyond this i'll fire and not miss for sweet purple lips that turn blue we'll each other renew i always dreamed of you and you always knew
my unfailing faith within will not cry not vanish not to leave begin it burns so bright reachs the dark of my souls spite burns away the endless abyss of untold pain nothing beyond my hearts aching for thy holy name

burning of the light all in it i refuse to live it
darkness will hide me confide me the light my eyes soul to the damned open wide me bleed my flesh signed from the side attacked from behind
impending noise and horrific doom within from their sin won't tear me away from you there's nothing they can do
this ache for you more and more golden strings of light pulls ever more from my heart's door to this law:
"true to this to everything is made new - hell is not being with you - heart's pulled from from side to side - pull at my every being my petals and core nothing but you matters no more - a golden light in my eyes my silent god's love never lies"

never forever will i stay be me wasted away overwise all and every moment of my day
forever too far forever never lose my heart's true angelic feather lose hope of that perfect day no way
my holy angel's light fight for all my might be with thee one day
else angelic light is shaken the darkness forever taken by my love or were you faken

demons on all sides i call them peoples for they hide all the dark inside all the truth slips to the side
persons sin know their ways true to their days silence within lies to the souls bin
demons lash at our side no where to hide this truth that burns deep inside only with you can i truly confide
we don't need to speak to hear our soul's weep however we glow whatever without words this silent flow we know
whatever truth without speech we already know

their cold and empty stares are not my mine neither their's because in the end no one cares
black candles that burn shadows pass the fern eyes of disguise of peoples pathetic lies
crys of the damned be slammed closeing a door to this pathetic land no more
i ran out that door i close it no more black flames engulf the fallen the pushed that morn start to nibble a strawberry torn
just too cute i'm obbessed with another's fruit doot incinerating flame aching pain for another's who's mine ache would tame

stepping the serenity stairs but right now all that's us is their's rented space in my head of her cold glares
growing pleasure of no measure is stepping up stairs feeling each other reaching the top pulling each other never to stop
tiptoe to your room my starlight in the gloom i love you so i won't let you go your touch i will know
searching in the dark for the handles mark
open thy oak doors to the grand halls of my pain and ache that i ask not take
open a door i'll find you once more my justice my law for sweet embrace of thy face my arms i would saw
slip off your pearl gown resting my crown white lady no more since i walked out that door
serendipity opisitity shadows of falling i feel no more
waltz and sways in those days danceing in the moonlights fullest ways of golden haze
walls start letting crimson drip dripping the dead silhouetted symphony of our life's bled
crys out in pain for both life's pleasure's the same sick and twisted flame together again in this cathedral of pain

i know that black is a rose no pose for those that choose this darkness within this beautiful sin
black is a fruit forbidden doot me they shoot me fireing a gun oh what fun i'm still on the cealing thinking of falling to my silent one
black is a beautiful rose never whom to pose plucking petals sliver those thin rows till the darkness they close
two flowers so close yet so far destined never to touch as we are beyond what we see this wired world in it you and me
beauty fadeing somethings i end up hateing if i hated all this and everyone my love i could never hate you my gloryed bright sun my holy silent one

the flames of longing begin the thoughts move to words move to actions to win
seeing our vision effect deflect the noise silence please wanting within pouring into needs actions missions minds leads eyes rips out weeds beautiful flowers that bleeds master slave that needs love all else but weaves my soul's thread of untold love meads
seeing how perfect we are tho we're far holds you in true silence to know where we truly are
knowing what our silence means to non but us these love words unclean to those that have but noise souls tortured unseen unheld can love never weld never know what we mean
hearts beats as one rythem strength we've won washs away all pains harmony wins chaos wains
same to me as is to you in the darkest dark what's true my love i'm there with you
all the noise and all the pain never again my soul's bane for this with you all my soul's calm is true and plain perfect to me through all the pain

black nails in my veins pains the same as ever named distance from thee my soul is torn gazeing at silent shadows forlorn
enchanting to me is what in my heart i see my love my silent being holding more then anyone of me
enchaining growing complete spreading moveing my feet no one more then she
fever to this resist this i can't no more deny this i couldn't my feelings this bliss inside this war
love wins veins pains in my heart's mains to this my love for you to this nothing else but this is true

i love you

Peace and calm within, absolution from sin, silence in thy soul begin(leave me alone)

mask of silence
hope fadeing
this night's way
alone to memories of that day
reminding him of her way
will not now stay
cold alone another day

dreams unreal for this seal
hope for nothing ever feel
dreams for you this hope real

