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| So today is the Anniversary of my relationship with God. Happy Anniversary!!! He is not an easy one to understand but it gets to the fundamental law of� love to have a successful friendship, simply accepting what you can't understand and trusting we both work toward a� common goal : my well being! I'm the big winner here even if I may look like� the loser to the rest of the world! Noone pays my bills, He did, in blood money and I can't never refund that but I can try� to make it worth the investment. |
| The Catholic religion believes in predestiny which is very different that fate or destiny. God knows the beginning & the end of all matters for He is past, present & future all at once. To me, since I'm blessed or plagued (depending on what I'm given to foresee) with the gift of double vision, I have developped a personal view on this. We are made of God, we lived in his company and this life is nothing but the journey back home to Him. I call visions : memory of the future for being what God is made of incarnated in flesh gave us this knowledge,� we simply forgot it on our way down. Seeing the� material world are blinded all of us to the invisible world. |
| We all choose a system of guidance to make our way in this world. Some use astrology, some� rational� thinking, some religion, some psychology, however noone has found a flawless, 100% efficient guiding� line.�� I have tried them all, I have never came across the perfect one and� unless someone comes along and presents me with such, I have elected to use dreams and inner voices to get around the 'house'. |
| I've been traveling a total fog of confusion when it comes to my personal life. I'm so out of touch with� myself that I wouldn't be surprised if one day I look at myself in the mirror and can't even recognize my own reflection. Being a spiritual guide is the most humbling experience ever. Being put in charge of helping people, sort� out� their lives put me in front of my own limitations to fix my own every minutes of the day. |
Every successful answers I make call up another millions questions I don't know the answer� to. I've seen more rewarding on the ego department. It takes some major ego flattening to accept� to� do this job. Some people ask me how come� I can see that much for them and that little� for myself? How can God let me go thru that much confusion and how can I pretend to guide them thru their own when I'm powerless with mine? I guess just the same way that Jesus could rise the deads yet let Himself die on a cross. I have learnt that "I don't know" is a perfectly acceptable answer. I can be blind as a bat when it comes to personal matters, at least bats have the echoes of their ultrasound to let them know they are about to hit a wall. When the voice shuts up, it's so dark in there, scary dark.... |
| From those who think God only talks to people who are special, He talks to anybody, we are simply� not hearing Him. Now, perhaps He talks to me in a special way BUT it's certainly not dued to some� incredible quality or ressemblance of perfection I have. I really, truly believe that He had mercy on me and seeing me so clueless He knows that's the only way� for me to have a chance to get it right is making His presence and will THAT loud and visible to me.� I'm not being modest (Lord knows it's not my biggest quality) neither am I trying to be cute. |
| I know some of us live an entire existence without having one conversation with Him, not one date! I can't even fathom such life, I feel so homeless when I don't feel His presence & inspiration, I'm deader than dead, I do anything I can to try to get Him back. I don't know what to say, some of you know Him already but for those who don't yet, He is a neat kid and I hope I can introduce you to Him thru this site. |
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