Written by Tab B.
So much to look back on.
Nights that haunt me still.
Moments I knew I would break.
Days that looked as if they'd never end.
All tucked away in what seems like another life.
But it still surrounds me.
Away for awhile, they come creeping back.
Those memories I gave up so long ago.
Those times I'd give anything for forget.
Anything to make them disappear.
Disappear-the same destiny I want for you.
Promises you never kept.
Trust broken everyday.
Every touch made me shudder.
Every stare made me sick.
Trespass, torture, pain, lies every night.
Lies constantly, every word, every smile.
We put on a show everyday.
For them, for everyone.
But alone, the truth hurts.
The truth killed a part of me.
A part of me I'll never get back.
You took it away from me.
I knew it was wrong, but you didn't.
I begged you to stop, and you wouldn't.
I wanted to tell someone, I couldn't.
I still can't, what if I could?
Those times nothing was said.
Silence cut me deeper than words ever could.
Quiet moments screamed louder than I ever did.
Nothing to say because nothing you said ever meant anything.
What you did said it all.
You can't control me anymore.
You can't hurt me like you used to.
No more power and no more lies.
I can't take it, I can't stand it.
And I won't.
I'm beyond it, I'm above it, but I'm no where near over it.
You may be the center of what tried to consume me.
But you'll never be the center of what I have now.
What I have now is more than you could ever give me.
And what I have now is something you can never take away.
What I have now is freedom.
So much freedom that I don't have to dread every second of being with you.
I don't have to be with you.
No more lies, no more promises, no more suffering.
No more you.
Your helpless victim is gone now.
Just like you should be.
No more guilt, no more regret.
And no more pain.
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Written by Tab B.
Hiding away in dark corners.
Sneaking around in the night.
Secrets kept, whispered words.
I know it's wrong but it feels so right.
Shadows lick the walls around us.
You hold me in your arms and we kiss.
I feel so confused as I return your embrace.
Should we really be doing this?
My heart and mind conflict each other.
Torn apart two separate ways.
I should feel guilty, I should feel bad.
But at your touch my insides blaze.
Maybe one day I will realize.
This burning passion I cannot deny.
I can't refuse your gentle words.
Or the love you supply.
But still I am uneasy.
Because there's always a chance.
That someone will find out.
About our romance.
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Written by Tab B.
As the stars faded out of sight,
and the glitter no longer showed.
The moon stopped from rising,
as the whole earth slowed.
Things became backwards,
and everything wrong became right.
My entire world seemed together,
all because I dreamt of you tonight.
All this time I've wasted,
came back to me again.
All this life I've wasted,
time and time again.
Lights became bright,
the moon was set in our skies.
The stars glittered once more,
but only the ones in your eyes.
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Written by Tab B.
Love is torture
There are seas of tears
And mountains of thorns
Yet, I'm ready
To cross them all
My love
Is deeper than seas
And higher than mountains
And I have my dreams
To live by
I just need you now
To make it all real
Because you're the one
Who completes my soul
Giving me faith
To pull myself
Above all pains
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Written by Tab B.
I look into your eyes,
and you look into mine.
My old life dies,
and the sun starts to shine.
I want to hold your hand,
and give you all my love.
I hope you understand,
you're all I'm thinking of.
You are the only one,
that I want to see.
My life has just begun,
and I want you with me.
No more time for tears,
I'm done crying.
You chase away my fears,
and I'm no longer dying.
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Written by Tab B.
I can feel you near me,
when you are so far away.
I guess this is how it will be,
until my dying day.
I want you to know me,
from the inside out.
I don't want sympathy,
I just want you to know what I'm about.
You're just a few feet away,
but I can feel you slipping.
I just don't know what to say,
this love I keep on gripping.
Our eyes meet,
and you just know how I feel.
You sweep me off my feet,
and know the love I feel is real.
You're so far away,
but you're forever in my heart.
I want you to stay,
so I won't fall apart.
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Written by Tab B.
I am a poet writing of my pain.
I am a person living a life of shame.
I am your daughter hiding in my depression.
I am your sister making a good impression.
I am your friend acting like I am fine.
I am a wisher wishing this life weren't mine.
I am a girl who thinks of suicide.
I am a teenager pushing my tears aside.
I am a student who doesn't have a clue.
I am the girl sitting next to you.
I am the one asking if you care.
I am your best friend hoping you'll be there.
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Written by Tab B.
I've come to a conclusion,
that most guys are the same.
That it's not all my fault,
that they're the ones to blame.
I'm sick of being lied to,
and sick of being hurt.
I feel like I've been beaten,
and thrown in the dirt.
I do my best to make them happy,
and make it worth the ride.
But I always end up crying,
and finding another place to hide.
My life has come down to this.
It's no longer worth living.
I'm done; I can't do it anymore.
I'm done forgiving.
So I ask that one special guy,
if he's even out there...
Can you save me?
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Written by Tab B.
It all started out the same
But when it was all over
You never forgot my name
First you came in
And started to fight
I knew I wouldn't win
So I just said "good night"
You didn't like my answer
So you took your first swing
Thinking it would be over
As I felt the sting
But you kept getting madder
At everything I did
So I decided to turn around
And you flipped your lid
You threw me to the ground
Hit me more and more
I just gave in
Not knowing what was in store
I didn't think it was so bad
Until I saw the blood
Then I knew what I was in
So I tried to run
But you wouldn't let me go
You just held me to the ground
I screamed and screamed
Then stopped making a sound
The silence crept upon you slowly
You didn't realize what you did
You've killed me, haven't you?