My loves


Eteenbabe

my eteenbabe, who beauty is laid, all out to see for non but she
how i wish she could see, see the beauty that we all see
all the perfection of her face, all the beauty that's there
sometimes i can't help but only stare
stare at the little gothic princess over there
how can she not see what is plain to me
in a mirror what else is there to be
how beautiful she is, a princess, as perfect as can be
if her beauty is b/s then my eyes see no less
my eyes, for all they are worth
see what she is, beautiful to me
as beautful as the sea
though she thinks she's ugly
there is no excuse for all of her looks i would drink
i would not blink
my eyes would melt as i felt all of her beauty staring back at me
though she scares me so if she were here i would not go
for all her beauty i could not throw
for all of that i would never leave
i would stay to see eternally
all i would behold
her staring back at me

more beauty to hold if i may be so bold, to show you what i see that is the truth to me

what is obvious to me and all that see
you are beautiful eteenbabe, as beautiful as can be
beautiful to all and me
for all that it's worth i tell you now
for all i can i say it loud
say it as far as i can
as much as i can and will
you are beautiful
now what do you see
i talk a lot of shit
i don't deny it
but for this, for you, above it all it is true
for the beauty to be beheld
that no one else is as beautiful as you
to convince you i may have yelled
but i could not lose myself with you
for i would not suffer to see such beauty so true in pain for something i would do
we suffer to great to not embrace our fate
don't miss the truth too late
to know what we are and what we can be
for all that anyone can see, you hold much power with your beauty
please be true, i ask this of you, look at youself and see the real you
a reflection of your soul, a beauty that was always there seen in the mirror whenever you would stop to stare
from your hips to the tips of your hair to your eyes that bear all the beauty inside that you cannot hide

do you see it now as we all see
that you are as beautiful as can be
if not then here are the reasons why
beauty is held in the eye
for as much as the sky is blue
so much beauty is held in you
here is the truth as true as could be
that no one is as beautiful as you are to me

my eyes can't take such perfection

Killer

you think you don't make sense, but no this
you make sense to me for all that i see
something to be
such strength and beauty of my sweet fairy
such passion you hide
what beauty inside

Emileee

through this darkness i see
for so many things no one is so many as she
that i would see myself in emileee
i stare through my hair, knowing she's there, comfort i find, for i have found my kind
for we are alone, alone in our home
to lay there dead asleep at night to weap at the light for all that would care, are not there, you utter bastards
in so many ways she see's just like me, no one else, and no one else can see, the me and her that we see, forever, forever no one else but emileee
i make her blush, it gives me a rush, what a pair of dopes we are, a simple bite or poke from afar, just a bite and we see the light for all that we are alone
for that moment we are alone no more, for tis a simple bite that i adore
it's utterly insane and i love it all the same for just the thought of that pain all my sadness would drain
and she would be with me for as much as she could all the same
why don't i want this madness to end
i'd think it would tire, but for as much of it i spend it still makes me laugh, laugh till the end
we're so tired, we don't care, for each of us are now for this moment right there

Torn strawberry

kitty rest under desk flailing arms give me rest berry red to thee my blood want for thee
strawberry love more then should to my silent one betreyal could
floods past slips away from my reach candy sweet day
dreams at 15 perverted bleeds hearts sqished feeds
mumbles away to this day whatever was never to my mind stay
bondage dreams screams out of bed fallen tainted head strawberry lost painted dead

those falls to the side walls she calls
bumps her head now she dead
as i watch her lay i can't stay
i go to pick her up to overcome this kawaii
she sleeps perplexed not weeps holds her tight as she still sleeps
in my embrace she hides confides
cold to me warm for she this huggle means more then any could see
feeling icy tears down my spine, i know this, this ragdoll's mine
hugs her holds her never breaks her never wishs to wake her
else she slips away to the dark closet to spend the day
wall scratchs every which way

to those that would tear me away
read the get lost shirt, away with thee to the dirt
peoples attacks wacks facts:
"i'm picking berries in my home
i want you to leave me alone"

petting hurts shifty eyes
hugs whose true intentions lies
luna bites his lips and dies
twitching away this fucking hot day
how i would have loved to stay
tasteing sweet berries all day
but peoples noise drove me away
before i went this precious time was spent
as she lay there whisperd this i say:

