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Only weeks after Anne had left her husband John, indignant at being confronted about her affair with a
married man, Anne was living with Wayne.
Wayne was the very man Anne, In her attempts to deny the evidence of her affair, had claimed was only a "platonic friend."
But now that Anne and Wayne were living together, everyone, including Anne's children realized that John had indeed been right.
They also realized that their mother was living in sin. And that her situation was even more shameful because Wayne was still married to another woman.
Anne's children had even confronted Anne with the fact that she was living in sin, but Anne refused to even acknowledge it.
Anne's Husband, John, even knowing that Anne was living with Wayne tried to convince her to return and try to reconcile their marriage. But Anne refused to even consider it.
So it came as a shock to Anne's children to hear their mother express regrets about leaving her husband. And when Wayne convinced Anne to divorce John and marry him, Anne's Children were pushed away knowing that their mother was living in sin with Wayne even after they became man and wife.
And they were especially upset knowing that because of their mother's marriage to Wayne, John could never accept her back into his life because she had been re married and defiled and the
Bible stated that he could never accept her back into his life.
So every day that Anne lived with Wayne, even as Man and Wife, she was committing adultery.
Then, late one winter evening in 1993 as Anne was driving home, her car hit a patch of "black ice" on the highway and spun out of control leaving the highway.
Anne was killed instantly when the driver's door impacted with a large tree.
Everyone was devastated over this tragic death.
Anne's Children were especially upset because Anne had still been living with Wayne, even though their wedded bliss was heading toward another divorce for each of them.
Anne's children knew that Anne had died as she was living, In Sin. And this made them grieve even more for their lost mother. Because they knew without any doubt that Anne was not in Heaven.
When Anne's children were going through their mother's effects, sent to them by a strangely un-grieving Wayne. They came upon a diary that Anne had been using the last months of her life. And contained within the pages of that diary was an even greater tragedy.
Anne had known that she was living in sin with Wayne.
She had read the passages of the Bible that outlined her situation in life.
Anne had intended to file for divorce from Wayne so that she would not be committing adultery every day.
She further outlined that although she knew that John
could not accept her back into his life, she intended to approach John and beg for his forgiveness for the wrong she had done to him.
She wrote that she needed to do this before she could accept communion.
A pastor she had talked with had told her of the passage instructing her to
examine herself and if necessary make things right with those that she had wronged before accepting communion, and Anne intended to do this.
Anne also wrote that she was going to ask John if it was ok with him and his new wife, for her to live in the nearby town where she intended to live out her life celibate and dedicated to Christ's teachings.
Anne had written that she had found
the passages in the Bible that had freed John to re-marry after Anne had divorced him.
There were tear stains on the page where Anne had written of her regret at being tricked by Wayne.
She realized too late that Wayne had been acting on behalf of Satan and that he had made her blind and deaf to the truth.
She wrote that Wayne had convinced her that he was a "Christian."
But she realized that he was merely telling her this to trap her.
His vulnerable act combined with his confident manner afterward made it clear that his intentions were to get to her as he had done.
She had finally realized that a Christian man would never pursue another man's wife with the blessing of God.
The story of
David had shown her that.
Anne revealed that her life with Wayne had been filled with one trial after another.
And it was when she read
Deuteronomy 28 and 29
she realized that God was trying to get her attention.
That God was raining down upon her one punishment after another because of her life of sin.
Anne further wrote that she was aware of her children and ex-husband's continual prayers for her.
And that although she had expressed gratitude for them, she was just telling her children what she thought they wished to hear.
She stated that she had not been able to talk with John after the divorce, so she had not thanked him for his prayers.
But she had written that she fully intended to drive to John's home and thank him along with asking about moving nearby knowing that if the constant reminder of what she had lost were not there she would fall back into Wayne's bed and continue to live in sin.
Anne had wrote that she had missed a very important line in one of the passages in the
8th chapter of the book of John. Where Jesus, in forgiving a woman who commited adultery, told her to "go and sin no more".
Forgiveness had a condition to it.
She had to remove sin from her life.
And Anne wrote that she intended to do this.
Anne's children were not comforted by these words.
They knew that what was contained within these pages did not make any difference in where their mother was at that very moment.
That the finest intentions did not change their mothers destiny.
They grieved even more for their mother because she was so close to turning her life around and truly accepting Christ when she died.
