As for deep thoughts recently, here are a couple. After really waking up from my oral procedure, my parents were telling me all about my time in the recovery room, as well as on the trip home, in which I was "awake" and talking with them and doing things but now I cannot remember any of it. Kind of weird. What if my seemingly lucid moments now will be that way in a few days? What if everything I am doing now is really the behavior of a much more sane human being who is just drugged and I will soon cease to exist and they will start to be again? Was it even really "me" in the sense of who I think I am, or maybe just residual chemical reactions, totally disconnected from the spiritual/soulish part of me?
Other interesting thoughts that the amnesia has brought to mind: what if I forgot something else beside just the period from 9:00 AM until 3:45 PM or so yesterday? What about childhood memories that I had never told anyone, I could have forgotten them and never even know that I had forgotten! Kind of a disturbing thought. I mean, they could even be significant memories, ones that used to come to mind often, but now they are just blanked out and I can't even remember remembering them before.
On a totally different topic, this wonderful word of wisdom from a wise friend of mine. Perhaps the need for Christianity to buck the system is why so many wonderful analogies are seen in the anarchist works of The Matrix and The Matrix: Reloaded.
"I believe systems always want to be homestatic and seek equalibrium in situations such as these. The faster cold water can be thrown on a good question, the sooner the guardians of the system can get back to sustaining the denominocentric position...Allowing the image of God within me to smile on my brother is where he finds himself. This is powerful stuff...and seems to be to be Christ's model of forgiveness too. As for your tack, you have made some good points and are likely right on a few of them. But I do believe that the system is at the root of the problem in this situation. The system wants to take the mystery out of faith. The system wants to package Jesus into sound bites. The audience wants to be stroked with the familiar."
Oh God, make me like your "One." Allow your face to shine through my life. Let the glory of your power overthrow and overwelm the feeble systems that we set up to control ourselves and each other. Break me free, shake me loose, and let me walk in the frightful freedom of the daring mountain climber rather than the comfortable safety of the tram-rider. Take me into adventure; pure, wild, untamed excitement. Danger. Thrill. And give me the strength, stamina, and wisdom to be gentle with my other adventurers, so that even the mild and fearful can be set free to clamber wildly after you. Amen.