"take the knife to steal a life
whispers through the door you'll hear no more
kicks flails air you're victims are there
the walls have moved the windows grooved
it's all so easy you see ripe for you and me
they're ripe for the picking the blade sticking
now we know we have to go
knowing this we'll stab and not miss
brains will overload and explode
sqishy pink dreams showed voices unclear we knowed
in a small dark room from a misty road
a blight red light will your mind overload
you'll know what to do when the time is right"

i'm addicted to angelic wings perfection forever me sings
now wondering what addictions afflictions this doll's things

i whisper again:

"be warm never morn i'm here my strawberry torn
i won't say my crimson beating way, i don't want this worn
don't want you to morn who you are to me if you can't see how you pull me be
and knowing this could to the silent be a thorn
how i love thee
my ragdoll torn"

Strawberry colored dreams

heart invaded like the best headache pill
a cordless drill to brains you spill
drip drip on the ground eat this goo we've found
oh precious goo!
goo flows forth what beautiful sound
shriek and flows away with a stick to it found

i'll catch you as you fall hold you so small
under hood this more then souls met should
hides away confides to another day
this crimson claret strawberry sweet way
a strawberry left on my desk gives me no rest from kittens on your chest

to wake with this in my bed would to life leave me dead all past to be shed peace bred to us wed
peace confide in hide in my love to thee we die line up why to me
sleep with red in my arms oh what calms this brings these beautiful things flailed limbs sings
why not me
for this is what i see
poetic justice for thee

kittens nailed to lamps post darkness mittens from thee my host like kicks flails hails in my face
poured forth to the nameless air's space faster still to this race
a boot stamping forever on a human face
babys on spikes which i likes sqeaking crys of innocence pain
as i slowly start to wear my happy mask again

turn it all off in this dark room
fills this mark of lows in this gloom
the monitor glows helps i don't knows
the closet's too full to hide in too much stuff
so to the silent shadows i'll have to be rough

it's true cause there's nothing to do except dwell on these words from you
beautiful words so deep to lonelyness my silent whispers speak
from her tear stained beautiful lone doll's face

"anywhere is a nice place"

Strawberry kisses

edible only when it's in the mouth
like all things

the heater calls to red you sped turned it on nose bled
it's demons bleeds needs you feds
don't let them rent space in your head
else to join the dead
you're better then that the heater has no hold
you'll not fold not fall
i'll close my eyes let my hands guide all
let the demons posses me carress me dress to depress me

sneak to me not to see her chin on my shoulder
another page in this cute folder
wraps arms to arms and holds her
looks to me steadily to be free
pokes my nose
pokes her back to the forehead
eyes crossed to the digit
i start to figget
my head hurts from the cute
i say doot
she trys not to be but i still see
too cute for me

hugs and sways head hurting to the pace
she's caught me a delicious bass
restrict the saying heard
only but this word
means so much to me

strawberry

Butterflyzodiac

butterfly wings sings for these golden things
a heart for thee free with me

trapped lost but i have found you
wrapped you up in my arms bound you
i stare to see there hope for we
i see you there for me

i see the pain the love you feel
on my heart's door is placed a seal
that's why our pain i cannot heal
why the world i cannot deal
why neither this can i feel
till all this is real

moths that fly past to see you sad
t'would fly fast to hear you mad
fluttered wings forever glad how you love me to this sings
how you warm me give me hope catch me fallen from death's rope

i've not been what i should your love you've showed
my love i could to your heart sowed
i'm sorry for how i am i can't lie there's no valid reason why
please don't cry to my souls sigh to this why
to die for fear what's been done to all the bright of my passion's sun
i've let this horrid nothing come for as right now this nothing's won

