| my Lil Notex for the Daex |
| 20th August 2003 new life... what's over is over... eVen itS neAr... it fliEs in thE sKy... Hatred, sAdneSs, rElieVeD wAs mY fEeliNgs... mOodleSs dAe.. sAD dAe... *sTrUhevOl* [important] gEt gOod rEsultS fOr o'lVL n prEliMs... i dOnt wAnna haF sO mAny reGrEtS in mY lifE...... =( *aDdEd nEw wiSh liSt... =]* (miNg&wEn) 15th August 2003 gOt brOnzE in thE nOrth zOne chineSe cOmputeR bASeD crEativE writinG competitoN..... thEn mrS fOng trEat uS tO pizZahUt tO ceLEbrATe gOod rESultS of o'lvL... :D [miNg & wEn][tOgethEr fOreVer] "yOu hOld me tO thE sKy, i'M prOud tO flY uP hiGh, shOw yOu the bESt oF miNE, tiLL thE enD of thE tiMe...." 3rd April 2003 my very very cute hamham gone to stay at the pet shop liaoz.... sobX...... Stay Cute Always... Chris... the love of my life~ =] heEx 10th March 2003 it was indeed a pleasant date to start with, although having not enough sleep. it came to the later part of the dat which deteroiate my mood for everything. i became almost moodless and i know he will never do things unless told. i dont think is romantic of him to behave in this way. i really hope that one day he would be romantic.......... anyway i felt really sian about life, nothing is interesting... everydae is just study and boyfriend o_O haiz.... another day of regrets. 20th February 2003 after so many laughters and tears, 6 months of my life had passed with my deardear, chris... although many things had happened.. i wanna tell him that no matter wad.. i will not leave you.. i treasure for whom u are...i love u for what u are... nothing goona change my love for u.... anyway, edmund, happy 20th birthedae... 7th December 2002 MeMOriEs are treasUres nO oNe cAN stEaL, paRtiNg is a hEaRtaChe nO one cAn hEal... i wan to let u know that i am just a simple ger...who want your love care and concern... you are no longer sweet loving and you treat me like ur nobody... u started to shout @ me so frequently... started to criticize abt my everything... my world..my heart shattered.. i thought i really found someone who i can rely on.. no..i was wrong... i started to doubt abt our future..our relationship.. little did i know that this is called... wrong love. But i wouldn't care so much...i really love you alot... [Innocent Alwaex Suffers] 13th November 2002 so fast already mid of november liao.. haiz... alot of unhappy things happened.... dont wan to remember...alot of questions went through my mind,,,, alot alot... am i too sensitive?... :\ i really dont know... mayb yes... but i really love him wad.... i dont wan him to end up with other girls..... *sob* till now, i already had nothing i can do but to change, change, change... i started to b afraid.. coz i know this is not the real me... will i be better off with the new me or old me?.... is he true to me?.. i dont dare to think about it anymore..... just let this relationship go its own way.. let it end if it should or let it continue if time permits.... if he really dont love me... let him go right?.. i dont wan him to suffers when he is with me.. todae is my brother's birthdae... gonna bring him go out for lan gaming and dinner... i guess so....becoz he loves it... -will chris love suwen alwaes..........?- 26th October 2002 yesterdae went out with chris.. hehe.. go fishing... then only caught two small small fish...but hehe...nvmz... very fun wor... then go to the hawker center mum mum~* eat until very very full... then todae went for npcc.... see my old friends.. jacqueline, kaiting, yushan, wenda n jason... all their faces change so much... but their pattern still the same... lol... cute n naggy =X [ remember to pump the bicycle's tyre ] [ handphone - 8310 ] [ next sat is chris's mama birthdae ] [ monthly bus concession credit - November ] [ 1 November - 3 November, got NPCC camp~* ] 21st October 2002 sorry dear.... alwaes make u pek chek... >.< i dont dare liao... i go slp... 18th-20th October 2002 sad sad sad.... start to doubt about our relationship... i dont know what's going on... looks like all is my fault.... my jealousy that had got into me... but i really love u alot.. this is what i can say... i am selfish in love... i just wan u to haf me in ur life... i am sorry for being too selfish..... 17th October 2002 todae is my papa birthdae.....almost forget...but also like that.. lol... no present for him... who ask him treat us so bad.. hmpf* go n die bah~~~~ =X 16th October 2002 wenwen go n meet weiming.. go see fishing rods then go home liao... hehe ming ming very cute =X lub him alwaes... 14th October 2002 feel so suffocating...feel like dying soonx... as my energy depletes slowly in the sadness of my love...i draw this lil heart to keep myself heartbeat going....just for u... love is alwaes mysterious.. is alwaes ready for u to find out new things abt it...... 13th October 2002 went to suntec. . . . meet alot of pple i dont wish to see... hai.. should not haf gone there... make myself so miserable... feel like crying out soon... deardear shi bu shi zhen xin ai zhe wo... *thinking* *tears.drop* ru guo you yang dong xi ni hui rang ni yong yuan kai xin.. wo xiang zhi dao na shi se mo dong xi... 7th-11th October 2002 my mind only got chris and exam.... no more space for other things liao...i guess i really love him too deep.... sort of going amok soon... ~>.