Hi. My name is Shiela. I'm a believer.
I struggle with Obesity and Compulsive over eater.
I am now in a club with a few in my church and other people who want to beat obesity.
If it was not for this club I would of given up after gaining that 4 lbs. in the first 2 weeks. I was so hurt by that and it was reminding me of the hurtful words that haunted me all my life that I could do nothing right. I was always judged and compared to a sister. Celebrate Recovery in our church gave me a life I never dreamed I could have. Setting be free of an abusive past and giving me a new life in Jesus. I hold on to a verse I choose in recovery Phil. 4 :13 " I CAN do ALL things THROUGH Christ who strengths me." I can and will. I changed my life through HIM in the whole past year in Recovery. Once I learned how the hurting people could be put to rest in side of me and learned how to over come the things they had done it was like locking a door that leads to denial where I lived all me life. I did not want to face a lot of things either in fear of doing it or not admitting where some of my own fault were. I went to Celebrate Recovery web site. They had a list of things. WEIGHT was one. I took the test on the site and then looked at the results. It says where your answers fit in. I had signs of one with anorexic but the biggest answer that hit me hard was "COMPULSIVE OVER EATER." I though NO not me..... that is wrong. I left the site and tried to do things around the home to forget that. I tried to get back into the denial room in myself. I couldn't. What I learned over the year in them classes now open me eyes to reality. The door was locked to denial and I then had to face my results and deal with it. Then Barb came to me and told me about this club. I said I would think about it. I tried to put it back in my mind and talk to others in the room after class. The door was still locked that I was trying so hard to open and hind once again. I then turn and walked back to Barb and said ok!! I am in!! I weigh 274. (this was before the rise in 4 lbs that put me at 278 last week}. I can not wait to weigh in the morning which we do every Wed. I messed up some but got back on track. SOOOOOOOOOO only the scales knows for sure. Now for the rest of the story........... tune in Wed. morning. Ok It is now Wed. morning and praise the Lord I dropped 9 lbs. this week.
Shiela