i have lived my life
feeding off the pain within
when i finally expire
i'll die broken
SCREAMS
my only comforting release
TEARS
create a puddle at my feet
BROKEN
a heart beats in monotone
LOVE
something i have never known
TRUST
i so foolishly give
FEAR
why do i still live
HOPE
the mask that hides the blade
GOD
i was a great mistake
beat me down and steal my soul
steal my dreams
my potential
what have you stolen?
NOTHING
what i have become
SLAVE
i am not my own
PLEASURE
cannot kill the hate
SERENITY
that part of me was raped
EMPTY
have become my dreams
DYING
what i wish to be
BLOOD
still pumping in my veins
LIVING
driving me insane
i'll be standing at the end of time
when finally i can close my eyes
feel the pain seeping away
the end of all my decay
the healing of a tarnished soul
the only star out in the cold.

all text Copyright Cary Preston Richards, 1999