love letters straight from the heart

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It's entitled: "101 Reasons Why I Love You, Zach"

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Long I slept. Not a real sleep, but a sleep during waking hours. I went through the motions, just getting buy. Keeping myself busy so I wouldn't notice the empty spot in my heart.

Then I met you. You who could make me laugh, make me think and you, who made me feel again.

My love, you are the greatest thing in my life. You make me see the world with wonder again. Everyday I wait to talk to you, hear your voice. Your kiss is the fuel for my life now. Thank you.

hi you,
i miss you so much. 4 more days and you are back and we are gonna be reduced to square one again. if you saw me walking in the street, will you still love me all the same? the same you claimed you would?
is the sky prettier and clearer back there? its all the same back here. we still breathe, eat, drink and fight for empty seats on the buses everyday. nothing changes. i tried to eat less cherries today but i failed cos they tasted too good. doesnt make sense? yeah. im listening to lame song. but the lyrics to the lame song is what i wanna say to you. despite the ultimate lameness oozing out from it. i made you a card. but its so ugly that i cant bear to mail it to you. i will remake one soon.
i wish i can be more responsible towards you honestly. i know how unfair ive been to you. i wish im dead sometimes. or at least, i cld turn back the clock. but i cant, so im just gonna die. do you want me to die?
i seem to be thinking abt you every other min. i wish i cld stop cos you are congesting my mind. i cant think properly. my friend asked me what is my name and i told her madonna. its that bad. but im not complaining since i guess it will be really awful if one day, you just decided not to be on my mind anymore. or what if one day i ended up suffering from amnesia and cant remember you no more. so im gonna put up with you running to and fro on my mind.
someone tried to send me arabic song on icq awhile ago. he is from egypt. im tempted to ask him if egyptians do camel dung cakes. but im afraid he will curse me through icq so i refrained and he has a scary screen-name, GREEN EYES (my eyes are dark brown close to black and my left eye is bigger than my right eye i think or vice versa if you didnt notice). you know dung cakes like what phoolan devi used to make in india before she got killed? you know?
i shld get back to my work soon. but you know i love you right? no matter what i did, i never meant to hurt you. i just so happened to love you in a wrong way. im sorry if at the end you cant forgive me. im sorry. because it was never meant to be this way.
loves, me.
p/s: you asked me if i still love her, and you said you dont mind if i still do cos it will all go away in time. i wanted to be honest but still i struggled to say no. not that i still love her, but i guess, i dont have an ans. i, just, love, the, memories. do you understand?

Yeah, you.

I was shocked at how desperately I sought your face on Wednesday. It seemed like a place that you might be and whenever I’m in a place that seems like a place that you might be, I desperately seek you face. And I am always shocked.

Just when I think I’m letting go…

So, here’s a message in a bottle that I know you will not read.

I love you.

I know; It’s shocking.