i'll pull this be to see us free my butterfly and me
cry pure tears to cleanse my fears
though all my heart's pain nears
this is mine till my claret clears
for this the worse of all my fears
feeling nothing as my love nears

sitting in the rain for all the pain in the corner to cry
sitting in the dark in the fields looking for the love mark lie
the pain you feel is cloned
my hearts shattered shard is owned
hope from you to cause this true
pause this to my soul's bliss pulls new
crimson butterfly wings hold me fast
my love for you that'll always last

my heart's lack of purpled black dreams
my love i must know to know what this means
hearts beating the same love not held
i don't want to feel the pain to my heart meld
this pain what it does is forever on my soul spelled
sad dreams where i die there cry as i lie there

wants to you to my heart leads pained by this my arms utter needs
hard to to see this through hurts to not be with you
crimson buttercup my nectar's found in my arms i'll wrap you round

i know you love me so care for me i know
for this was how twas so you chose me to know
you're heart to me to flow
so this to you i go
i love you so
this you must blissed know

i love you and will never let you go

Hell


Maiden of hell(best depress of hell's best)

lilly

black stained dress maggots infeast best depress of hell's best
flowing gown shoulders dark crown silver found
under black veil pale white icy eyes blood lips drips
innocence teen soft and mean true self unseen
fights the dark that's won bleed forth from the sun
halo of light gloryed night's dark days
path of the abyss never falls never miss
perfect motion in her hell's ocean
dark corner's of the earth tainted since her birth
damned to these walls twisted souls crawls
never crys for these never hears their plea's
in this world arms cut open bleed red for the dead
damned to this hope was her miss all for a stolen kiss
power of the dark consumes her pulls it away bides it not to stay
resists it for all for the fall weakens till those heart's that crawl shake bleed the horrid wall
labryinth's path knows where she is never this ever with dark shadows escapes hands with purple grapes
tricks to thee power to see walls that move she glids out within chains follows movements smooth pains
golden black at her back dark spirits within begging sin once to hide denys this win
heart's love never letting go darkness shrouds over bloods once pure flow
best dressed of hell this damned will never her know
faceless nameless my heart to show
to thee my love my darkish glow

New death child from hell

eyes that lie tongues that cry this is hell for we all die
whence from the world matters no more i am here now this is what i saw

i closed my eyes once last time
to myself i commited that crime
woke to this thought to me something miss
shattered felt something lost in my room filled with mist
the windows shut boarded up all was still pulled myself up dropped a pill
i sensed a presense all around i heard the most horrific silent sound
the first thing i said:

"oh fuck"

for in my soul i already knew that when i opened the door my hand to glue turned it more to see it through
never have i felt this utter blow dealt never in my mind more a truth felt
for what i saw i straight-way knew forever lost everything and there was nothing i could do
i opened the door saw it clear from as far as i could see my eternal suffering was here to me
this on my soul for utter truth i spell:

"i am dead and this is hell"

i stood there for the longest while dwelling on that sin i'd killed myself let satan win
i fought it within this truth that pulled me down i picked myself up from the ground stared blankly at what i'd found
i could see my house but that's not all through the strangely moss covered wall i could see it large and small
hear it now the soon to be forgotten screams of everyone that had ever died and lost their dreams
what i saw moving shapes upon each wall firey glass beneath the street sky of black endless defeat
somehow i wrenched some hope from this:

"a journey i must never lose i'll go through hell i'll find my muse"

i could see it already the icy path the damned always gather there for what's past
some still wander those streets of endless houses from their woken sleeps
not knowing where they are what has happen lost in weeps

tiles floors outstretchs as far to see far from me
in the distance unholy glow for what i now know
the icy path condemned to walk with no one to talk
if from the street this they survive to the labyrinth they died
followed those already there past the rotting streets that bare
i talked to fallen there for they were many still inside stare
said what which was there the icy path past to maze past all this craze:

"was long to be but you will see, as i know hell can't hold me"
"fight it all to find the way, in hell you didn't have to stay"

all of earths cold can never behold such a sight crystals of tall of might
chilled to the bone all there were turned to icy stone
rain poured forth from above icy water from below
valley of silver mist crevice whose there feet would miss
walking the path i heard inside a voice to my soul died:

