Jan. 10th/03: Somebody was on fire. it mite've been jesse or jan.

                       Dec. 8/03: At first, it was me, lola, margaux, and kathy, and we were in zellers looking at makeup. then kathy gave the twins a christmas card, from their dad, and it was about how when parents got divorced, the kids should spend equal time with both their parents. {im gonna add in how i felt, cuz my psychopath is going to ask me when i explain it to her} The card made me feel a depressed, like a why-shld-lola-and-margaux-get-to-see-their-dad-more-than-i-get-to-see-mine type of feeling. Now, somewhere in the store, we had a tent set up (dont ask) and so i went over to our tent, to find two girls making out inside, and a whole bunch of ppl who worked at the store crowded around, and no one would tell me what was going on, wich was really frustrating for me. Then, i started eating a mandarin, then realized that i hadn't yet paid for it, and then it was time to leave the store.

                       {im not sure if this next part is part of the same dream, or if it's just another dream that i happend to have on the same night. either way, here it is}

                       I was all freaked out, because i was spending the night home alone, at my house, only my house was jesse's house, and i was afraid that someone was going to come and kill me or something. Anyways, while i was all paranoid, i was also really mad cuz jesse went somewhere, and i wldnt see him for a while. Then at night, i went out with missa, sammy, jessi (z), etc, and we were walking home along north road when we ran into graeme, who was on his way home from soccer practise. so we walked for a bit, and then graeme became tom (i think). Anyways, we got to near my house, and we were passing all these bars and cafe's, like you would in france, when i see jesse. So i ran up to him and gave him a hug and then when to kiss him, only instead of kissing me back, he sort of blew into my mouth, and then i got really mad, and started crying and hitting him but i was so exhausted that i gave up, and so he carried me into his room and put me on his bed.

                       Nov. 16/03: I had a mechanical pencil, and i kept putting more and more lead into it because i didnt want to run out.

                       Nov 11/03: Alex, Teryl and i were at Teryl's house, and we were going to catch the bus to my house. We were looking at the schedule and realised we had missed the "1st" one, but the "2nd" one came like in 2 mins, so Teryl ran inside to grab all her shiznat, and Alex was about to go back into Teryls house, but then i started talking to him, and he was about to tell me why he was feeling all depressed lately, but then my mom woke me up because i was going to be late for school.

                       Sept 29/03: Jesse and I were at his house, and we had stayed the night. It was really dark and seemed to be something like four o'clock in the morning, but we were getting ready for school. I went over to my house to grab something, and there were people I had never seen in my life near my front door, like my brother was having a party or something. This one guy was sitting on this chair right outside my door, and as i was about to go in, he whistled or something and I talked back to him and told him to shut his fucking mouth or something equally ineffective, and turned around to head back to Jesse's, but I forgot my shoes after turning around to mouth off to that guy but I didn't realize it until I was halfway there and walking on wet grass with white (matching!) socks and I didn't go back for them. When we got to Jesse's, he told me that we were getting a ride from Tegan, which I thought was rather odd, seeing how Jesse doesn't know Tegan at all, and Tegan, having judged him like she did, decided that she doesn't like him. Anyways, Tegan came by in her car, and her mom was driving, and so Jesse and I got in and she had a mug of coffee in her hand. We were trying to take a short cut, and it ended up in my Aunt and Uncle's backyard or Mayne Island, and we got stuck in this hole that a hose was sticking out of.

                       Sept. 23/03: I was walking up a grassy hill and felt as if I could float, as if in water, but there was no water.

                       Aug. 31/03: I was at school, and during lunch, I was outside with some friends and all of a sudden, some friends from France (Julia, Romain, Michael)  showed up, and I was so happy to see them. But they were all sweaty and out of breath, as if they had ran all the way to my school, from France.

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