The ones to make insanity somehow sane
To make beautiful whats been long denied
A white coated answer to the questions I feign
But resolve doesn't come that easy
I wrote down what I felt and kept it for myself
But what I feel is still screaming within
It's like a bloody mascre of the words you left
And I don't know how to cope and begin again
Cause expiation doesn't come that easy
I've seen the hundred different faces of dysphoria
And all I've ever wanted is to stand on the edge
Of where my road meets some grand euphoria
But all of this waiting doesn't seem to add up to much
For my refutation doesn't come that easy
I don't know what will calm these waves
Apathy blankets me as I try to sleep despite bedlam
I pray to find a dream in which killing you saves
My mind from what I used to be and now who I am
But I should know insouciance doesn't come that easy