i catch a glimse of the pale moon as I rise from wrinkled sheets
and into the dark my breath flies, a statement of whats to say
she sleeps silently across this barren land of utter chaos
-and as she sleeps, my heart screams
if I hold my breath long enough, I can almost hear her
and if I go on living numb, perhaps one day it'll be her I feel
yet tonight as I imagine my saving grace in sweet slumber
i know i've let her down; i am undeserving and shameful
-and as she sleeps, my heart screams
time has always been my alibi, one so carelessly said
it was never because I couldn't, but only because I wouldn't
and if only I could change it, but nothing will change it
as my friend walks the highwire, I will watch--but I won't save her
-and as she sleeps, my heart screams
tonight though there is no real means to tell her, I wish--
I could tell her ever sin I've done, despite her fragile heart
and it would be foolish to pretend her tears aren't because of this
because despite my reasoning, there is no reason--only my selfish heart
for as I slept every previous night before, I ignored her hearts screams
but now as shes relinguished into sleep, it is my heart that now endlessly screams