It was as if Satan had known of her intentions and killed her to prevent her from carrying through with her plans.
Hell is Very real.
It doesn't take much imagination to visualize Anne screaming in agony and pain at the turn her life had taken.
She had found a Christian man, married him.
Then by giving in to the seduction of another woman's husband, she divorced the very man she had searched for her entire life.
Anne did not blame John for re-marrying.
After all she had committed adultery and ran away rather then face the shame of her deeds.
Anne was Angry at Wayne for tricking her into sin.
Anne was angry at herself for not listening to John and her Children.
And Anne was especially angry that she had once accepted Christ into her life, and that he had provided her with a loving husband, a beautiful home, and a promising future.
And that she had rejected it all because of what she now believed was a demon's seducing lies and promises.
Anne now looked out over a sea of fire.
Her arms outstretched as if reaching for the distant gates of Heaven that would now remain eternally beyond her reach.
Alone.
Naked.
Suffering.
Muttering her sorrow at her stupidity.
Praying for a second chance.
Realizing that her words did her no good now.
Wishing that she had swallowed her pride and accepted John's offer of reconciliation.
After all, what was a few months of suffering the "shame on you" looks of the people in the town where John lived who knew of her sins compared to this.
Anne had realized, too late, the cost of sin.
She had been told what to expect, and she had planned to repent in time to go to Heaven, but time ran out.
All her plans could not save her now.
If only she had acted sooner.
Her children had warned her.
But she "knew what she was doing" and had planned to have her fling before trying Christianity again.
But here she was, forever trapped in Hell.
The victim of her own sins.
And now, nothing could save her.
She had eternity to scream her frustrations out over a sea of flames.
An eternity to look upward and see the gates of Heaven taunting her for her delay. Eternity knowing that if her children were in Heaven, they no longer even remembered her because in Heaven there is no sorrow.
But Anne did not even know what happened to her children.
She was trapped forever in Hell, and did not even know what possible fate her children might have.
How cruel life had been.
Anne screamed out in anguish and frustration but her screams were drowned by the multitude of similar screams of the untold millions of lost souls around her.
There was no comfort in the thought of all theses others who had also sinned and surrounded her now.
She tried to turn her head to look around her for a familiar face, but was unable to move anything but her eyes.
Anne then tried to listen for a familiar word, but every sound she heard was unintelligible.
She could not see or understand anything.
There was absolutely no comforting presence where she now found herself. She was alone in her torment.
And would stay that way forever.
How stupid Anne had been.
Anne thought about just how long Eternity was.
She had read about the concept of grains of sand in all the oceans.
And tried to think about it.
She started by thinking about how many grains of sand she could hold in her hand.
After a while of thinking about it she figured "why not just say that I can hold a million grains of sand in my hand."
Then she tried to figure out how long a million days was.
She realized that a thousand years would be 365,000 days so three thousand years worked out close to a million days.
"THREE THOUSAND YEARS" and that was just from one handful of sand.
How many billions of handfuls were there on just one beach?
Not including the sea floor and all the other beaches.
That's when it hit Anne.
There was no escape.
And she felt like she wanted to die.
That was when the second part of this hit her.
She was already dead.
There truly was no escape from where she had placed herself.
Anne knew that she would spend eternity wishing she had accepted responsibility for her actions instead of running away.
John had been willing to forgive her.
Why had she been so stupid to ignore her husband's words and listen to the smooth seduction Wayne?
She should have realized that Wayne was a married man and had nothing to do with him.
Anne was sure that Wayne had "moved on" and was probably at that very moment sentencing another woman to the very fate Anne was suffering.
She had seen him for what he was to late.
Why had she listened to him?
Why had she fallen for such a trick?
Why?
Why? Why?
Anne's tears now evaporated in the steam and ash raising from the boiling sea of fire around her.
Why? Why?
Why?
Anne's torment and agony had, for her it seemed, reached it's ultimate when she felt something crawling up her leg.
Then there were more of them.
Shifting her eyes downward, Anne could see them.
Millions of them.
Bugs and worms and snakes and vermin of all kinds they were everywhere.
She could feel them crawling up her naked exposed body.
They crawled into every crevice and opening of her body. eating away at the charred flesh as they went.
Anne screamed in sheer horror at the thought of maggots and worms using her body as a breeding ground.
But she could not use her arms to brush them away.
