okay, this isn't really a fic either, but yeah. i was in one of those 'god 
my life is crappy and i would so walk to a cliff and throw myself off it, 
but that would take WAY too much effort right now' moods. you know the one 
;) so yeah, this is an entry into Angies Diary, if she had one. SO, yeah. 
Title: Angie's Diary 
Author: Catt, ie: ME 
Disclaimer: Bugger you, I don't own em, they would be A LOT more screwed in 
the head if I did. 

I feel like I’m drowning. Danni, Mac, Pete and Oscar; it used to be enough. 
THEY used to be enough. Oscar and I, we used to be close. You know how with 
some people you can just sit with them for hours and come away feeling like 
you had the most deep and meaningful conversation, without actually having 
said anything? We used to be like that, now I can barely stand to be in the 
same room as him. Where did it all go wrong? Sometimes I feel so lonely. 
It’s been so long since I’ve had someone’s arms around me, played with 
someone else’s fingers, just held someone else’s hand. Sometimes the 
loneliness is so suffocating, claustrophobic, consuming and all I want to do 
is stop and scream. But it’s not like anyone would hear me. And all this 
business with Sam just made it worse. I can’t believe Oscar did that! How 
COULD he! He had no right to do that, but just like I said to him, one day 
I’ll be there when he least expected, just for him. And when that day comes, 
he’s gonna realise just how much he hurt me. We used to be a team, the 
perfect match, almost like the dream team of undercover. Things were getting 
better between us, since all that stuff with the backpacker and what he said 
to her, but now, now I don’t even know if I can trust him again. This is 
going to affect our work, I know it, but I don’t know how to fix it. He 
doesn’t have a clue how much he hurt me, how deep this runs. He’s completely 
ignorant to the fact that I can’t even face him without my eyes welling up 
with tears. I wish I had someone to talk to too. Mac is never around 
anymore, and Pete and Danni, well they just lost a child together! I’m not 
about to go and put this on them, that’s not fair. Danni did come to me and 
ask if I was okay, but I couldn’t speak. I felt so rude, just walking away 
from her, but I think she understands. I hope she does at least. I need some 
time off I think. I want to do so much with my life, and none of it is 
happening. I know it never will unless I do something about it and now is a 
good a time as any. But if I did leave, wouldn’t I just be running away from 
things? I feel like I am. But I need something else. Something different. 
Something more that this… 

There you go. Feedback would be good, but that would inspire me to write 
more, and thats probs not a good thing if you have ever read any of my 
stuff. and yes i just realised how stupid what i said is. OMG ok, breakdown 
for catt, NIGHTIE NIGHT :S:S:S:S