but see it not
and into the mist
I cry
"Who are you
and yet
what are you?"
"I will only say
I am the keeper of the sky."
And with that
the feeling left
and the world was calm again
I feel it now
but see it not
and the rustle of angels wings
surrounds.
-2001
I can't die because something stops me.
I can't excel because someone blocks me.
I can't fail because determination won't let me.
I can't do what I want to because someone won't let me.
I can't do what others want me to do because I won't let me.
I'm doomed to this fate with no one to blame.
Sadness engulfs me.
- December 12, 2002
Upon not getting the coveted part in the school play.