My Feeble Flare xx
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	i have sent you so many different signs. signs that go unanswered no matter how dramatic my plea. is it so hard to say what your feeling these days? what is so wrong with being vunerable within my arms? tell me, why do we bother in loving if all we fear is our heart breaking? so here goes nothing-- i send out my last flare into this restless night. something within me knows your skin will feel its warmth, but your eyes will stay closed. because if you ignore it, its not really there. and as it bursts into the night, my hope of all that would have been--will be departed. there is no use in chasing something that refuses to be caught. just like there is no use in loving someone who refuses to be loved. i was ready to let it go, to take it down--to let every one of my colors show. i wanted to paint you with my love, darling. yet, you wish to remain a canvas of white--so i will leave you now. feel my flare fading out. fading. fading... gone