? Pounds Gone Forever!!!
My name is Beth, and I live on Long Island, NY. I will be 42 this December 28th - and my fiance, Scott, and I share the same birthday. Not the year, mind you - but the Month/Day. We are getting married on May 18, 2002. I have been overweight since I was 12 years old. 30 years of yo-yo dieting, fasting, Diet Control Center, Diet Center, Atkins, Jenny Craig, Opti-fast, Cambridge Diet, NutraSystem, Lean Line, TOPS, hypnosis, diet pills, professional dietician consults, Metabolite, Over-eaters Anonymous, etc. and several tries at Weight Watchers. I shudder to think of all the money I laid out over the years on these programs - only to still remain fat. I just completed my first few months of my "new beginning" week on WW and I am down from 232 to 228 & 1/4. Do you know what makes this try different than all the others? Granted, the fact that I want to look better for my wedding day in May is a strong "do-it-now" incentive. But more importantly - I realized, finally, that for 30+ years I have lived a life of no self-control. I would make daily choices - and always picked the easiest, "no-suffering" choice. Should I exercise or not? "Nah, too hard today. Maybe this weekend." Should I eat a huge salad, or a huge piece of chocolate cake? "Hand me that cake, baby!" Gee, my clothes are really tight - perhaps I should cut back on eating? "Just buy a bigger size". Or if the diet plan got too tough - I did the easy thing and gave up! Just paid out $1000 for NutraSystem? "Oh well, guess I will always be big-boned." To be frank, my housework/laundry needed a little discipline as well. Dishes need to be done? "Oh, I love this TV show, I will do them later." Tomorrow never comes, they say! Whenever I was faced with a choice that could give me discomfort, I ALWAYS chose the one that satisfied me immediately, rather than selecting the one that would give me a greater reward or happiness later on. In effect, I was acting like a child, rather than like a disciplined adult. Do thin people eat whatever they want? Not really. They eat reasonable portions, get more physical activity than I do - they pay a price every day to remain thin. It is called self-control. I have been listening to my spoiled inside child for 30 years -- and it stops, now! Anyway, thanks for letting me ramble and here's to seeing "less of you" in the future :-)
