You are So Close, but feels like a Thousand Miles Away.

 

Hearing your voice over the phone sooths my heart and I cannot help but ask if I can see you.

You say yes and my soul feels like it will fly away like a balloon on a beautiful sunny day.

When I do have a chance to feel your arms around me, I feel safe and happy.

Asking when to see you again is the hope keeps me going, and when to learn that my chances of seeing you are really small.

 

I always wonder WHY does my love for you hurt so DAMN much but I know why.

You seem so close to talk with.

You seem so close to touch.

You seem so close to sleep by.

You seem so close but feel as your too many miles away.

 

Only just a phone call away but your not there, I ask where you are at and they say work.

I know you are doing what is right but it feels like I am at the end of a long waiting list; watching as others but ahead of me. I call you again, I am told you are gone somewhere and they do not know where. My heart falls into the little pit full of negative thoughts brought up from others around me.

 

I know you are meaning to do right,

I know you are trying to prove you’re a man

to the others in disbelief. I all ready know you are. Every time I can tell you are hurt as me when you have to say, ‘No I can not see you no one is allowed over” or “there is too many people here at my house”.

 

I always wonder WHY my mind says, this is not real and he is not treating you right but I know that is all a DAMN lie heard from my mother.

You seem so close for me to be heard.

You seem so close for you to feel my kisses.

You seem so close for me to look into your eyes; see how MUCH you really miss and care for me.

You seem so close but feel as your too many miles away.

 

We may physical be just a few miles away,

we may just be a phone call away at times,

but I know we are very close in our hearts and in the back of our minds. Most of all our souls are inseparable.