My body you must rid
Maybe it was my fault
For putting up with your shit
If I would have stood up and left
You'd might not have hit
But what's done is done
No need to shed a tear
Because tonight's a different night
And I'm no longer here.
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Written by Tab B.
Why does life treat him this way?
Making him struggle through each day.
Hoping the next will be his last.
His world so vast.
His future dim.
Because there is no one there for him.
He is all alone.
One day that pain is gonna reach the bone.
And he will die.
There will be no one there questioning why.
Because no one cared.
About the burdens he bared.
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Written by Tab B.
How can someone be so heartless?
How can someone be so cruel?
How can someone use another,
making them feel like a fool?
How can someone not care,
how they hurt others so deep?
How can someone be so selfish,
and still get a goodnight's sleep?
How can someone like you,
forget your victim's face?
I'm sure that where your heart should be,
is a wide open space.
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Written by Tab B.
Time to tear myself away.
From the pain that you caused.
From the heart that you stole.
And the life that you paused.
Time to make myself forget.
The memories we made.
The better things and times.
And the scars that stayed.
Time to make me realize.
That to you it was another.
And to me it was a first.
And perhaps there will be others.
But you will remain the worst.
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Written by Tab B.
The children stopped playing,
the Christians stopped praying.
The media stopped reporting,
the mothers stopped aborting.
The players stopped winning,
the people stopped sinning.
The whores stopped fucking,
the queers stopped sucking.
On the day the world died,
I think its time to say good-bye.
The singers stopped singing,
the pain stopped stinging.
The clowns stopped amusing,
the addicts stopped abusing.
The pornographers stopped taping,
the perverts stopped raping.
The authors stopped writing,
the people stopped fighting.
On the day the world died,
I think its time to say good-bye.
The alcoholics stopped drinking,
the shit stopped stinking.
The animals stopped mating,
the haters stopped hating.
The hopeless stopped needing,
the victims stopped bleeding.
The strong stopped surviving,
the people stopped thriving.
On the day the world died,
I think its time to say good-bye.
There is no hope,
no hope,
no hope at all.
There is no chance to stop this fall.
In the flames the earth shall burn,
based on nothing we have ever learned.
It will overtake what we call society,
there will be nothing left for you and me.
You can't cope,
you have no hope.
No reason to try,
just say good-bye.
A bright flash of light,
nothing left but white.
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"The Day the World Died: Part 2"
Written by Tab B.
Keep us safe brave protector,
hidden in another sector.
Violence spreads across the plane,
surely driving us insane.
Death appears in blue,
no one's sure what to do.
Completely sure, self imploding,
shortly after the downloading.
Sexual dream, pervert exciting,
media keeps everyone fighting.
Vile and sick insolence,
loss of all innocence.
Brain defect, slip into madness,
wallow in the deepest sadness.
No one anywhere even cares,
the world is closed for repairs.
AIDS infected, death surprise,
the kinda that sucks out your eyes.
Save it all, back up disc,
never realize the real risk.
Return again, the machine,
keeps up the same routine.
Over death, up to die,
only time to say good-bye.
Will we miss the care?
Pain intense cannot bare.
Will we miss the thought?
So many wars that were never fought.
Will we miss the feel?
No life left, no soul to steal.
Will we miss the chance to try?
Will we miss to say good-bye?
Will we miss what is right?
Will we miss the fade to white?
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"The Day the World Died: Part 3"
Written by Tab B.
Forgive me for I have sinned,
broken promises I can never mend.
Hatred and anger that cannot be contained,
but this evilness I freely choose to maintain.
Trapped in a scattered mess,
I want a God better than this,
don't need to pray for what is his,
this fucking God I surely won't miss!
Give me the violence,
a God to silence.
Give me the Hell,
a God to kill.
For my sin of hate,
no reason to deviate.
For my sin of fear,
a mean and evil leer.
For my sin of wrath,
a finely beaten path.
I am the killer,
violent blood spiller.
I am the dreamer,
beautiful mind cleaner.
I am the faker,
personal rights taker.
So much sorrow in the world since I was born,
take me and give me a crown of thorns.
Nail me high on a cross,
I have time to validate my loss.
So much evil that I hold within,
forgive me for I have sinned.
While the earth is hot,
God can rot.
A society to sell,
all gone to Hell.
You didn't save my soul,
nothing left but a fucking hole!
I can say I try,
to make God die.
I say good-bye.
Coming on so bright,
religion fades to white.
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"The Day the World Died: Part 4"
Written by Tab B.
Dressed in all black from head to toe,
what he has planned, we do not know.
A brother to keep,
lead the sheep.
Taken to slaughter,
raping your daughter.
He extends his hand to the weak and sore,
he burrows himself deep inside the core.
He has a sinister grin,
no doubt of the evil that's held within.
Build up your depression, keep it seathing,
and you can do anything, just remember to keep breathing.
Don't think of the pain, don't think of the harm,
just take the blade and drag it up your arm.
You begin to bleed,
that's all you need.
Quickly to the fall,
bullet in your head, your brains splattered on the wall.
Once you get over the filth and get over the mess,
it's really not that bad, suicide is painless.
Suffer no more,
death's door.
Never tell,
burn in Hell.
Endless death,
nothing left.
Blood spilling,
constant killing.
Coming soon,
endless doom.
Just close your eyes,
and say good-bye.
Flash of light,
so bright,
no sight,
only white.
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