"give up there is no hope they lied"

i pushed on despite this hellish song
suffered terrible cold that passed chilled winds came fast
noticed the endless bodies all around frozen to the ground
saw in there eyes hope lost for all this endless cold
they are frozen they are dead forever only have they thoughts in their head
beautiful figured of blue silver whose reflection of me was seen to gleam to be mirror
the mirror effect in the cut down from the ice
the poor bastards that couldn't find their way out from the path
would i leave could i walk fast
will i wander around lost cold and alone no one to talk no one to hear me scream
as i thought these things i heard again in my soul from they that eternally sings:

"forsake all hope these useless things"
"you are in all ways forever lost for all of your days"
"this is the highest order, there is no border, no hope, no chance, nothing to find in this place but a devil's dance"

i pushed on bid them away convince me another day
pushed on and found the path's way
my feet taken from the icy path to a door whose on it say:

"welcome to this nightmare
do not try to unveil the dark secrets that exist here
the labrinth past is endless hopeless lost
nothing to what you've just crossed
some places are cold, some places are hot
places that burn and mold
some are utter horror to behold
welcome to the pit of despair
once opened this door you are now there
do not fall from the stair
that would mean your death in there
do not get lost find your way out
without getting lost in the terrible labyrinth
all the minds are lost in here and souls are placed inside forever in a box they hide
trapped in the holes
we are the guardians of the souls
we welcome thee to this place of horrors, of depair and desolation
the damned sing and the souless cry for their life's lie
feel free to wander around our vast rooms
for no hope is thy tooms"

sounds of despair came from behind the gates
entered forth i to these fates
crossed i the icy path to the labyrinth's cursed mind wall's last
a thousand words cannot describe the horror of the maze in this one's eyes
from the abyss to the room countless this hell's hope is their toom
lost hope in there some the walls eyes bleed to their stare
kneel and pray to pull them back to that path to want and stay
sway today to the moss covered wall to shift and fall
endless changing rooms of personal hell's

in the room i saw myself in all of them personals hell's to choose to use any way
how they were to me i cannot say for how they'll be to you you'll know straight away

(missing text)

i feel down the stairs displaced my soul again
i picked myself up once more depsite the pain
something strange i saw no where in the labyrinth more damned then this my eyes saw before
i found myself in a bed of sin a hallowed out cavern blackened within
utter dark topless roof stoned walls written this bloodied truth:

"eyes lies lust"

many damned where there many cursed to stare for in the middle naked flesh was there
i'll not say what else i saw i'll not think of it for the spirits within their law
i paused to see what flesh entangled me
hearing again a silent sound in myself something found
something was not right even though my eyes lust held some might
saw some pleasure depsite all of everything's unholy sight
i said to myself:

"why do i this vision of something bright, fight"

i looked away to something else anything but that horrid sight
in the corner of my eye through the masses lie a flowing gown
a blacken dress my eyes looked to her someone pure found
without knowing why i chased after never keeping her from my eye
the faceless i pushed past it was too late in the distance was her fate
one last glimpse she turned around a girl but only fifteen a rose a pearl i'd found
through a wall she disappeared before my eyes i saw golden chains pulled from her already gone into stoned caverns that sing a windy song
i noticed maggots on the ground not thinking i picked one up perhaps cause for all that i'd seen i'd only since now saw shapes of a human being
something about it said something to me pulled at thoughts of something cleansed unclean and mean i dropped it forth sqished to hear the sound
thoughts of beauty in hell that i'd found

(missing text)

in the hospital i found bloodied everything walls and ground
sickened smell of rotting dead the putrid food of maggots bred

a faceless aproached paused i to see a roach on his head crawling sometimes stalling never falling
i raised my hand as he came near instead of muttered pain words i hear:

"plagarise my eyes don't depsite thys girls but guys, i fucking hate you all of you maggot ridden flys"

he then burst into flames

(missing text)

in the caverns where she'd disapeared i saw her again
saw her closer then before when to hear my voice was my only choice
i said it soft though she was far i knew she'd hear it know it true:

