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Another brand new year : 2002 We are march 15th 2002, the past few weeks of the new year gives me a nice lil' glimpse of what this year should be about. Hmmmm... shit? So before I loose track of the whole plate lets get started at listing the festivity we've enjoyed so far. Who would want to miss a thing huh? |
| My relationship with my mother has greatly improved in the past few months. I've got sick of punishing myself for the fact that my mom is not my brother's biggest fan. I'm not even sure what made me decide to be fair with him cuz I felt she wasn't. Lord knows he is not with me. My family shares a trade : They are always very busy and determined to make believe that I'm worthless and deserve nothing, when it's not my mom, it's my brother, it's getting pretty unoriginal. Luckily, I have a good sense of who I am and the most wonderful friends in the world to prove them wrong when I start doubting. |
| I didn't go out for New Year's Eve. It may sound very extreme but I had one good new year's eve in my whole 34 long years of life! The night I've met Richie. I'm a week away from my 34th birthday and I also had one good birthday in my whole bloody life, the night I went home with Rod Jackson and Slash called to fish him out of the house the following day. I had echoes that he actually enjoyed the night and remembers. I might be the prude of Hollywood but I'm also called Hollywood most wanted groupie! Perhaps I know a couple of things to have fun w/the boys |
| So I've missed the first day of the year when anything goes in my book but I tried to do some catch up a week later with an unnamed sexy fellow. I love the movie "The Doors" and I always thought the scene when Morrison is in the bathroom with some lovely lady talking (what else can you do in the bathroom with a girl?? Duh!), somehow even though I laughed and still do, when I lived the same scene myself, I didn't find the same groupie anthem flavor to it. Sure I'll find it a cool memory to tell later on but 3 months later I'm still not sure I'm amused yet. We'll see when my sense of humour kicks in. |
| That scene however taught me a whole lot about myself and one of my most obvious flaw. Yeah, well, we're all guilty of it but I might be pushing it even more. I'm not always aware of the full impact of my own words and how it can unintentionally fuck with people's head. It's more out of pure ignorance that I've been guilty in the past of making 'promises' believing at the moment I make them that I could keep up with him to find myself flaking on my words. |
| I knew from studying my natal chart that I do tend to be deceived by my partners as well as being deceitful but I never understood how exactly I was so. It's hard correct something you are not aware of taking place and how. So now, I try to stand my words. The only goal I'm reaching by putting my money when my mouth is would be to break that bad habit and putting more value in what I say. In fact, that little flaw just cost me $800.00, nice price to pay for something you didn't even know you were guilty of but that's okay. Fuck money, that will serve me greatly in the future, to move further in some of my adventures. It also costed me 2 topless pictures but once again, I will cash up the big way, the only way I know, my way.... So I'll still be winner. |
| So far not much happened, aside from the usual typical madness that my life persists to be. I have a new one, that is just about as completely insane that anything else I'm about or do so since this place is about my crazy life, lets spill out the beans. I've found a mentor, well, actually a mentor has found me. I jokingly call myself a charity case, that's my 'welcome to the jungle' sense of humour. Yeah, of course, God could've sent me a job like everybody else to make money but nope, His big fad with me is sending me mentors, it's always been this way, I guess we don't change a winning team upthere either! |
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