<~ 4th October 2002 went to east coast....with ping moi n weiming....we go study then till 7, we went for a bicycle ride... [sad] 2nd October 2002 I miss chris alot...but i dont know what he is doing... handphone is offed and i could not contact him.... i could not concentrade on my study anymore.. where is him... felt so useles... dont understanf him @ all... dont know where he is.. what he doin.... sobx sobx.. sometimes i really wish i could stop thinking of him for a moment.. but i cant... he is like the floating cloud.. which seems to vanish from my sights anytime..... :~ when a love has no promises in it... it seems so empty.. yet with promises.. they are meant to be broken... he say that no one knows about the future... he din wan to promise me anything..... Sadness n Sorrow surround me every night b4 i sleep n when i am missing you...... does he really love me?...i felt that playing game is more important to him than to accompany me.... *SAd* [ i know i haf no rights to know whr are you... ] 27th September 2002 regretted all the things i haf done. But i think it is too late. 20th September 2002 ten daes...exactly ten daes had passed...suddenly sitting alone in the room...i had a lot of emotions... i wan to say alot of things... but there's no listening ear out there... he decided to leave me alone...here at my home... sorrowful. this is wad i can say.. i given u all i can,,but wad i get is ur ignorance... the hurtful words from ur mouth... breaks my heart... shatters them into a thousand pieces... >.< r u my true love?.. despite all the things... my love for u is not the same ..but gets deeper each dae i lived....i just want to tell u that i am not good at expressing myself.. i just wan to b with u... [wen.lub.chris] "ba mei yi ci de lian ai dang cheng zui hou yi ci, cai dong de fu chu" tmr got to go school take prize...btw wish da jia mid autumn festival happi happi........ :) 10th September 2002 went out with my chris...lolx... went to bugis..he buy me a BIG TATTY TEDDY leh.... shoo cute...keke.... then we go V8 eat...the food quite nice lah... the beef lasagne...the garlic bread also quite good..then we go shopping n went back to his home. played cs n did some revision n went for sleep @ 12am. 5th September 2002 collected my present from my ronald kor, koren n melmel. Went to make bus pass too.. 4th September 2002 *yawn* i woke up @ about 8am, i go wash up n eat my breakfast... then cut my birthdae cake liaox.... fruit cake worx... nice nice..with a lot of strawberries n peaches *yum* 1st time i manage to finish a cake with my mother.....means the cake very nice.... after that i go poa make up lesson as usual.... i go copy hm work :X then go in haf lesson... in the middle of the lesson, shiping passed me my presents.... wah~~~~ from her,weiming,beixian n yiwen worx... then my class's gers some wished me happy birthdaex....after the lesson i went to meet chris... - heex - so happy - i wore my birthdae gift n went to find chris. he bring me go bedok n grandlink :| hai [disappointed]...i tot my birthdae will be memorable......but nvmx la..i got my chris dear dear..heeeee!!~~~ 3rd September 2002 before i sleep @ 2am, my handphone beeped a lot of times... heex.. most of my friendz/ex-steads msged me hhapy birthdae, but the earliest is till my dear - chris - heex....... 1st September 2002 Empty promises made were easily forgotten. 27th August 2002 todae hor, school sibeh stress. Dont know how to explain lah....Teacher nvr come[HENG] then no maths test...HEE!!!!! <but tmr got :o( > school dismiss @ 3pm...reach hm @ 4pm... very tired.. and went to sleep till 9pm....go meet chris @ 10pm {HEE!!!} then we go mum mum prata... n i went home @ 12 + when i reach home.. i go n 'bei' compo... then talk on phone then sleep. :( boring life..... 26th August 2002 todae hor...my lesson ends @ 3pm...then i go home loh... play irc for about 5min nia then chris call me liaox.. not meeting him loh.. then went for a nap then wake up eat dinner and start my revision for tmr amaths test.... dont know wt* the book talking lah...... -=[troubled`wen]=- "A match can light up a fire, a star can light up the sky, but you are the only one that can light up my heart" life is so unfair... :~ my heart is crying -- silently...... 25th August 2002 chris go camp to do his duty...i so lonely.. but wad to do... i stayed @ home n rotx.. so sianx... called me ask me what i doing then hang up liaox...haiz............ 24th August 2002 it was another daex of horrible experiences.....imagine ur teacher bluff u...kaox... heng got dear pei me during the afterrnoon n nite.. 23rd August 2002 yet another boring daex...chris go back camp haix... only got this lousy computer pei me thru' the daex... tmr got that chinese competition... so scary n abit gan jiong too... lolx.. anyway bcoz it was the 1st time i am representing school lohh... wish me luck... gonna sleep soon... meet my lao shi 8am tmr... she drive us there wooo~~~ :P [wen.lub.chris.alwaex] 22nd August 2002 todae hor.. morning go sch got chris pei pei lohh....then after that during evening we go bugis loh...watch movie 'three' not nice @ all.... lolx during the show.. we eating sushi then i accidentally spill the soya sauce on to my top...OMG! heng we go n buy a top to change after that.. hee.... chris so caring,,,, hehe~ we later go his hse watched him play cs n i went home @ around 12.30am lohh... took a cab... -heng todae nvr see anything- :X 19th August 2002 Waited for Chris to go home till 3.45am and i really could not tahan liaox, i fall asleep on my computer table... haix when i wake up saw his missed call so worry... then later got to know he was sleeping.... kaox.. anyway...school todae is ok lohh... i hope to get full marks for my common test... heex.. i going to burn midnight oil todae....coz tmr got test... gonna misss Chris alot alot......... sobxx... click here to go back |
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