eternity

For days after I've met him, I could see his eyes, I felt like they were looking
into me telling me to dig deeper. A few days after the law of synchronicity kicked in
when me and Angela went out.

We went to the Viper Room to see Metal Shop and the guys from The Beautiful
Creatures were there!(Dave Aragon was there and I run into one my ex date)
Kenny used to play with Dave and I saw him a million times before but all a sudden
I looked over at him and the spot light was right in his face and it's like I saw
him for the first time. His eyes were green! I have never noticed!
They merged in my mind with the Butterfly Catcher manchild's eyes.

Kenny moved his hand and he had a plastic Butterfly ring on his finger.
I grabbed his hand in a reflex and said "The butterfly!" so it took my hand,
took off the ring and put it on my own finger. Then we talked and he explained
the butterfly rings were ornaments off Joe's� wife� birthday cake.

Me and Angela talked about� this for a while and I couldn't solve the riddle.

The following day, the phone rings and that's the brilliant Angela fairy.
"Laure, I figured out the riddle! In the movie 'The last Unicorn', the Unicorn keeps
on going up to the Butterfly to ask him questions thinking he has the answer.
The Butterfly keeps on saying : 'Don't listen to me, just listen!'"

He is making it clear to not worry about the messenger but the message.
That's how I FINALLY after years of not getting it understood some of life big
mysteries. You will come to meet lots of people in your life, some will have answers
and solutions and keys but just because they have any of them doesn't mean
they are THE answer or THE solution.

And that's what being in love with someone can be sometimes. Finding an answer
within someone and not realising that having an answer doesn't make a person
'your' answer if I may call it this way.

Then I did have the vision, it was very VERY poweful. Claudia was with me,
I grabbed her wrist to pace down my heart back to normal by listening to her
own pulse, she was fairly freaked out. I guess she has never seen that kind
of drifting away traveling different planes of reality, poor kid. She was even
more freaked out when I told her 'Tonight you will see Richie, say Hello to him
for me!' She was very much skeptical until she saw him that very night....
Of course, she� brought a 'Hello' back from him once she got home.

The Butterfly manchild eyes guided me thru the whole vision.
At the moment, two third of the puzzle is pretty much solved, the last third yet to be
completed. I certainly won't dare to find the meaning of it all until the light gets totally shed
over it without my help. I participate as always but I do not make things happen, I just
do my part like I would in other circumstances. Not to mention it's extremely pretentious
and ignorant to think you can make the future match a dream. The event comes first then
the dream even though chronologically speaking the dream take place first.
God's idea of time is not ours.
To Him, present, past and future all mesh up in one minute, we are just too
blind and limited to get that concept.

While I'm at clearing up facts. Some of the people I know have told me to
be scarred of me because of my dreams. I have been accused in the past
of being people's cause of death because I have predicted the event.

I don't have any supranormal powers and certainly not the power to kill anyone with
dreams. Some people shoot themselves in the head & don't die, some others fall off
the sidewalk height in a fatal fall, only God is the Master of life and Death.

Some people ask me to predict who they will be with and even though I have
given names a couple of times. Those are extraordinary cases and they serve
a much higher purpose than name dropping to show off. They are meant to show what
God can do for those who believe! Believing is Seeing. I don't see anything for
people who challenge me to see something for them but only the dark
intentions in their heart� and call them up on it rather roughly!

I don't have a gift to play into some power trip game. I have it to serve God
and mankind. Don't turn to me, don't look at my life, there is no answer in it.
Don't listen to me, just listen.� You may forget that, I never do.....

When you ask for a sign, don't look at the messenger, who is often not important
but focus on the message instead. It all goes back to the same fundamental truth behind
God and Religion. Don't ever, ever put the Law, signs, miracles... Don't put what you see
above God who creates them. Look at God who's the Giver and Master of it all. The movie
Stigmata ends with the perfect line using the words of Jesus in one of the 12 books that
constitute the Apocrypha (recognized as accurate by the Catholic religion only among
all the Christian religions) : 'Lift the Stone and you will find ME!'