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| I sit here alone in this dark place My mind has gone crazy my hearts in a race I sit here alone as people pass by I scream to be heard but can't and cry I sit here alone with my thoughts gone mad I feel I'm insane from this life that I've had I sit here alone visions of the past fill my mind And I long for the peace that I just can not find I sit here alone and fight to hold on But i'm losing my grasp my sanity is gone I sit here alone my death does assail for I know in my heart my life I did fail I sit here alone I try not to think why For i know it is best If I just say good-bye I sit here alone the ends drawing near The struggle is over I won't shed a tear I sit here alone I shall never see light I shall have only darkness in my own world tonight (1993) |
| MY OWN WORLD |
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| The night wind settles in peacefull slumber accross the moon lit sky I rest my head upon my pillow and bid my sleep good-bye for my thougths have turned to you again and my soul feels incomplete for it is only within your warm embrace that I shall find retreat So I will close my eyes yet once again but with these thoughts of you I keep, my soul won't let me rest alone so tonight I will not sleep (4/15/2003) |
| INSOMNIA |
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| I will not break I will not tire and my knees will not buckle I will take all that weighs me down carry it and never touch the ground I refuse to let the odds beat me I am stronger then anything that stands in my way I visualize my victory and follow through physically I am up to my nose in water and I don't know how to swim but I will not drown I refuse to let the odds drag me down I will not break I will not tire and my knees will not buckle |
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| Does she hear my voice, when I call to her in the night? Does she hear me sing her to sleep, with a silent luluby? Does she feel within her heart, the prayers I speak with her in mind? Does she feel a warmth surround her when I dream she's in my arms at night? Does she know the tears I cry for her when I know she is in pain? Does she know the smile that graces my face every time she speaks my name? Does she hear the things I tell her when she's gone or fast asleep? Does she know the things I tell her even when I do not speak? Maybe it's just my imagination is what I feel for her real? My heart longs to have the questions answered But her silence tells me how she feels (1995) |
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| I lay in the presence of it's could arms like a vice they cleave to me they grasp and latch on never ceasing to release thier hold but i do not fight it there is no point the battle has been fought the sounds of it's victory pierce throught my ears like echoing screams of terror through the dead of night My eyes behold it's darkness it surrounds me from every direction it envelops me covering me like a blanket Its strength feeding and growing from my weakness I lower my sword and I feel the warmth of that wich is in me trickle down my chilled skin It has won and I am powerless to stop it but then.... what reason do I have to try? (1993) |
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| Essence of joy surrounding my soul entraping my mind, blinding my eyes dancing with bliss I lose myself in you songs of desire screaming from within my lips have become silent, your body my refuge what your lips speak is a language that has no words a sentence of knowing, a story of passion I can not contain whats growing inside knocking at the door you hold the keys I open myself and release it to you as we become one skin (7/29/2005) |