| March 14th I am writing this as I watch a kitty throw down, better than wwf yo! Anyway, I have a final exam wednesday which the professor has stated we merely need to do better than random. High standards they are holding us to. this week should prove eventful as st patricks day approaches :) whoo hoo. What else is new? I saw some old friends this weekend as we treked about soho and little italy in freezing cold wind. But I did get to do something I have been hoping to for awhile, eat a cannoli from ferrara's. Let me tell you, it was heavenly, however, it isn't in the bag for best cannoli ever, I will be doing a blind taste test with corteses. yum! I also watched the passion of the christ this weekend. I waivered between on the verge of vomiting and crying for most of thd movie. I cried literally for 15 minutes during the movie. and it wasn't that crying you do -- I am so moved by this movie (like how I cried at "I am sam"), it was more like, how could anyone make such a horrible, visually graphic, horrific movie of extreme torture. deeply horrific. deeply On a lighter note, I encountered a homeless man on the subway this weekend, surprise surprise, who prophetically declared, "I am going to fucking vomit tonight." at which point I moved to the other end of the train. Ah, new york. |
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| March 25th As craig would say, its my birthday eve, but I don't believe in such things. This week has been fun so far, although tiring. Rose has come into town with the chad and we had the annual birthday dinner with her handsome father at meson sevilla (who is one extremely generous man). the sangria was better than ever. Then last night, after being a tired cranky girl, we went to mimi's the always fun piano bar on second avenue. and somehow, I ended up singing. Thanks for singing with me rose. I appretiate it. Oh, and I can't forget to mention the beautiful albeit loud serenade to me and rose by craig and the chad. Wow. They must love us. the only thing that is concerning me from last night is that the right side of my face is numb, hmmm. I don't think that is normal. Anyway, enjoying my new laptop, trying to get on a morning schedule, and finish up some school work. Jax is coming into new york tonight, watch out! |
| March 29th Well, I'm trying to stay positive, so I will keep the negatives to a minimum. However, I was very hurt on my birthday. I know people have lives outside of me, but its only one day out of the year. I guess I was getting greedy, but when friday came and went and from my family all I got was a few phone calls for my 25th birthday, I was very sad. My friends all did very well. . . cards and a few gifts here and there. And Craig's family was more than generous with their birthday wishes (which subsequenly put me on a bent-- how can they be so thoughful and everyone else barely remembers?) I guess to me its not about the presents, not at all-- its more that there was some thought of me on my birthday, letting me know that I am appretiated even after all these years and that they are glad I am alive for one more year. A phone call expresses that well enough, but a heartfelt card or letter means more. The bottomline is, I wasn't trying to make anyone feel badly, especially my own mother, but I felt un appretiated on my birthday, the day I crave love the most, and the dearth of appretiation was from the people I need it from the most, my family. Anyway, enough on that, I am looking forward to this weekend cause spring break starts and I am going on a road trip with my overworked mom to illinois to visit family. I can't wait!! I must finish this paper first. . . today! |
| March 30th So, I forgot to tell a quaint story about last week. One of rose and my friends was planning to come down to visit during our birthday week to visit and celebrate. Rose even makes a hotel reservation for her on her credit card to make it easier on her. She arrives late wednesday night/thursday morning, forcing rose to wake up at 230 am to go check her in. Thursday, I finish with classes at 330 and check my voicemail only to find a message from rose saying she can't get a hold of jax. She has left 3 or 4 messages at this point. Me and rose get together and I leave another message for her. So at around 6 I suggest maybe checking to make sure they are even still at the hotel. . . we get an extra key to their room...empty, but someone has been there. Weird right, so rose and I head back to my place-- we hang out for a few hours then head to dinner around 7 or 8. We call her again to tell her where we are going. Still no answer at the hotel. ok, so we eat dinner and dessert, still no word from her. Some of us are worried, some angry. We get back to the hotel around 11 pm on thursday nigh. We head up to their room again, knock 3 times, nobody is in there. ok. . .so we open the door. The bathroom door is shut, the room filled with fresh cigarette smoke and the tv is on, but muted. Hiding in the bathroom, who knew they could be so immature. So we head down to the lobby to cancel the reservatoin off of rose's credit card. When we are waiting in line, rose spots our friends fiance, says his name and he gets this look like oh shit We are caught. Then from behind the shadows, there she is. The best excuse they could come up with is we didn't have our cell phone, we tried to use the phone in our room at 9 to call you but its broken, we didnt' have money to call long distance to rose's cell phone. They didn't call earlier before 9 because they didn't know what the plans were. Meanwhile, their cell phone starts ringing. (mind you we couldn't call their cell phone because when they checked in they told rose they didn't bring it) You are not only a bad friend Jaquelyn Alexander, you are a BAD PERSON. You don't treat your friends like that. You don't lie to them to their faces (or behind their backs). And when you get caught in a lie you don't make up more. You don't come to new york to treat them that way. Messed up right? I thought so. A day in the life I guess :) My sugar cookie is coming over soon yay! |
