Title:Dear Diary Part 1/3: Mac
Author:Vick
E-mail:colesyrulz@yahoo.com.au
Disclaimer: this is entirely fictional etc
Note: This is a bit corny. Warning to all those who like
there to be a case, there isn't one. I kinda got the idea
to do one in this style from a JAG fanfic i read. Enjoy


Dear Diary,
My life never ceases to amaze me. Today I was basically
told that if I wanted it I had the job as head of homicide
it was mine. But do I want it? Bill’s old office. It might
be a little weird to say the least. I don’t know if I could
bear leaving everyone, only being able to see them when
they had a case involving homicide. They’re the closest
friends I’ve ever had. What if they forgot about me. I know
I have never really told them how much they mean to me,
Danni, Ange Oscar. Then there’s Pete. Good old Pete. He has
always been there for me even after I left him for the job.
I know he’s forgiven me. I just don’t know why. Since we’ve
stopped seeing each other, I’ve found myself falling more
and more in love with him. I want everyone to know how I
feel about him. I just hope he feels the same. The only
people to have found out about us are Bernie, who broke us
up, Bill, whom I was seeing and Danni.

I can’t believe that Danni is pregnant. I didn’t know she
was seeing anyone. That’s not really all that surprising, I
am her boss after all. Although, I feel a lot closer to the
team after this year. They have all been so supportive. I
suppose I just assume that as I can’t find anyone that
no-one else can either. That should change soon though,
hopefully. I wonder if we’ll be hearing wedding bells for
her in the not-to-distant future. It would be so nice to
see a member of the team with a real family. Complete. It
would show the rest of us it was possible.

I think I’ll tell everyone about homicide tomorrow. Pete
first. If I can tell it to him right, see how he feels and
get his approval it would make my decision so much easier.

Dear Diary, 
I couldn’t believe it! He was there waiting for me when I
got back from the meeting. I told him what I wanted. I feel
relieved to have finally told someone. I think he always
knew, in the back of his mind. It would be nice if he did
anyway. It was the most confusing response I have ever
received in my life. I suppose I smiled at him. The next
thing I know, we’re leaning into each other, he reached his
hand up to brush a stray strand of hair from my face. I
melted in his arms. He could have done anything he wanted
with me at that moment. I was his. We started to kiss. A
little unsure at first. We were a little out of practice.
The kiss deepened and we fell back onto the couch. Then for
some reason he just broke away. He said he had something to
tell me and he couldn’t continue with ‘this’ until he had.
It must be something important. The signals I’ve been
picking up say he’s wanted this as much as me. I can only
think that it’s bad news. Please don’t be bad news! Every
time things seem to be looking up for me something bad
always happen.

Dear Diary,
He’s the father of Danni’s baby? I feel betrayed. He knew I
would. I shouldn’t though. He’s had other girlfriends
before. I’ve had Bill. He says it isn’t serious, that he
doesn’t love her but it is serious, there’s another person
involved. At least I heard it from him. I suppose that
means he cares. He knew that telling me could lose him his
job depending on how I took the news. Maybe there could be
a future for us. If we really want it. Either way, I think
it’s best for me to take the homicide job.