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| There is this complete stranger, not bad looking coming up to me, blonde curly hair, very Morrison looking in a way. He asks if I know Stevie, I said I've just met him. He ask who I know here and I say everybody, you know, Slash, Gilby, Teddy etc.... then he asks if I know Richie! Why on earth would he ask me that?? He tells me that lots of girls stay in love with him for many years and asks me if I would go out with Richie. The conversation got so weird that I shrotly answered something and walk away, Nicklebag was about to play so last thing I wanted was to ruin my chance to see and hear what the fuzz was all about, Oh MY..... The guy literally vanishes like he has never even been there, he was nowhere to be found. Like the conversation and night was not whacky enough! |
| So of course, I see my bloody soulmate on March 17th, as always, I'm not talking to him at this point, I'm just not in the mood to say a bloody word to him. By then, I'm into a habit of writing down all my dreams and emailing them to myself to have dates to proove that I could foresee events before end! And I can go on and on forever about such coincidence. Coincidences or? 'Perhaps Hazard is the paradigm God uses to sign when He doesn't want to be known.' Years on Earth have taught me to still not jump to conclusions, what seems the most obvious is not always the most accurate by far and can very well be a teeny tiny details of a much larger pictures but when you come across a synchronicity, it's telling you you are on the right path. Don't use it to naturally think someone giving you an answer is THE answer......... Sometimes, people come to know each other to serve a purpose in one another's lives at a given time. I have not seen him in almost a year now but we kept in touch. I guess we were both healing our lives and now that it's done we don't have any needs for one another. Haaaa.... that's another one of my terrible flaws or beliefs. I believe that once we are done getting what we are supposed to from a person of an experience, it's time to let go and move on to the next level, I so move on that I grow estranged sometimes. I feel like so cold but my feelings are what they are. You don't take the same class over and over, once you get it, you go up so why not do the same with everything?? |
| I, sometimes, stick around friends out of guilt more than out of true friendship and I'm learning to be better at it. I'm so purpose and goal oriented that I'm very unaware of other people's feeling causing them griefs. It truly isn't an easy one for me to cut ties but who wants to be bound by guilt and not true affection? Not me, so I'd hope people could dig on the honesty at least. I've broke off friendships and relationships cold turkey, I have a history of it. I have a life to live and have no time for dwelling and guilt and perhaps it's cruel but when my shoes are torn up and prevent me from walking instead of helping me, it's time to throw them away!! I stay friends with other people for years, 10, 15 years. Either Valerie or MC I've known for like 3 to 4 years, Anthony for like 10 years, Billy some 8 years or so......etc..... it's not like I go thru friends like tissue or something, only boyfriends... JUST KIDDING!! Problem being I'm long gone and moved on 'til I get a phone call months or years later or run into them still being all goo eyes over me when I feel so separated from them, like we've never met before. And that's where I'm Italian to the bone, I never forgive or forget people's actions. I forgive and forget them though.... Ooops! And I go by one very french rule : "Before time, it's still on time, after time, it's no longer time!" I may take a century and a half to decide something but once I decide to call it quit, I hope everybody see it my way cuz I don't take one extra minutes to reconsider my decision. It's not because I never make mistake but because my heart hasn't gone cold way before I break if off for good so I had plenty of time to double test my decision. You've got the last drop out of me so get out. You've got it, drink it, enjoy it, live with it and fucking die with it too! |
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We've became friends from that point on. But the out of the world part is yet to come. Well aside from seeing Nicklebag aka best drummer alive BrianTichy, Bernard Fowler, Doug Wimbish, Ivan Neville and Stevie being pretty darn close to be the best one in their own categories as well!!! What a big musical spanking it was for me!! I couldn't even tell you where and when and what Slash was doing I was so traumatised over the talent of those guys, like Tichy wasn't enough by himself. |