| April 15th several weeks have come and gone, and I have stories to tell. First, I spent a wonderful sleep deprived week in illinois with my mother. It wasn't quite what I had hoped it would be, but it was really great to learn more about my family, hear stories about my ancestors-- so many in fact that I felt like I knew most of them. It was sort of like reading a book, cept all the stories were from the mouth of my cousin sharon, and gracious hostess. Ok, moving on, I am back at school now. . .only three weeks left of classes, not that I am counting. I had my bar application notarized today. . . no turning back now. Next, an another one of those amazing, only in new york stories. Craig and I needed comfort food last night, so we went out to eat at chat and chew. We enjoyed our meals and were contemplating dessert. So, when the jerk waiter came over, finally, to ask us if we wanted dessert I said, yes, but can we see the menu. He replies, no exageration. "No, but I can tell you what we have." he then proceeds to run thru the dessert menu and walks away. I looked at craig and I was like, did he really just say we couldn't see the menu? and craig looked back at me with the same incredulous face and says yeah he did. What the heck? only in new york would someone in a service profession be so rude!!! anyway, craig is almost done with surgery, thank god, because the two twats that are on his team are being such bitches to him. I swear to god, if I ever meet either one of them, they will be very sorry they have been acting like such selfcentered heartless trollops that they are. Its never a good idea to be on my bad side, luckily those two are removed from me and I love craig too much to embarass him by doing anything stupid. Anywho, enough on that, tommorrow is friday and there is much promise for a wonderful weekend |
| April 29th People are crazy man. I saw a sign in the post office today when I went to pick up my package that said "inquiry clerks have been instructed not to serve customers who put their package slips in their mouths." my question is, how many people did that before they decided they had to put a sign prohibiting it? Jeez! Speaking of package, I ordered 2 body for life books to help me get started on the 12 week challenge. I am officially starting on monday. Basically, its a diet exercise program where you eat 6 nutritious means a day, do intense weight lifting 3 times a week and the alternating 3 days you do 20 minutes of aerobic exercise. The 7th day is a free day where you can eat all the junk you can cram into your face. The transformations are pretty incredible, but I am going to need mad support during the first 2 or 3 weeks, so if you can, please help me stick to this. . .I need your unending love and support! On another note, some jerk keeps walking by my window with a boombox, playing shitty music too, and poor sophie is going crazy, she keeps growling at him. Folks, I have one week of classes left, 2 weeks of finals, and then graduation june 1st. Unfortunately, since our graduation is so late in the year, the bar review class starts before finals are over, which is not a good thing. The impending changes in my life have made me start thinking seriously about what a I am going to to do with my life. Its funny because 90% of the things I can think of that I would love to do, do NOT involve a law degree. Versatile degree my ass! anyway I am hanging in there. . .keep on trucking folks! www.bodyforlife.com |
| May 2nd I just spent 30 minutes writing a pesronal deep look at myself, and what I am going through right now. And as a sign of how things are for me right now, I was trying to delete a word I had spelled wrong, and the ENTIRE entry was erased not to be undone by control z. I accept defeat. :( |
| May 3rd Happy birthday dena! On another note, I have to preface my journal by saying bring it on! I have made it this far in my life and neither hell nor highwater is going to stop me now. Apparently when I said I accepted defeat, my body believed it. I have shingles. Now, if you don't know what this is, let me explain. Usually old people or the imuno comprimised get it. I fall into the latter category. It is the same virus as the chicken pox virus, basically, if you have had chicken pox, it is possible you can get it. They don't know why some people get it and others don't. I know. Its people who accept defeat and their bodies are punishing them. No but seriously. I have also learned that chicken pox is actually a form of the herpes virus. As is shingles (also known by herpes zoster). So the medication I am on is valtrex, the commonly advertised herpes medication on tv. The pharmacy guy was giving me the drugs with caution. But I am NOT contagious. Even if I were, you would have to be intimate with my lower back to get it. So anyway, when I called my personal doctor to look at my blister, he looks at it and is like, its herpes, and I hit him and say you are a jerk, no, what is it really. and he says, its herpes. Again, I hit him, call him a jerk, and ask him to tell me what it really is. repeat this for 10 minutes and you have me and craig's day yesterday. I was very sad to think I had herpes. But I felt better when I realized that most people have had this very same herpes-- only in the form of chicken pox. So, I am fine, I just have some sensitivity/pain in my lower back region. I think its funny that this happened now. Heh, reminds me of when I randomly got fifth disease in seventh grade. lovely Day one of BFL is ok, I haven't been able to do the 6 meals becasue my stomach hurts, but I have eaten approved meals and I am giong to lift weights later. ciao. |
| May 4th not a bad day so far, didn't wake up half as early as I hoped, but I am off to a good start, I have a sweetie pie on my lap mixing my belly, so I won't complain about much. Today I go pick up my cap and gown, which is pretty damn exciting. I have also mapped ou my study plan for the next 2 weeks. . . pretty amazing people! I have discovered that I truly thrive in these crunch time situations, don't know why, but I should pry take note of that for future career plan reference. I just get this tingly feeling in me and I feel like I can crush the shit out of anything that comes my way with the help from a detailed calendar and several to do lists. Day two of BFL going great. . . I feel just a little sore from yetsterday, but really great inside. Later! |