I really like long walks on the beach...See theres this lil lake around here we like to call "Barneys Beach". Its got a high abundance of broken beer bottles and cig butts, its so romantic. I would seriously recommend that for a weekend getaway inside a tent. I like to travel, altho the farthest from North Dakota I've been was NEW YORK CITY BABY!!! I loved that, that was one of the best weeks of my life. You know besides all the smelly streets and dirty subways. It was kewl seein all the big stuff. Statue of Liberty, World Trade Center, Empire State Building from the top at night. The city at night was one of the most beautiful things ive seen in my life. So yeah, enough about that.
I dont like pushy people, the ones who say..."so would you go on a date with me" in the first 5 minutes of internet chat. PA FUCKING THETIC..I mean come on now...what the fuck do you think..im not as dumb as i may look or sound, brah. Sorry. I hate people who go out of their way to say "youre a bitch" You know what. 1)I dont give a fuck. and 2)Its not like youre going to have to fucking put up with me if you dont want to. Tell me to grow up again bitch and youll find my shoe wedged up in your gooch, simple as that. Yeah i do hear alot that guys dont like girls who have an attitude like mine...but as i answer this..youll realize i dont give a fuck about this, and alot of other things. I hate people who cant take a joke. tight asses bore me. I hate people who say they like me but they dont even know me. Its like..."brah, wtf do you like, we said like 5 sentences to eachother". So all in all, i hate dumb people. If youre anything like me, youd know what im talkin about. Now me, sure im dumb..but its on purpose. It is pretty sad when people dont know when their being dumb. God help Them. Im not really as bitchy as i may sound, but you know just to make things clear. I mean if you show me respect, youll get it right back.
Im not the type of person to fuckin beat around the bush...Ill tell you straight out what i think. I work like, i say what i want when i want and i dont give a fuck what you think. If i have respect for you, i do care about what you think, but i still say what i want. I wont say it if i dont mean it. Tell me something...what the fuck is the use to bullshit someone? If they cant handle the truth, fuck em. Theyre gonna have to learn to deal with the sad reality that is life. Some people say, i dont talk enough, some people say i dont know when to shut up. I say, um...well i dont say anything to that. So moving on.
Some more things about me. I like to pretend im smart. And some people may believe me. SOLID. Yeah, in school i was a bad kid. But thats part of growing up. In 2nd grade, i was drawing naked fuckin stick women on the chalk board and blaming it on my friend. Yea, she got in trouble kuz the teacher didnt believe it was lil roni *halo appears* My friend had to have a parent meeting. That was funny as fuck. Middle school was aight, I ditched PE everyday, to see the fucking counselor and feed her some bullshit about me being "depressed" that she BOUGHT EVERY FUCKING DAY AT 5th PERIOD!! LMAO fun times. Yea i got into fights, i mouthed off to teachers not giving a fuck, i skipped class to smoke the ganj. Even when all that shit was goin on, i was still passin all my classes without me having to worry about graduating from Middle School. All that stopped when i got into HS. Its weird, after smokin for over a year and a half like everyday, i still quit without a problem. Yea, HS...the land of jocks and cheerleaders...crapper fuckin riffic. I dont remember much of HS just the fact that my grades dropped dramatically. I still mouthed off to every authority figure there. I kinda grew up you can say. I quit with the fights, kept to myself. You know i was the girl everyone knew but no one really talked to. The loser type kid that no one understood...Actually, i would later learn that people were scared of me because they thought i was "gothic" and that i sacrificed cats...LMAO what a bunch of fucking dumb asses. But thats high school kids for you. Always got somethin to say behind your back but never EVER nothing to say to someones face. Yea people are strange. As you live, and meet all these types of people, you realize that anything is possible...You got "silly the slut" tryin to have anyone and everyone fuck her in the ass so she can suck it clean...And you have fucknuts from foreign countries trying to feed you bullshit that NO american girl would believe unless she had down syndrome, all because they want to get to america. Man i dont know anymore, but Im done ranting fa now...There will be more here later, i promise, yo. Late
And i Promised more so here it is. Alot has been on my mind lately. Something thats stood out in my head is "thats what i like about you roni, you have alot going on upstairs" Thanks, yo. I try to take experiences from life n prevent the bad shit from ever happening again...As im sure most people do. Not alot of things bother me too much, so i can just say Fuck it when i need to. I can thank my brother Eugene for that. Hes always said no one in this life can make me happy but myself, and people are going to walk in and out of my life from time to time. That boy has alot of wisdom for only being 22. I respect him greatly just because hes helped me with anything and everything ive come to him with, i can trust him and hes good peeps. I get the vibe that people come to me with alot of things, TWICE today people have PMed me to vent about things, i got 2 phone calls...both people who needed ta vent. I only try to give the best advice i can without makin the people feel bad. I just say what i think, yo and it usually works. I used to walk through life thinking i was a dumb ass and i had ALOT of learning to do. But i am learning it all as i go along in this life and its been exciting, you can say. The upside to all this is, i gain respect and trust from people at the same time. Its kind of hypocritical of me to expect these things when i dont show them unless i like you, but thats life. HAHA. That was cocky, but moving on. Trust, is a VERY hard thing to gain from me. Half the time i dont even trust my own fuckin parents. I dont trust my sister, i dont trust anyone else in my family. I trust me, kuz i gotta be tru to myself or else im fucked in life, yo. I do trust some people in this life, and even then sometimes i am skeptical about some things. But hey, what can you do. I just do my best to keep the past from repeating. You know what, some people have some FUCKED up priorities. Parents for example. My dad won a G playin poker at the casino...and refuses to do anything this weekend, like go out of town, which hes been promising since April...because he has another Poker tournament this weekend. Well, him n ma aint doin too good as a unit. I dont blame them, they have issues and basically cant stand eachother right now. The kids are the ones who suffer the most, 8 year old twin brothers and a 14 year old sister. Lets see if this spells out dysfunctional...My ma n dad never spend time together, ma is a workaholic and dad is a gambler, never together...My sister, cant get along with my dad to save ANYONEs LIFE...My brothers are too into the Nintendo GameCube to even care about any of this crap. Its better that way for them, they dont need to put up with this family shit. Then you have me, all to myself locked up in my room. For a good fucking reason. A. to prevent from being bitched at and B. to prevent from walking in on an argument and having to play ref. My parents are 36 and 37, its time for them to fuckin grow up n do somethin about their differences, for the kids. Me, i can handle my own crap plus theirs, been doin it since i was 10, but the kids shouldnt have to because i know from experience...it was mother fucking hell all those years i put up with it. Im ou