i've kept our fantasy in my heart, silently
and now that your roaming, i have to watch instead
saying no thank you, i don't think of you that way
and all i wanted to say, i won't stutter
i'll tell you no, and i'll think yes
surely you don't know how much you can matter
pretend i will that its not those lips i want to kiss
oh the lonely woes of cruel and unjust hours
beg for my eyes not to dream again of you
what an apathetic agony of these violent matters
i'll conform to it, yet i'll break; rupturing too
all i wanted to say, are the words you long to hear
yet i'll retrace the wave of sounds within my head
for what i am, for what i do, for what we'd become here
you deserve better than a yellow painted cement road
and all that i wanted to say, is that i love you
i love you, i admire you, i treasure you, i honor you
oh how i do love you endlessly, but it can't come true
for all that i'll say is, i don't need you like that