"i'll keep going through this nothing i do, lost in here without a clue, no one to save me but you"

she turned
fell from above in perfect motion dropped to the floor gravity was to her no law
landed from the sqirals about to the ground on a mushroom mound
blue eyes my sight found her perfect blue ocean sound
her hair was never here never there sways without a breeze to my eyes please
so many things seemed to change as she walked all but her face was never the same till she talked
her clothe's shadows rose silver that knows that hearts pure pose
when she was near her dress became clear no fluid wavering as it was
but a simple black dress blackest black to completely depress
how could i anything but do smile softly at you
i said to her knowing her repsonce would be true:

"who are you?"

"i am old and you new"

"what can i do?"

she looked away as if hiding what as to me was as to her true
something sad in her something i knew could have been something else what to do
something was not right in her not true
i could sense pain deep through i wanted to help to take it away whatever it was i couldn't bare it to stay
or was it something else something i'd found by being close to her a clue
i took a step to her not knowing what to do
i sensed her eyes widen full knowing of my want for her to hold true
she turned back and in her eyes i saw utter black not blue
i stepped back
the dark faded from her eyes to perfect blue anew

i said again:

"what can i do?"

she this time held her face told me truth in my soul slammed:

"nothing, you are damned"

i feel to the floor looking at her no more
said this weak not wanting the truth to my heart's claw:

"are you sure?

her face suddenly filled with fear as if sensing darkness near and around
i knew something else was there for i heard the whispered sound
where this sound from in her eyes i was wrong when this said:

"where is sped will this bled?"

she pointed to me to let me see

so i said:

"i feel sick yet i am dead something whispers in my head"

"without hope you are it said"

"how can we feel ill if we are dead?"

hears what she said:

"they're inside me don't you see, in us all now to hear their endless plea"
"a moment weak and us they'll hold, tie us down when we're bold"
"tear us apart from a moment rage rip us up in the cage"
"but there is nothing to fear from them nothing to weak men but a single sin here to let them win"

i heard it too inside me calling to confide me give up for everything i see there is no hope you and me
what next she said i could not believe in this place such beautiful words lips could leave:

"i love you"

for a moment those silent voices within left me
i know now what those dark spirits want
my only remaining hope myself my true
for in hell this is not as is to you not real
our hearts truth to all our appreance seal
what's in our heart's to our eyes is made real
the faceless nameless who have no seal
they are the ones that cannot deal
without hope without love to feel
the demons inside their soul did peel
took from them even the pain they feel
to the true hell where to them nothing is real
they are but souls of oblivion

not as we were then
she was lilly
i was ben

(text missing)

as for the rest of hell i'll speak of it no more
only this to say that true hell is a bore
so i'll skip ahead to when i opened the door

i ran up the stairs hopeful of what i'd find this the highest peak of hell all horrors left behind
came to this the largest room the seat of it all satan's toom
walls tall of columns reaching far to fall the room was a darkness zoom
a hall of the king was this thing the roof not seen still higher could only this mean
there was no hope
but even then as the dark took hold as my soul would fold
black wings sings inside and out shadows pulled at doubt
to all that i'd known
i saw perfection there sitting on the throne
lilly there through the darkest dark pale white maiden fair
resting in the chair

i looked at her horrified for what i thought
that she my only hope was all for naught
i said to myself inside:

"well, she is the maiden of hell"

she rose from the chair and as she stepped forth flames were there
the chair was an inferno of pain which i didn't see for all my eyes were focused on she
i looked around realizing this
all the abomination of hell's worst were there
all to me they stare
i spoke to the air said these words hoping someone would care:

"god help me for what i've done"

the dark inside shifted somewhat lifted laughed and cryed
but her voice calmed me as she sighed
she was next to me for the first time so to her i could confide
what i'd truly done why i was here
damned to this was i for a stolen kiss
i stole it from her and she took her life
so for my crime i ended mine

we looked each other in the eye
souls true to what we knew
why to her was all this true
i said weakly knowing deep that she knew:

"lilly, it was you"

she looked away remembering that day
her words pained by the truth
almost a choke as this she spoke:

"i know, i always loved you but then i cryed for what you do"
"how you lied as my eyes opened wide"
"what you did took from me can't you see killed myself for thee"
"i cryed as i lied there looking up at your lustful stare"

all was silence for so long blank realization for both our damned song

i took from her
she took herself
for this i took my own for this hell i'd roam
when i knew where i was i had to find her because
i couldn't give up i couldn't lose
till i'd found my muse
i'd killed her and so i took a pill
now in this hell i was with her still

in the center of the room where i sat
twas where the well was at
i'd heard it before tales of the well
hidden somewhere in the depths of hell
where the damned eternally crawl never escaping if they fall
my back to it
my face to her as she still looked away
i knew that there was something i had to say
more then anything i'd ever spoke this pathetically on this i choke
this more then anything i'd ever meant this for all my time here spent
as the dead i this said as on my tears the demons fed:

"i'm sorry"

she pushed me down
i fell rushing past the brick
inside of me more horrid feelings of eternal sick
all for what i'd done with my dick
i saw the well this hell the dark came in
and i knew that i deserved all of this for my sin

all was black for awhile
but when i woke somehow i found on my face a smile
though my heart found all this vile
i couldn't help but grin for how i'd payed for my sin
what else was there to have been done in the end
for all i'd done i could never mend

the silence of the well was broken
i screamed out in pain for what i saw in this new hell
on the walls to my horror in blood this truest magic spell

for that time i knew it true i saw back to what was as twas to when my hand was glue
twas the same as in the unholy hospital depths those that died before they cryed
those of small of never all never to rise tall cut down before they're born
demon's shadows in this well
on the walls to the faceless nameless this they spell
word's of blood aborted children's distorted yell:

"we are all dead and this is hell"

Misc


Liquid Gold

liquid gold on black so old
the darkest realm of the mind's sweet behold
a million stars in one space
all my tears are lost in the pace of the liquid gold
beautiful water on black paste
what a waste

Embrace the horror

all the horror ish so cute
all the blood ish so not doot
for all everything it's worth we should embrace the horror from the moment of our birth
that nothing ish right
blood and pain despite
for all it doesnt matter
for all lets enjoy the brain splatter
what does it matter
what does it matter
i want to eat your brain splatter

A meaningless existence is to be ended

all my loves are still not held
i am leaveing this world
without work
witout play
without warmth
without hugs
without friends
without love
without hate
without hope

To those i love

i'll suffer the icy path of hells aftermarth shamed and flamed by those always known as evil's fames
they'll suffer as not i'll suffer no more for one day soon you'll be at my door unhealing wounds fixed once more
pains salt in bleeding gashes limbs charred to ashes
flesh sealed in rusted blades acid to what's left fades
touch on bare skin souls burn within
without within all is sin
without you i'd have never bin

New dreams morning gleams

all before sleeping more dreams that bring weeping
plunge into darkness sleep wake to find my soul's pain weak
taste of her to my lips speak mine to her's all silence bleak
awaken from this endless dream to my love real not seem
endless rest before this day forever lost was my way
awake to silent sight wake to burning light
awoken words not spoken to glory bright

Let me rest softly

up the stairs
window's luna glow
two doors that i know
in this dark room
a stare to the corner's dark zoom
i look to something there
reaching out to embrace
to stroke my hair
i wake to nothing
i wish i was there

Can't you see?

because i am not there
let it be
so sickiningly
till i am there
blood sprays
completly past me
help me
i want to help you
i don't know what i can do
i'm unsure if i can
you won't let me
go get help
we all want it
we all need it
for as much love as i can give
i give it to you
will you love me still when you see how human i am
when you see how fucked up i am
lets be fucked up together
lets fuck each other up
lets fuck
lets love
let us be real
you make me feel
now nothing else matters
it's all pain
and its all okay again
i will never let you go my love


~(o.o)~


I don't care if you stalk me... As long as you walk with me...

We'll let this silence cradle peaceful label those that hear us those that fear us near us for they we are able

Loves tangles different angles thorns pierce hearts morns weeps crimson seaps

My heart breaks, my heart aches, one moment with you and everything is true. I love you.

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