And she could only close her mouth when something tried to enter it.
But Anne was helpless to prevent these vile vermin from entering her body through other orifices.
Anne wanted to scream at the tearing away of her flesh as these creatures eat away at her body.
Anne was sure that at some point she would die from the removal of her flesh.
But how could she die, when she was already dead.
like a swarm of locusts, the vile repulsive creatures eat their fill and moved on only to be replaced by another swarm just as horrifying as the last.
Wave after wave of these ravenous underworld vermin eat at her.
Until she thought that she must not have any flesh left for them to eat.
She looked at her outstretched arms and saw that the flesh was torn and shredded but that as much as the creatures had eaten, she was still clothed in her bare flesh.
How can this be? Anne asked herself.
But Hell has it's own way of torturing sinners.
And there is no escape from an eternity of agony.
Are you living a life of sin? Are you planning to change as Anne had?
For Anne, Time ran out.
Satan had known of her plans and snatched her from this world before she could do the right thing.
Are you going to leave it to the last minute before accepting Christ and changing your sinful ways.
Christ has a place prepared for you, and wishes for you to be by his side in Heaven.
But it is up to you to accept his gift of salvation and change your ways.
Anne realized, to late that she had strayed from God's instructed ways.
She made plans to change. But she did not change.
All the planning in the world will not save you if you do nothing about it.
Time ran out for Anne.
Is it going to run out for you?
Christ can return this very day, and the dead shall rise up.
Are you going to be caught un-saved?
Accepting Christ's gift of salvation is free for all.
Changing your sinning ways comes from truly accepting Christ's Gift.
If you are living in sin and professing to be saved,
then I have news for you.
You are not saved.
You must repent your sins, and follow Christ.
You cannot live a life of sin and have Christ in your heart.
He can forgive you for your past, but you must remove sin from your life and follow him.
There is NO OTHER WAY.
Is there going to be a sunrise for you tomorrow?
Will you die in your sleep tonight surrounded by sin?
If you feel uncomfortable at this thought, think of Anne, trapped in Hell for eternity.
That is the price of sin.
Are you willing to pay that price?
Think about it.
I have been a Decon in our church for quite a number of years now, and I have heard many people describe similar conditions where they strayed from Christ's path. Many women feel that the man they betrayed their husband and children for was a demon. When in fact this demon was just a man straying from Christ as well. I have counceled many a family who has gone through a divorce and when the situation calmed down, they wished to re-marry. I have had to caution a few of these couples about re-marriage after one or the other has already re-married and again divorced. The situation is clear and God has instructed his people Not to do this. So I caution people to consider carefully their decisions and take their time. because in many cases, there is no going back.
If you are in this type of situation, my advice for you is to "Do the right thing. Try to reconcile with your wife or husband, even if you are divorced. As long as neither of you have re-married, then God allows this reconciliation." This advice especially applies to the party who broke up the marriage by committing adultery in the first place. Because you are then bound to the spouse you cheated on till their death, while they are not bound to you because you betrayed them and divorced them and God has said that they are to let you go. So consider Anne's story when you think about the humiliation of returning to someone you hurt greatly. Because a few month's of shame sure beats an eternity of Hell.
To sum it all up:
1. A husband and wife are bound to each other for life.
2. If either leaves the other, then both must remain single for the rest of their lives.
3. If either one remarries, there is Adultery. For them and for others who marry them.
There has been given in the New Testament only three exceptions to the above rules which allow remarriage without sin..
1. The innocent party divorces because the other has commited Fornication (adultery).
2. The other party, husband or wife, has died
3. While being married you have accepted Jesus Christ, becoming a Christian and your non Christian spouse divorces you because you are now a Christian.
And what about those who have been married and divorced several times before they become Christians? When you come to Jesus Christ you have asked Jesus for forgiveness for ALL sins commited before. If you have done this in prayer, and realized the consequences of your sins at that time, then you did receive Forgiveness and you were starting again with a clean slate, so it is as if it were your first marriage. And it is up to you to follow God's Word as given in the Bible.
In simple terms, if you felt concern about how God would judge you because of an impending divorce, don't get the divorce because you are married to that person.
If you have already obtained the divorce, but neither of you have re-married, try to reconcile.
And if you are the one who broke up your marrage by committing adultery, and you have since re-married, then you are living in sin and could be in Anne's place if you don't stop..
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