Lost and Confused Thoughts (Poetry)
Normal?,
I turn the volume up to drown out your voices once again.
Everytime I have to do that it's one time too many.
When I was younger I used to make thing obvious and cover my ears with my
hands.
Even then you didn't realize just what you did to me.
I love you both regardless,
but it still hurts.
My heart still stings with the pain of so many years past,
this drive just brings up so many harsh memories.
I wish things didn't have to still be this way.
When we had those meetings we always promised this would change.
You promised there'd be no more yelling, and we hoped there'd be no more
crying.
Things always fell apart and shomhow went back to what I then deemed
'normal'.
Now I know it wasn't.
So I turn up the volume louder to drown you out.
I wish I didn't have to.