it is silent all around here
lost in thoughts of compassion
i know its okay to cry these tears
but what i know, i haven't allowed
kept inside like a river slowly rising
and sooner than you'd know, i've drowned
within this selfish skin i'm wearing
and you know that i've gone crazy
inking words that don't even rhyme
a poet gone insane with this emotional frenzy
its not as easy as i try to get it by
the sun is rising before me
it is lonely in this space around here
i've been thinking all morning
and i know its okay to despise what i hear
but what i've heard, i haven't excepted
blocked it out, won't let it in--im too afraid
because i know that life is cruel and i feel rejected
why fuel the the temper when its already on fire
and you know that i've gone mad
speaking words you know aren't the truth
a friend you wish to embrace, is sad
more than she'll admit to suffice what you knew
the light is falling before me
a cold wind follows the fallen darkness
i haven't moved the entire day
and i know its okay to be helpless
but what i've seen, i haven't awknowledged
a sympathy note that i will not oblige to
i don't want to be the one you pity instead
because i am weak, though strong inspite of you
and you know that i've gone far away
to a place within that you can't penetrate
for there is no night and surely no day
nothing could touch these eyes, except to wake
the night is casting before me
a sky of stars with wishes looking blank
i haven't felt anything in me lately
and i know its to be truly expected
but what i've expected was none of this
i'm like a tattered lace worn to many times
nothing will be as it always has and is
for i have become numb as fears chime
and you know that i've tried to fight
tried to be stronger then some could ever be
but what i've tried, has failed as anything might
good day, good night-- this is the rest of me