April 3, 2003
My foot is healing and soon I will be back to work. During the time "off" from my usual work schedule routine I have had time to think and review my direction of life.
I have three things I relax in and enjoy in life:
1) The time I can spend with my kids, especially what we have learned about each other in playing an internet game called Everquest.
2) Watching tapes and writing. As long as I am not under any "deadline", I thoroughly enjoy these two together.
3) Developing internet friendships and receiving e-mails at times. Every Sunday I have off in my two-week work cycle I plan to use to send e-mails to my friends who enriched my busy work week with a nice e-mail to read or look at.
I have three things I plan to apply myself to (and maybe enjoy, at least at times) :
1) Faith - I believe everyone has the right to believe as they wish. I am searching for direction within faith. I would love if any friend wants to talk about their faith or even their lack of faith. I currently share my faith by just being who I be
I ask you to share about your faith (or your reasons for lack of faith) if you desire to know mine. I have learned so many wonderful things being able to talk about faith with friends. I will love to answer any questions about faith as I am able to. I hope you would return the favor if I would have any questions for you of your faith.
2) Work - my workplace needs a lot of help right now if we are to survive and continue. There is a lot more stress upon me if I just work my scheduled hours. Working overtime really helps the company right now and I will use some of the funds for my kids and their present/future college expenses, but I will also set aside, as I already have set aside quite a sum now, to accomplish my dream vacation if it is ever to happen.
3) Personal Development - the house always needs work, a garden and yard need attention, and so does my mind, body and spirit. I am resolved to get back in to the shape I once was, although I doubt anyone will confuse me with being a marine like they used to. I am just too old to get in that good of shape. But if my life does enter a new phase, I want to be able to offer the new life the best I can. Which means I need to discipline myself into better shape, mind and spirit as well as body (the body may be the easiest). I want Mickey Mouse to be proud :)
I have a dream I would love to do May 2004 :
Disney World with a few very special female friends who believe enough in me they say so and show me so. I will want to show my appreciation to the cheerleaders of my life by returning the favor with a special vacation. There will be no sex no matter what!!! Sex is a sacred act to me and belongs within the scope of marriage. Another whirlwind romance and marriage will not be what I am looking for. My dream would be fulfilled if we all just had a good time and I would have memories and pictures of our special time together. This is a dream I have had a long time since taking kids there. At one time it would have been my kids, two friends with one of their kids. Serious enough I made the deposits. The one with the kid backed out (the other friend was her close friend even and felt sad we were not going). This dream is for adults and only if I get at least three who would like to and they like me for me and wish to share e-mails with me somewhat often. That way if one backs out at the last moment, there are at least two. If two, then we each have our own room. I have decided I will go on the trip even if all three cancel and, hopefully, find what I am searching for while there. Maybe I would dream again some day. Well, this is me and my goofiness. You do not have to be part of the dream to be an e-mail and "story" sharing friend. I hope all who read this knows that I am not saying you all need to be caring about this goofy guy. Your liking to read the stories whenever one is done is appreciation enough.
Thank you and may God bless all of us,
Wayne